This is the seventh chapter (of eight) in the fourth and final book of the
Charlie and Mindy
tetralogy. The books detail a story of forbidden love between a brother and a sister.
You can read this book on its own, but it refers to events that took place in Books 1, 2, and 3. If you want a better understanding of what is going on, read Book 1, Book 2, and Book 3 before reading this book.
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To say that that the revelation in Mom's diary that Mom's brother was my father took me by surprise would be like saying that molten lava is warm. I read, reread, and re-reread—again and yet again—the paragraph that Mindy had shown me. The shock that those words brought was beyond anything I had ever experienced—or have experienced since.
I sat in stunned silence, and, once again, as had happened a little over two months earlier in the dean's office, my head spun and I felt completely detached from the world.
How long I sat in that state on the floor of the master bedroom of the house we'd inherited, I can't say. But it couldn't have been very long, because Mindy embraced me and kissed me—bringing me back from wherever I'd been.
Sensing that I'd come back to her, at least partially, she looked up at me through her still-flowing tears and whispered, "Are you okay, Charlie?"
As she asked, she caressed my cheek. Through my daze, I sensed plainly that, in her need to help me with my distress, she'd nearly forgotten her own.
I returned her embrace and held my lover, my little sister, close. She had turned so that she could hold me, and she had put her arm around me. Her closeness, her touch, her love had restored me to myself. I didn't know until she told me, later, how much my own presence, my own touch, my own love had helped to restore her to herself, too.
I found that it had been a while since I'd breathed. I exhaled, inhaled deeply. "Yes," I said. "I'm all right—or at least I will be soon. I would never have suspected—not in a million years—that our father was Mom's brother. I didn't even know she had a brother!"
My little sister held me tightly. And quietly she said, "I didn't know that, either. Mom never talked about our father, or about her family." After a moment, she looked up at me and reached up to kiss me again.
When she'd finished, I spoke again. "But you don't need to cry because of me, Mindy. This doesn't change anything about either of us. You couldn't have known what's in this diary, and there's nothing for you to be sorry about."
Still crying, still looking up at me, she shook her head. And she said, "I am sorry we didn't find this out together. We should have. I should have waited. I needed you here, beside me, when I read this. But that's not why I'm crying. I'm crying for Mom, and what she went through. I think I know, now, why she never talked about her family."
She sniffled again.
"There's more. There's a lot more here. I've been poking around in Mom's diary for an hour or so. Mom's mother died shortly after I was born, and she'd meant what she said."
She paused and took a deep breath. Then she went on.
"She never saw or talked to Mom or Mom's brother David again. She didn't even see or talk to Mom when David died in Vietnam." She paused for a moment to let me absorb the import of what she'd just said.
And then she went on. "And you were right—David was my father, too. Mom was—well—like me with you. Or like Steph with Buck, except that she wasn't David's twin. Mom was very much in love with David. And from what she wrote in her diary, I think he was very much in love with her."
Slowly, looking all the while at my little sister, my beloved, I digested all of the information she had just delivered.
After a few moments, I looked into her eyes. "If he was like me," I said quietly, thinking of the way Mom had once told me how much I was like my father, "he
was
very much in love with her. Because I'm very much in love with you."
She smiled at me. "I know," she said simply. "And I'm even more in love with you." And in spite of the sadness that still gripped her on Mom's account, it was a 150-watt smile.
"Big Brother and Little Sister," she whispered.
"Best friends and lovers," I whispered back, a little louder.
"Now and always," we said together—almost in a normal tone of voice. I was smiling back at her now.
"I love you so much," she said.
"I love you even more," I replied.
She looked at me. Her deep blue eyes held a familiar glint. So I kissed her. It began as a closed-mouth kiss. But neither of us thought that did the job that needed to be done—so we soon transformed it into something more urgent. My tongue entered her mouth to tussle with hers—which chased the intruder back into my mouth for a scuffle there. We played the back-and-forth game for a while.
She'd unfolded her legs and extended them while she was comforting me, so my arm now supported much of the weight of her upper body—which leaned across me as I sat on the floor. But my other arm was free, and that hand wandered over her body, touching here, stroking there, feeling elsewhere. She moaned into my mouth, and I moaned back into hers.
When we broke for air, she looked up at me with her naughty, impish smile. She wriggled against my growing boner. "What," she asked, "do I feel poking me in the side?"
"I think," I said as I brought my right hand to the uppermost button of her shirt and began to unfasten it, "that you're going to find out pretty quickly. And I think it's going to poke you somewhere else."
She looked down to where I had finished undoing her top button. She watched as I moved my hand on downward to undo the second. And, looking back up at me, she smiled approvingly and said, "Oh, I hope so. I sure do hope so." And she reached up for another kiss.
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Forty-five minutes later, when we'd finished what those kisses had started and then lain naked in each other's arms for a while, we got back out of the bed and put our clothes back on. We spent most of that evening—all but the time it took us to go to a fast food place and get some supper—examining Mom's diary. In that single evening, we could do little more than scratch the surface. As Mindy had said, there was a lot there. Mom had recorded in those books most of the details of her adult life. The diary ended only at the point when she and Dad had left for South America. (And we found several sheets of notes about that trip when we later opened her suitcase.)
This isn't the place to dig into Mom's diary or her life, because neither is part of the story of the love my little sister and I share. So, for now, I'd like to leave it at the things I've already reported that Mindy said. The diary bears out everything Mindy had told me.
But I should record one more thing here. We learned that evening that Dad had known about Mom's history with her brother, as well as about her children's origins—Mindy's origin, and mine, that is. And he had known those things before he married her. Mindy and I owe him an eternal debt, and I acknowledge it here: Never, by word or deed, had he given us any indication that he thought of us as anything other than his own beloved children.
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We went to bed at about 10:30 that evening. We had made love only a few hours earlier, and we didn't feel the need at bedtime. Nevertheless, we did feel the need to lie together, naked, in our bed, snuggling in each other's arms, for a while.
We'd been lying there quietly, each of us simply enjoying the touch of the other's body, when Mindy spoke. Softly, she said, "It explains so much. Do you remember? When she found out about us she said that people don't get to choose who they love? …or how? …or how much?"
"Yes, I remember," I replied. "And when I thanked her for trying to understand about us, she told me that she thought she did understand."