This is the fifth chapter of seven in Book 2 of the
Charlie and Mindy
tetralogyâwhich is a story of forbidden love between a brother and a sister.
While Book 2 stands on its own, it refers to events that took place in Book 1. Book 1 also contains some of Charlie and Mindy's family history that bears on the story. You may therefore want to read Book 1 before reading Book 2.
This is a rewrite of a series I posted in the past and removed for a while.
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âCarlusMagnus
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Mindy and I slipped easily into a routine during the first couple of weeks of the semester. On the days our French class met, Mindy got some breakfast in her dormitory dining hall and walked over to my house. She usually arrived to find George leaving and me finishing my own breakfast. On Monday and Friday mornings, which were the days when George didn't have labs and was likely to spend the afternoon studying in his room, we'd make loveâjoyfully, enthusiastically, exuberantly, but quietly, quietly, because Earl was still at home downstairs. On Tuesdays and Thursdays, knowing we'd have the apartment to ourselves all afternoon, we'd use that morning time to work on French or calculus together. Then, on those four mornings, we'd head off to our French and calculus courses together, no matter what form our morning exercises had taken.
On Wednesday mornings, Mindy and I had only an eleven o'clock class, but George had a nine o'clock and a ten o'clock. Mindy usually got in an hour or so of studying on her own after her breakfast, and then arrived a bit before nineâto find George leaving and me finishing my breakfast. Those mornings, we might Do It, we might study, we might just hang out with each other, or we might do some combination of two or more of the three. In any case, we knew that we would have another two hours we could spend alone with each other in the apartment during the afternoon.
Most afternoons and early evenings, we spent the bulk of our time studying together, even when we were working on subjects the other wasn't taking. Naturally, Tuesday and Thursday afternoons were our favorites; we had the apartment, and each other, to ourselves those afternoons after Mindy's English comp class was over. Once we'd arrested, for the moment, my Deadly Semen Backup and her Severe Semen Deficiency Disease, we would snuggle together at my desk, poring over our calculus or our French. I remember feeling caresses in her voice as we discussed what we were studying, and I tried to return them with my own voice. She behaved as though I was successful, reminding me of a rose blossom opening to welcome sunlight.
When Mindy and I were alone in the apartment, working on the subjects we were not taking together, we often sat in the living room on the couchâour bodies touching. We soon learned to savor this intimate time together, sharing our work with each other as we could, sharing our bodies with each other in ways that went beyond the merely sexual, expressing our love for each other in a multitude of small ways whose sum far exceeded the paltry total of the pieces.
I did not give up all of my bad habits. George and I frequently quit studying sometime between eight and nine in the evening and went to Sarge's to hoist a few. Usually, we called it quits after two pitchers. Two, because there were two of us, and the Fundamental Code requires that each drinker buy the same number of pitchers. Not four, because George was determined not to miss any of his morning classes. (I didn't want him to miss any of his morning classes, eitherâbut for entirely different, entirely non-academic, reasons.) Mindy didn't exactly approve of our nightly activities, but she didn't actively disapprove, either.
Mindy and I had found, to our mutual surprise, that we didn't need to spend the traditional two hours outside of class for each hour inside in order to master our studies at the level Mindy thought was necessary. And I was beginning to be able to make reasonable judgments now about whether or not I'd mastered something without depending on her to decide.
I'd known that Mindy was smart; I was beginning to think that she might've been right about me. It was an altogether new feeling, and I had her to thank for it. I'd thought ever since our trip in Wyoming that her love was good for me; now I was certain of it and I loved her all the more because of it.
The men I shared the house with accepted Mindy's almost constant presence during the week at face valueâthe value of the face, that is, that Mindy and I presented to them. Frank and Earl, being downstairs almost all of the time, saw little of us togetherâthough they certainly had to know how much time she spent in the house.
George often saw us together, and he certainly knew that we were a very close brother and sister. But he had known that from what I had said about Mindy last spring, and Mindy and I were very careful. We did our best to give him no reason to suspect that we were moreâmuch moreâthan brother and sister to each other.
He often saw us at my desk, bent over the same book or notebook, studying intently. But when he was about, we didn't engage in the close physical contact we enjoyed so much when he wasn't. We left the caresses out of our voices, and we kept our hands to ourselvesâat least insofar as they were visible from the door to my room.
Less than a week after our conversation about Mindy, George had asked her out. She'd politely and gracefully turned him down, citing her boyfriend in Florida as the reason. And he'd taken it well, being disappointed but not devastated. He even remarked to me that he was glad she'd given him the "I-like-you-but-let's-just-be-friends" talk immediately rather than after he'd made an investment in her. We knew each other well enough that I knew he meant an emotional investment, and not a monetary one. Of course he couldn't have said that explicitly, on account of the Fundamental Code.
Mindy and I found weekend days harder than weekdays, because we had to work at finding privacy then. We went for long walks on those days, so that we could share some time alone with each other. The park bench by the lakeâthe one we had found that first Sunday afternoon we'd spent together in townâbecame one of our favorite spots. There we could at least sit and neck a little, away from unwelcome campus eyes.
The second Saturday evening of that month we got extraordinarily randy, and we took the red backpackâthe "sex backpack" with the quilt and the (frequently laundered) towels in itâdown to the lowest level of the library again, where we got buck naked and enjoyed each other on that soft old quilt. The following Saturday, her period arrived, right on scheduleâso that weekend it didn't matter how horny we got.
That weekend was more difficult for another reason, too. We'd had exams in French and calculus that Friday. I'd been surprised at how relaxed I'd been able to be about those exams. For the first time ever, I hadn't had to kick the engines up to "Ultimate Overload" status the night before a test. I'd even gone, confidently, into those tests with a full night's sleep.
But after the exams, it was an entirely different story. I was nervous that whole weekend about how I'd done on those tests. I wanted an
A
on each of them, and I wasn't sure that I'd made the grade on either of them. Mindy's happiness, I thought, rested on the outcomes; and I was terribly afraid that I was going to let her down in spite of myself and in spite of the commitments I'd made to her and our parents.
Mindy seemed unfazed by those tests. But I began to see, from her behavior and from my own, unexpected, more relaxed approach to the exams, that my little sister had been right. She had always said that if you were doing things properly, getting ready for an exam shouldn't amount to much more than a careful review.
And, now, for the first time in my life, I'd at least tried to do things properlyâwith a lot of help and encouragement from Mindy. She'd done some whip-cracking, too. She'd been very kind and very subtle, but I'd known, regardless, when I'd heard the lash snapping. I was still not what you would think of as a scholar, but I was beginning to think that scholarship might be more interesting and more rewarding than I'd ever believed. The candle in that back room had ignited a kerosene lantern, illuminating the shadowy shapes well enough that I could see that they were toolsâpower tools, in factâthat I now very much wanted to learn to use.
She tried, not quite successfully, to calm my quaking nerves all through that weekend of dreadful anticipation. For once, she had more faith than I. So, that interminable Sunday afternoon, I resolved to take my own advice: She had plenty of faith in me, and it was more than enough for both of us. When I was sure no one could see us, I kissed her and told her that, lacking enough of my own faith in myself, I'd use some of hers. She grinned at me. "Let's go sit on our park bench," she said.