I retreated to my bedroom. I was naked and had just cum and my mind was spinning out of control. I didn't like seeing my father humiliated, but I was really aroused seeing my mother dominate him. I loved how sexual she was presenting herself and how strong and confident she had become. I tried to figure out when things changed. My mother had always argued with my father about how much he traveled, and how little time he spent with her when he was home. I just didn't see this big new arrangement coming. I wondered who Mr.Big was, and where did she find him. There were so many unanswered questions.
I heard my father leave to help Ray set up for the party as my mother poked her head in my bedroom door.
"I had to clean your cum off the wall and railing, I hope your father didn't see it...I'm not sure how comfortable he is with you knowing so much. If he knew you're as aroused by it as you are, he might get very upset." My mother said as she stepped into my room.
My mother sat on my bed as I tried to cover myself.
Looking at me struggling, she said, "Please...aren't we all past hiding our bits and pieces? You saw me and I saw you in a very compromising way the other night, and how about today? Let's just admit we can be naked as we always have and realize we all are sexual beings too."
I nodded and laid back crossing my thigh over the other in a pale attempt to partially hide my cock.
I caught my Mom still taking lingering glances at my cock. It excited me that she found me to be big and desirable, but why did she have to throw it in my father's face?
"Why do you feel the need to humiliate him so much? I bluntly asked."
My mother looked at me and began to say something, and stopped. She shook her head and just said, Matty, "It's complicated."
"What's so complicated? I mean obviously, you want to fuck other men and I'm sure that makes Dad feel bad, and then you tell him he has a tiny cock and..." Mom cut me off.
"Yes, and no...It's complicated. Your father suggested we never tell you anything about this. Maybe he was right. I felt you being the smart boy you are, would be upset if you discovered our lifestyle later."
I looked at her and asked, "Oooooh, now it's a lifestyle?"
"This is the reason I wanted you to live in the dorm."
"So you could fuck any man you wanted while Dad was away?"
My mother stood up and said, "I can't do this right now. I have to get ready and over to Dorthy and Ray's...you need to talk to your father about some of this....this is not all my fault!" as she stormed out.
I sat there thinking I might take a pass on the neighborhood party, this was all too emotional and conflicted. I felt bad for my father and didn't know how to approach him about any of this. I had a fleeting thought about Rebecca. I wondered how she was doing and if it was really true about her being a "gang bang" girl. I felt my cock swelling at the thought of her on all fours sucking that boy's cock as another was fucking her from behind. I remember her eyes, the way she looked at me in complete oblivion as I walked out. Part of me wished I would have gotten in line and taken my turn fucking her, feeling her sloppy pussy filled with other men's cum.
My cock was so hard, I was again in that place, wishing I could watch her take cock after cock, before she looks at me and asks if I want to fuck her...I close my eyes as the picture of Rebecca changes to my mother. I see my wanton mother on all fours, taking cock after cock as I watch.
I hear her ask me, "Matty, will you fuck me with your big cock?"
I'm sweating as I sit up, still gripping my softening cock. I hear my mother leave. The house is now quiet and mine. I get up and pour myself a drink of water. I reflect on what just happened and wonder as I had before, why this fantasy is so powerful and so dark? Why is that feeling of helplessness such a turn-on for me? Was I destined to be addicted to humiliation?
I decided to go to Dorthy and Ray's. I promised my mother I would make an appearance and I was bound to keep it. After I showered I got dressed and grabbed a chair to sit on as that was the one request they had asked all of their guests. I saw my father sitting with all the other neighborhood men and went to join them. After listening to the guys bragging about this or that, I got bored and went to find my mother. I strolled among all the guests and asked about my mom, someone said she was inside helping Dorthy with the food.
As I approached the steps, Dorthy came out and greeted me with a hug and a kiss on the cheek. She leaned back as if she was taking a good look at me and smiled.
"My, my, you have grown up to be a handsome boy, or should I say, man. I know your mother is very proud of you. She was actually just telling us about you. She's a lucky girl to have you, Matt!" Dorthy said with a wink.
I assumed my mother was still in the house and I needed to use the bathroom. I knew their house well, I immediately went to pee. As soon as I closed and locked the bathroom door I heard someone try to open it. Then I heard voices. I heard a female voices.
"So how was it, I mean being alone with him this time? I tried to identify the voice, but I couldn't.
"Cindy, it was amazing. I felt so much more freedom too.
That voice, I knew that voice, that was my mother, that was my mother's voice.
"Ohhhhh, you have to tell me more," said the first voice.
I tried to remember Cindy, was there a neighbor or friend of my mother's named Cindy?
My mother giggled, and then asked, "Are we alone in here, is the bathroom door locked by accident or is there someone in there?"
The other voice said, "I think it's just locked, they have a port-a-potty outside, maybe they don't want anybody using their bathroom. So tell me."
"Cindy, Did I tell you about the first time?
"No, you didn't."
Hmmmm....who did I tell...Oh well, he approached Robert and me in the hotel bar and offered to buy us drinks and we accepted. Robert said he looked like a guy that wanted to fuck me when the guy was getting us the drinks. When he came back we all chatted for a while and he asked us to his room for a nightcap. I wasn't really sure about it. I mean Robert has been talking about me fucking another man for years.
I couldn't believe my ears, I couldn't believe my mother was telling another woman about this, I was shocked. I had a hard time believing my father wanted my mother to fuck other men!
Cindy spoke up, "Don't they all, don't they all wanna see us getting fucked, but after they do, they have second thoughts about what they thought was so hot. I mean Ralph did, and we ended up getting divorced. If only Ralph would have kept the cock out of the hen house, his hen house"
I heard my mother make a sound, it wasn't clear, but it seemed like she was hugging Cindy.
"Well, I hope we don't wind up like that. I laughed off Robert's request for years, and then this guy fell into our laps and presented us with an offer that was hard to refuse. Robert was all for it. I wasn't drunk, but I certainly had a good buzz going. If I can be honest, my panties were drenched by the time we entered his room." My mother said with another giggle.