MONDAY.
The electronic lock buzzes. The light on the box shifts from red to green. The door opens.
In the darkness, I see her for the first time.
She flips on the light switch. I assume she is in her early twenties, though tiredness betrays her youthful face.
She wheels in luggage behind her; there's another bag over her shoulder. After the door closes, she takes a few steps forward and looks around: first, behind her, where the bathroom is, on the right, soon as you walk in; to her right, at the kitchenette area with stove, fridge, sink, and coffee maker; to her left, where the little writing desk is next to the TV stand; and straight ahead, where she has the luxury of a queen-sized bed, a dining table, and a doorway to the balcony.
She sighs, wipes her brow, and drops her bags. She kicks her shoes into a corner and uses one foot to slide the other's sock off. Then she digs her toes into the carpet, making her feet into claws.
She throws herself onto the bed. Her shoulder-length blonde hair fans out over the made comforter. She remains still a while before reaching into her jeans pockets to pull out one of those 'things.' Phones. I still call them 'things,' even though guests have brought them in here for years.
How many years? I've lost track.
She pokes her finger against the screen's glass. Tap-tap-tap-tap-tap-tap-tap-tap. The phone makes a noise. She pokes it again. Tap-tap-tap-tap.
Puts the phone down. Stands up. Stretches. Leaves the phone on the bed. Walks toward the hallway door. Takes a right. Enters the bathroom. Closes the door behind her.
I move, taking myself from the corner above the safe (left of the TV), past the bed, and past the kitchen.
I hear the toilet flush, and then I enter the bathroom. Her shirt leaves her body, joining her pants and underwear. She reaches behind her, and her cotton white bra falls to the floor in the corner. She is nude in seconds.
As she reaches for the knobs in the shower/bath, I admire the bare body before me. She is short, but not petite. Her naked breasts are pale compared to the rest of her tanned skin, not oversized, but appropriate for her slender build.
I always play a game in these situations, guessing my guests' personalities by their grooming habits or tattoos.
Yes, I know it's rude to generalize that way.
Whatever. She has one tattoo of a blue jay on her upper elbow. What does a blue jay have to do with her backstory? I come up with my own explanation: she turned eighteen, and her friends pressured her into getting a tattoo. She went to the tattoo parlor with them, not really wanting to go through with it. They kept pressuring her, so she flipped through the catalog and landed on the first picture she saw—not an old boyfriend's name, but a stupid blue jay. "Here, this one. Let's get it over with."
She needs a moment to figure out how the shower works. Then she tests the stream's temperature before stepping under it, one careful leg at a time.
She pulls the curtain closed.
I enter the shower with her.
The water plasters her hair to her skin. She stands in place, eyes closed, water running down her body in rivets.
I drop down to her slightly parted legs. She is shaved, almost bare, save for a golden patch above her two folded lips.
So, we have a natural blonde—no need for highlights here. She keeps herself trimmed, but not to the point where there is a need to show it off. No clit piercing, either, nor any artwork of a tiger or an arrow pointing down.
She probably isn't a virgin, but she isn't too casual, either.
She reaches for the complimentary tiny shampoo bottle and applies a liberal amount to her hair.
I keep watching, enjoying my new guest.
Now, at this point, you might think ill of me.
You might even have some names picked out: pervert; creep; voyeur.
But while you're browsing your list of names, let me ask
you
a question.
Can you blame me?
I'm dead.
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I don't remember 'how' it happened, but I have some ideas. There's a vague sense that I knew the person responsible.
There was a flash. A flash from—a gun? Blackness. A mental disturbance. Racing thoughts of, "Wait, no, it wasn't supposed to be like this. Not in this way. Not like this. Happens to every man, doesn't it? But not this way. Still more. Still more to go, right?"
The blackness rolled away. I was still in the room—in two places. I floated in a corner above the floor, where I shouldn't have been after waking up. No one wakes up 'above' a room.
I looked down from this corner I was in. I saw me, myself, but not me, because 'me' was up here. The me that was not me was on the floor, in a pool of blood. He wasn't bleeding anymore, but he'd sure made a mess. He was cold.
The housekeeper walked in and discovered the other me. Then yellow tape. Then people in uniforms. Then little numbered cards. They drew a line around the other me in chalk.
I saw them put the other me in a black bag and take it away.
Except they didn't because I was still here.
Uniformed people erased the chalk. They took the numbered cards. Hotel staff replaced the carpet.
The room remained empty. Nobody touched it. The lights stayed off.
But I was still here. I wandered about the kitchen, the main area, and the bathroom. I didn't have 'hands,' so I couldn't interact with anything.
I tried to leave through the hallway door. I tried that a few times. There was always a flash, like the gun. I'd go flying back until I bounced against the wall beside the air conditioner.
When that failed, I turned toward the balcony door.
I heard...waves? I smelled...salt?
I could see, hear, and smell. Three out of five. I knew touch was out. I realized I was 'thinking' as well.
Waves. Salt. I was at a beach. Somewhere in a bleary void, I remembered...beaches. There were fond memories. I could not recall specific experiences, only the sense that the beach was a place where I was once happy.
I longed to float along the shoreline, cutting through the hot, salty air. Now that I was in this state, maybe I could even fly across the ocean, fearing nothing mortals did that far out, and see what I could discover if I went far enough.
I dashed at the balcony door.
I went blasting back toward the kitchen, not stopping until I bounced against the wall above the stove.
I beat to death that old definition of insanity, getting the same result, the flash and the bouncing, until I came to terms with the truth: I was trapped here, forced to occupy the same room forever.
I could float. There was that. I could fly up to the ceiling and fall to the carpet. I could visit every upper corner.
But I was trapped in the same room, looking at the same walls, the same fridge, the same bed, same toilet, same TV—a TV I didn't have the power to operate. As you can imagine, this new arrangement wasn't the most wonderful prospect. After a while, my boredom ate at me.
You ever had an itch, either in some place you couldn't reach, or couldn't take care of because you were in public?
That was my boredom. That boredom itch grew and grew as the days passed, grew until I was screaming. Nobody heard me, of course. Nobody came to help.
Days passed. Then weeks. Then months. The sun rose. It brightened the room during the day. Then it turned orange, and red. It faded, ushering in long and lonely nights. I screamed and screamed.
And I lingered here.
#
Then, one day, shortly after sunrise, the hallway door opened. People came in. I watched them dust every inch of the room. They cleaned cobwebs from the corners. Now, that wasn't exactly on my terms; I was so crazy by now that I'd
named
those cobwebs.
Regardless, people were here now, just as I wondered if I was in Hell, where it turned out that instead of perishing in flames or drowning in rivers of shit, you were just bored for the rest of your un-life. But the people cleaned. They changed the bedsheets. They scrubbed the sinks and the one toilet.
They replaced the TV, too. Ever since I'd been here, the TV had been a big box with a heavy tube in the back. Now it was a rectangle that no longer reflected the room. That reflection had been my favorite show.
The hotel staff had cleaned the room, though. That meant there was a likelihood that guests would be staying here with me soon. If they turned on the TV for me, that would make up for losing the reflection.
Life is full of surprises.
Well, as it turns out, so is death.
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