These old feelings I have guarded for years have returned again. I find myself thinking of my daughter in a sexual way. I know I am a better man than to think of her this way. She is so beautiful and so sexy. I guess I will always wish we could have a sexual relationship. At the same time I want to be a respected father for her life.
In all these years, the closest I came to crossing the line as a father was years ago. When she was eighteen, we were watching a movie at home. She had on a night shirt, bra, and panties. On many occasions, she would lay across my lap. As the movie became interesting, I started lightly rubbing the palm of her hand and along her arm. At one point she moved her hand to her crotch and I continued to lightly rub her arm and down to the back of her hand that was over her crotch. When she moved her hand back to her side, I started to lightly rub her cheek. At the same time I was rubbing her cheek, the back of my hand was rubbing her breast. This lasted a few strokes and she smiled and turned away from my hand. The whole time I was rubbing her face I had a ragging hard-on. I am sure the smile she gave me was as much for rubbing her breast as my dick sticking her in her side.
Sense that time, she has grown up, married, and moved away from home. I have not been as lustful for her with her away from home. I did not have very many opportunities to see her over a 5 year period. Recently, she and her husband moved back into our house while they are having a new house built. I have found myself looking at her in a new lustful way. She has a tendency to wear low cut tops on work days.