I sit here trying to make sense of my life. My thinking is that if I take the time to actually put on paper the sequence of events that have transpired over the last several months, then perhaps by the time I am finished I will find some kind of clarity or understanding of it myself. The hope is that it will be a therapeutic experience and that I will come out on the other side of it with a clearer understanding of myself and the urges that drove me to do what I did. I guess I'll find out when the telling is complete.
At long last, I finally saw her approaching across the parking garage. The moment had finally arrived; the point of no return. If I actually went through with this crazy, insane plan then my life would change forever, one way or the other. As I sat in the back of the darkened van and watched her approach, I could feel my heart pounding through my chest. My hands were sweating and I could literally hear the blood roaring through my brain as she walked up to the driver's side door of her car. She appeared not to notice that the side door of the van was directly behind her as she pulled her keys from her purse and pressed the unlock button on the remote.
I took a few deep breaths as I quickly slid the door of the van open and leapt out. She was caught totally unaware as I pushed her quickly forward against the driver's side door of her vehicle, quickly following behind with my own body, firmly pressing her against her car. The whole event seemed like it was happening in slow-motion and I distinctly remember that even in the heat of the moment, I had time to notice how good her ass felt pressed tightly against my bulging crotch.
I swiftly reached around and placed the rag over her nose and mouth, forcefully pulling her head back against my chest. She dropped her keys as both hands came up to try and force my hand away from her face, but the effects of the chloroform were quick and her strength faded fast. In no time at all, she became dead weight. I circled one arm around her waist and backed straight up to the edge of the van opening. I worked her around until she was sitting in the opening of the van door and then let her fall back into the van as I climbed back in. I slid one hand under each of her arms and finished pulling her the rest of the way into the van. I quickly retrieved her keys and bag, jumped back in the van, and slid the door home.
After a quick check to insure she was ok, I jumped into the driver's seat and, as normally as I could with my adrenaline pumping so hard, managed to get the van out of the garage and was off into the night traffic. My cock was rock hard as the thrill about what I had just done coursed through me, and the excitement of what was yet to come raced through my mind. The initial plan had gone off without a hitch!
I drove the van to my pre-determined location, sure that I would not be bothered as I acted out the next part of the plan. After parking the van, I went back to set up the lighting and camera and check on my guest of honor. After everything was ready, I pulled her up into a sitting position and started removing her clothes. I pulled her pale pink blouse out from her gray skirt and unbuttoned it down the front, enjoying the view of her breasts coming into view, framed in a pink lace bra. After sliding each of her arms out and removing the top completely, I gently laid her back down, placing her head on one of the large pillows I had brought along for the occasion. I unsnapped the button fastening her skirt and eased the zipper down. I had to work a little to get the skirt pulled out from under her, but then it was quickly down her legs and off, thrown over to the side along with the blouse.
My prick was as hard as I can ever remember it being before in my life as I looked down at the scene before my eyes. Here was the object of my desire, finally, after so many years of yearning and plotting and scheming. Lying there, even unconscious, she was absolutely beautiful. Her shoulder length golden hair framing her youthful 43 year old face...her pink, lace bra holding in her 34 d-cup tits and her matching pink lace panties...all mine for the taking. Finally, I had my mother just where I wanted her!
I never did have a very good relationship with my mother. She was always busy with work and was never the doting type of mom that my friends all seemed to have. It seemed as I was hitting puberty and beyond that if and when we did have any type of conversation, it was almost business-like. She was direct and forceful with her comments, not caring if the words caused me pain or not. I was always supposed to live my life as she directed...do the things she told me to do, without regard to my feelings or what I wanted out of life for myself.
I guess a lot of her demeanor came from her work. She was the mayor of our city, you see, and was used to the cut-throat, back-stabbing political scene that a job like that entailed. So she had learned along time ago how to be hard and ruthless and relentless to get and keep her position of power. I guess she just forgot, or couldn't, leave that attitude at the door when she came home. I was constantly reminded that my actions reflected on her, and that I had to be very careful in everything I did...that she was under a microscope and she couldn't afford me screwing anything up by giving her detractors any ammunition that could be used against her. She made it clear on more than one occasion that she loved her job more than she loved me.
Looking down now at her sprawled in the back of the van, it was perhaps that very realization that had led me down this road I was on. The lack of love from her...the kind of love a mother
should
give to her son may be what led to this whole predicament. If she had given her love to me freely, then maybe my psyche wouldn't have gotten damaged and warped to the point I felt that I had to
take