Greg didn't even try to hide the horror on his face. Some alchemists might have a nasty naming sense but this was not one of them. The name of the potion was just nothing short of accurate. Being trapped in one's own body and unable to move was already bad enough, but to even be denied the escape of sleep was the very definition of a nightmare. And as the name already implied, you were already awake, so there was no waking up from this nightmare! "Why would you even want to take such a thing?" he asked, looking at the vial like it was a viper about to strike. Given the fact that he was the one that was going to be working on the healer, it wouldn't make sense for him to be paralyzed. That left only his teacher as the only one to take the potion.
"You are about to subject me to one of the worst pains a mage can be subjected to, Roka. Without this potion, I'm afraid I'll be unable to remain still," the healer replied placidly.
Greg's eyes went wide as something clicked in his mind. It wasn't just her words, Greg remembered what happened when he picked the personal pocket space as a reward. Unlike the healer, he didn't get a paralytic, instead, some external force had taken hold of him and kept him from moving while it worked. He could even remember the pain. It had been horrendous and if he hadn't been distracted by Morpheus at the time, he suspected that the memory would have been more traumatic for him. Greg had looked at the formation etched into his spirit body over the months that followed and knew that as much as it hurt, the thing was superficial. Greg couldn't help but blanch in horror as he realized that what they planned to do with the healer wasn't in any way superficial. Her mana pathways were to her spirit body what blood vessels were to the physical body. Comparing what he underwent to what they were about to do was like comparing getting a tattoo to being cut open and having your innards pulled out.
"Why would you want to be awake for this?" He asked, unable to keep his voice from shaking. He no longer questioned why she would want to be paralyzed for what was about to come.
"Trust me, I'm not a masochist, Roka. If this was a physical procedure, I'd want to be passed out for the whole thing. But we are operating on my spirit body. Much as we are trying to rectify what is already broken, there is a very real chance that my spirit body could fall apart if it's forced to endure the torment passively. My will to live despite the pain is probably the only thing that'll keep it together. Counterintuitive as it may seem, keeping me awake despite the pain is our best hope," she explained.
Greg was silent for a long while trying to process this new revelation. A part of him couldn't help but think that he should have known this sooner, after all, he had gone through a m2abildly similar process when getting the personal pocket space. He even remembered his ascension to the first tier. The only reason his mind wasn't currently in fragments from that ordeal was because Morpheus had taken over and shielded his mind from directly feeling what was happening. Why all this time he hadn't taken the next logical step and assumed the same was true of his teacher, he couldn't for the life of him explain. "Why didn't you say anything sooner?" Greg found himself asking.
"Would it have helped to know for months that you'd have to essentially torture me in order to help me?" She asked with an easy smile on her lips. Greg had no answer for her. If he didn't know her so well, it would have been easy to assume that she was completely relaxed. Greg, however, could see the tension she was so carefully trying to hide. In the end, it was this that helped him firm his resolve. She was the one who was about to experience unimaginable torture and here she was comforting and encouraging him. It was pathetic, and worse still, unfair.
Clenching his jaws, Greg nodded at his teacher. "Okay then, let's do this..."
***
Calyn took a calming breath even as the carriage slowed down to a stop. This deep inside the city, Calyn knew that every inch of land was worth ten times its weight in platinum coins. You needed to be a mover and shaker in terms of wealth to even consider getting anything this close to the center. And yet, since passing the gate to the Governor's compound, the carriage had needed another five minutes before getting to the front door of the tallest castle in the city. It was a symbol of both the wealth and power that the Governor had occupied such a large portion of the city's center. Not that Calyn was complaining, the more powerful the family she was marrying into, the better for her in terms of merit within her own clan.
Despite the carriage having stopped, Calyn remained seated. She didn't have to wait long as the door was pulled open shortly by Deriel with Aunt Lina standing beside him. The two being there wasn't a mix-up but rather what was expected. Her fiancΓ© being the one to open the door and receive her in his home was a signal to all present that this far, he found no fault with her. Her chaperone being present was a signal to all that nothing untoward had happened between the two of them. Taking Deriel's hand, Calyn gracefully stepped down from the carriage. The two of them then turned to Aunt Lina and offered a slight bow of respect as was expected of them. A small smile played on Aunt Lina's lips as she nodded to the two of them then stepped to the side allowing them to proceed.
There was a flight of stairs starting a short distance from where the carriage had stopped leading up to the two large doors that stood as the front door to the castle. Calyn wasn't surprised by the fact that there were people lined up on both sides of the staircase. This was, after all, the presentation ceremony. Strictly speaking, the presentation ceremony was for the prospective bride to be presented to the father of the groom. However, when the father of the groom was the Governor of such a large city as Ethavel, then it came as no shock that the ceremony would be made into a grand affair where all the most important people in the city would be invited. Every one of the people that lined both sides of the stairs were probably heads of powerful factions within the city, be they other clans, merchant groups, mage academies, or the senior priests and priestesses from the major religions on the continent of Farendel.
Assessing gazes landed on her from the moment she stepped off the carriage. As a scion of a major clan like the Sydrak clan, however, Calyn wasn't unfamiliar with large gatherings where important figures were in attendance. Far from being cowed by all the attention that was on her, Calyn held her head high even as she looped her arm around Deriel's and they started moving up the stairs toward the front door of the castle at the top of the stairs where the Governor of Ethavel stood. Even without being told, Calyn knew that there was significance to the positioning of the people on the stairs. The people present might be the most powerful people in the city, it, however, didn't mean that they were equal. Even at the very top of society, there was still a hierarchy among the people present. The people at the bottom of the staircase probably occupied the least important and influential positions of those present. Those standing higher up and closer to the Governor were the ones she needed to take special note of.
Not that any of that mattered at present. As their host, not to mention the father of the groom, it would be considered an insult if Calyn addressed anyone else before first speaking to him and offering her respects and gratitude for being received by the man. For this reason, Calyn calmly kept her eyes focused on the reedy man at the top of the stairs. The first thing that struck Calyn about the Governor of Ethavel was just how ordinary he seemed. You could walk past him on the street and never look twice at the man. Tall and a bit on the thinner side, he had a head of salt-pepper blonde hair that reached down to his shoulders and a goatee of the same color. He wasn't handsome in the conventional sense, but there was an air of gravitas around the man that Calyn was certain had drawn the eye of more than one woman.