~~Natasha~~
"Transform."
"Um, what?" they said together.
She sighed, and shook her head as she gestured around them with her flashlight. They were deep in the tunnels, the old ones. Spooky, scary, utterly terrifying, and dark. But she had her sith sight, and would be able to navigate extreme darkness that even the werewolves wouldn't be able to see in. That was partly to keep her safe, but mostly to make sure the boys could calm down before they got to the surface, if things went badly.
Long, big, empty tunnels with nothing more than a few big metal crates on wheels on old tracks. Jessy said these old tunnels were like the ones she found in that scary ghost place, and that alone had Natasha's spine crawling. Big terrifying werewolves on a berserk rampage, she could handle. Ghosts creeping up on her and slithering around in the black? No thanks.
"Tr-Transform."
Art shook his head. "You mean the Gauru form? Jesus, that why you brought us down here? No way."
She frowned at him and folded her arms across her chest. "Why?"
"It's dangerous," Matt said.
"I know that."
Sighing, Art squatted down and ran a finger along the tracks. Matt walked past him and gave the cargo crate a shove, but it didn't move. Everything down here was decrepit and abandoned. A perfect place to make some mistakes.
"Damn, this place is old," he said.
"D-Don't change the subject. I told you to transform."
Art shook his head some more. "Tash, come on, you can't ask us to just transform at will. Gauru is dangerous, and primal. We're not Eric. We have trouble controlling ourselves."
"I know, b-but I need to know I can trust you if I n-need you to transform. And it could happen."
"Why would it happen?"
"B-Because I'm going to find out what's going on in this city. I don't trust Avery to do it. Jack is busy. I'll d-do it. But I need to know what tools I have at my disposal." The boys winced. Much as the situation had seemed romantic at first, the reality was they were her tools until her mission was accomplished. "You have to do what I say, remember? If I decide we confront Red Tide or Street-Tail King, then we will. And I n-need to know I can trust you to... t-to do what I say." And to not go berserk and maybe attack her.
Growling, Art stood up and looked to Matt, but spoke to her. "This... isn't a good idea, Tash. You heard about what Eric did the first time he transformed."
"You've transformed hundreds of times, haven't you?"
"Yeah, but the wolf is... it's always there. You vamps know what it's like, with your Beast. But when we use the Gauru form, it'd be like... like letting your Beast out, and asking it to cooperate."
That was a scary idea. The Beast was nothing more than a bundle of instinct and desire. It wanted blood, territory, safety from the sun and fire, and occasionally, to spread the curse of vampirism. When vampires lost the ability to think and feel, when they lost their humanity, they became draugr, mindless slaves to the Beast. It almost never happened in Dolareido, but, sometimes, it did.
"I remember," she said, "when we were trapped in the t-tunnels, after the azlu surprised us. Remember? You were both in Gauru form, and... and it was scary. But you calmed down." She nodded toward Art. "You were under control, and you helped M-Matt get control quickly. I trust you." And she was fast, damn fast, fast enough to avoid them if she had to. Training with Daniel wasn't wasted time.
Sighing in unison, the two men stood in front of her, and backed up. Art motioned for her to do the same, and once forty feet separated them, Art and Matt shared glances.
She knew what she was asking was mean, but they also knew what they'd done to her had been a hundred times worse, and they owed her. As far as she could tell from her time with the pack and her boys, they treated the Gauru form like how vampires thought of the Beast. Powerful, useful, dangerous, and existential. A vampire was not a vampire without it, and for the Uratha, their Gauru form was the ultimate expression of the wolf spirit half of them. She was asking them to give her command of it.
But that was the deal. They'd crossed the line tricking and attacking a dragon, and they had to pay up. She tried to frame it that way in her mind, knowing if she made it personal, it could get venomous. Yes, they'd hurt her, physically too, but more so emotionally. No, they didn't do it for personal reasons, they did it because Avery demanded it. Yes, she was in a position to hurt them back. No, she would not. This was only about doing her job to hunt down the threat.
She loved them.
The two men began the transformation. Clothes disappeared into growing layers of fur, and muscles grew enormous. Limbs grew longer, their frames grew wider, and talons and claws erupted from toes and fingers. She gulped as the two beasts continued to grow, and she found herself taking a small step back. Sometimes, it was easy to forget that Art and Matt were both huge. Before, she used to be around them so often, that she got used to how big they were, Art being quite tall and Matt being absolutely massive.
But seeing them transform, it was a powerful reminder that their transformed states were even bigger, bigger than Eric's transformed state. Matt was the frontliner for the whole pack, and Art was their sideliner. Matt went in first, the pack followed, and Art attacked the prey from the back or side to prevent it from escaping, until the rest of the pack joined in. Both were partly solo roles. Both were werewolves that had to be big and strong enough to take care of themselves in a fight, or maybe take on their prey alone if things went badly.
So, she felt perfectly justified in being quite scared, as she looked the two beasts up and down.
Of course, looking at the two werewolves immediately hit her with memories of Eric and Jessy. She'd imagined, sure, but she had no idea just how primal it'd be, the enormous wolf monster using Jessy like a toy. Her hard abs distended with his shaft's thickness, showing just how insanely deep he--
She shook her head hard. Maybe if she didn't have Jessy for a best friend and Antoinette for a boss, she wouldn't think about sex all the time? But, she did have a horndog for a best friend, and an exhibitionist and sexologist for a boss. Not a night went by in that tower that something sexual didn't happen. The only reprieve she had from it was when she hung out with her sire.
Tash, mental note: ask your sire how his time with Athalia is going.
"Are you both... under control?"
They both nodded, slowly, like it was difficult for them to manage. Not a good sign.
"Good." She came closer, slow steps, like approaching a wild animal. That probably wasn't smart. She needed to calm down, and not walk like she was approaching a vibration-sensitive bomb. "Can you talk?" She knew they could, but she needed to be sure.
"Yes," Art said, voice a guttural, quiet bark.
"Yes," Matt said. Good, she was more worried about her gentle giant than Arturo.
Her gentle giant. She was already thinking about them like that again. God, she was pathetic. No no, that wasn't fair to her. She just didn't have it in her to hold a grudge. Maybe she should? No! She was better than that.