I woke up around 6:30am on Thursday morning, enjoying that sweet drowsiness that comes with a good night's sleep. As I lay there, I let my thoughts once again returning to the events of the day before. Had I really done... that? Really had sex with... my son? Twice? It seemed surreal to me, like out of a dream, and I was mildly confused to find I was completely naked. Then I remembered the passionate lovemaking with Rich afterwards, and falling asleep with him.
Surprisingly, the fears and worries that had been plaguing me over the last several weeks did not reappear. I knew full well they were still there, loitering in the back of my mind, waiting for the right opportunity to pounce. As I stretched and yawned I told myself all of that could wait.
I got out of bed and went to use the bathroom. The air was humid and I could faintly detect the scent of Rich's aftershave, signs that he was already up and showered. He was probably already in a phone meeting with his east coast colleagues down in his office.
For some reason, I opted not to put clothes on and instead just threw on my robe, tying the front as I walked down the hall to the kitchen. Rich had already made a pot of coffee and I helped myself to a cup, then settled into the couch, enjoying the quiet of the morning.
I knew I still had quite a bit of work to finish up before I could take Friday off, but I couldn't take my mind off recent events. It took me a while to face the truth and finally admit to myself that I had loved every minute of my time with Dylan, loved having him inside me, loved pleasuring him, giving him satisfaction. I knew I needed to get in the shower and get my day started, but there was a big part of me that was hoping he would be up for some fun before work.
I heard soft footsteps coming down the hall, and looked up in time to see Jenna sleepily walking into the kitchen, wearing a tank top and some loose shorts. She smiled and mumbled good morning, as she helped herself to some coffee, then came and sat down next to me. She leaned up against my shoulder and sighed contentedly. Her body felt good against mine, and we sat there for a few moments, enjoying the tranquility together.
Jenna yawned, and then said, "I feel like a zombie... Dylan woke me up at like 4am, he was super hard and was pushing up against me, so I let him fuck me... he went back to sleep but I couldn't, for some reason. After a while I figured I might as well get up."
"Is there something on your mind, or just insomnia?"
"I guess maybe there is... kinda yes, kinda no, to be honest... I said goodbye to Leo yesterday. I didn't think it would be that hard to do, but I think I am going to miss seeing him."
"Oh. Wow. I'm so sorry to hear that. I think you told me he was leaving town soon?"
"Yeah, his family is heading out to Arizona, I think, for the wedding. It was really fun being with him. We both knew it wouldn't last, which kinda... made things even more kinky, in a way. I still can't believe some of the things we did. I feel kinda bad about some of it, to be honest."
"Like what do you mean?"
"Like... please don't get upset, or judge me, but a lot of the time he would call his fiancΓ©e when we were messing around."
"Call his fiancΓ©e?"
"Yeah. The first time it happened we were lying in bed after we'd had sex, and she called. He answered the phone and started talking to her. I wasn't really paying attention but then I saw him pointing to his dick. I shook my head at first, but then the more I thought about it, it kinda seemed hot, so I sucked him while he talked to her.
"After that, we took it further, like him on the phone while I was riding him. Or he would put his phone on speakerphone and put it on stomach while he was eating me, or on my lower back as he fucked me from behind, so he could talk to her while he was messing with me.
"It was kinky at first but then I told him we needed to talk about it, because I felt really bad I was doing all that with someone else's fiancΓ©e. We weren't in love, it was just sex and fun, but still... he's someone else's guy. He felt bad about it too, and then opened up about how he kinda felt trapped and wasn't sure he even wanted to get married. He said there was a part of him that felt like his life was ending. I mean, he said he did love his fiancΓ©e and wanted to be with her; but there was a part of him that wanted to be free."
"I can understand that feeling. It's pretty common. I remember having similar feelings before your Dad and I got married. As it turned out, he felt the same way. We both knew we wanted to be together, but also weren't confident we could be dedicated to only one person, particularly when it came to sex. We found a solution that worked for us, but it took a lot of communication, open minds, and a complete absence of jealousy."
"It's kinda what Mandy and Trevor have."
"I hope it's what they have. It seems like it's working for them, but..."
"You're worried all the family sex is going to impact them. Like me having sex with Trevor will drive a wedge between them, and between me and Mandy."
"Yes... how did you... ah. I see. Your father told you that, didn't he."
"He did. You have nothing to worry about, Mom. Trevor is sweet and he is a lot of fun to be with. But I'm not interested in him for anything more than that. He feels the same way. And Mandy and I have talked about it a lot. She's totally ok with it, especially now that she's found a..."
Jenna's abrupt stop to her sentence caught my attention, and I said, "Found a... what did Mandy find?"
Jenna didn't respond for several moments. I tried to give her some time, but then said, "Jenna? What did Mandy find?"
Jenna sat up and turned towards me, then said, "Mom, I... I shouldn't have said anything, but... ok, so like I need you to not freak out when I tell you this... Mandy is going to be so pissed at me... please, Mom, promise you won't lose your mind."
I became very concerned and said, "Sweetheart, I promise. Is everything ok? Did something happen to Mandy?"
"Well, yes, and no... I mean... she's fine, totally fine. And she was going to tell you on her own, but like, couldn't figure out the best way to. Ugh, maybe it's better I'm telling you instead of her. I don't know."
I reached over and put my hands on Jenna's hands, and said, "Please, Jenna, tell me. I won't lose my mind. Honest."
Jenna looked deep in my eyes, then said, "Ok. Fine. So... after I told Mandy about my sugar daddy experiences, she got kinda interested. She talked with Trevor about it a lot. And then they both talked to me about it, about helping Mandy find a sugar daddy or two. And so I helped her get her profile together and helped her find the right guy to meet up with."
As she spoke I felt my stomach turn to lead, like I had swallowed a stone. My first reaction was anger, rage, and I looked down at the ground. I breathed in deeply several times, letting those emotions flow out of me, only for them to be replaced with disappointment and sadness. I took a few more deep breaths and then looked up at Jenna.
Before I could speak she said, "Please don't be mad, Mom. Please. I know you don't like it. But it's been so good for me, and they could really use the money. And the guy she met up with is super sweet and gentle. And rich."
I nodded, unsure of what to say. I calmed myself again, then said, "Thank you for telling me. You're right. I don't like it, at all."
Jenna began to talk, and I held up my hand and said, "I know, I know. It's helped you out financially, and I'm sure it will help Mandy out as well. And I have no room to judge or push back, considering my history and many of the things I've done. I just... I don't know what to say."
"Thank you for not losing it on me. I would hate that. I would never want to hurt you or disappoint you."
"I know, sweetheart. I appreciate that. And I know you are your own woman and know how to make smart choices. I'm learning to accept that."