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A PALADIN'S WAR
CHAPTER 14
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Bar'vanaya
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Smythe hobbled through the sprawling camp as fast as he could manage, using Lightbringer as a crutch, grounding the greatsword's point in place of his missing leg. All around him, Dwarves scrambled to secure tents and weapon racks and picket lines against the rising winds coming out of the north. Smythe evaded them all, keeping his
vala
suppressed and his head down, though the latter was hardly necessary; nobody noticed a cripple.
He needed to be away from them all, away from Elaina and Elsa and everyone. He needed time to think, to get his head right. At least, that was what he was telling himself.
You know what you're going away to do,
a sad voice in his head told him.
You might as well admit it to yourself.
He cursed as a particularly sharp gust of wind pushed him off balance, forcing him to his good knee. He knelt for a moment, leaning on the sword. Never in his life had he felt helpless, even before his powers had manifested, but now any of these Dwarven soldiers scurrying about could best him. Shit, maybe even the cooks could.
Gritting his teeth, he forced through his fatigue and stood again, determined to get out of the camp. Careful to keep his bond with Elsa muted, he resumed his awkward gait. The afternoon sky above dimmed as thick clouds overtook the sun. There was no point staying to help; he was one of those who
needed
help, not one who could give it. That fact banded his chest with iron. Face hard, he pressed on, not noticing when the Dwarves who thought to offer him a hand shied away from his expression.
He was out of the camp a few minutes later, heading south toward the Emerin Forest, so engrossed in his own bitterness that he gave no thought to the fact the storm never arrived. There was a powerful surge of
vala
, too, as if every
arohim
in the camp was doing something at once, but whatever was happening, they could do it without him. His own
vala
beckoned to him, wanting to join the others pulsing back at camp, and offering him some strength despite his weakened condition, but he ignored it. What was the point now? A small part of his mind offered responses to that thought, good ones, but he shoved them away. Those were hope playing tricks on him. They weren't real, not like a missing leg.
He hobbled along for two miles through the grass, mostly trampled flat by the recent passage of the army. His occasional glances behind showed nobody was following him. Good. As he was passing beneath a small stand of pine trees - a collection of a dozen or so that somehow hadn't been flattened by storms - a familiar figure stepped out from behind one. He stopped at once.
Tall and darkly beautiful, Vayani watched him, brilliant green eyes moving over his form. Her head tilted when her gaze landed where his right leg used to be. Despite his sour mood, Smythe couldn't help but look her over. Her only covering was a series of vines sprouting pretty flowers in pinks and blues and yellows that wound about her round, soft limbs and across her forehead as if they'd grown there naturally. Her hair was a vibrant carpet of long, green grasses. She looked exactly as she had when he'd first met her, except now there was a distinct roundness to her belly that had not been there before.
She put a hand on that bump as she swayed toward him, and a bosom that rivalled Elaina's shifted in time with her steps. Shoots bloomed from beneath the carpet of dead pine needles on the ground, spreading away from her feet when they landed.
As lovely as she was to behold, Smythe wished the Queen of the Forests had chosen a better time. Grimacing more with embarrassment than effort, he knelt respectfully. Or at least, he tried to, but thick vines shot from the ground and wound around him, gently forcing him erect. The vines weren't tight; they supported him more than anything. They lifted him up higher, so he was suspended a few feet above the ground as Vayani stopped in front of him. The way she was holding him like this made him think of the last time they'd been together. She hadn't exactly forced herself on him, but had Smythe not wanted her attentions, he doubted the outcome would have been any different. Still, stunning as she was, he felt no love for her. Some affection, maybe, some desire for her beauty, but she was so alien that the very notion seemed impractical.
Her eyes were fixed on his stump, hidden beneath the dangling leg of his breeches that flapped impotently in the wind. "You are injured," she observed, touching the place where his leg ended just above the knee. The sighing, breezy quality to her voice was almost soothing.
Smythe bit back a sharp reply. Best not to upset her. Just because she was carrying his child did not mean she wouldn't take umbrage to disrespect. "Yes," was all he said.
Her eyes found his. "How? You are not easy prey,
arohim
."
Smythe didn't want to answer. The last thing he wanted was to relive what had happened. His own stupidity, and the steep price of it. How many thousands were dead? His leg was the least of it. Despite his feelings, his mouth started moving, and the words spilled out. Vayani's face grew hard, and by the end, her full lips were pressed together so tightly they were white instead of brown. Eyes the colour of spring grass flashed threateningly. Smythe almost opened his
vala
to try and protect himself, but the vines around him didn't tighten; she wasn't angry at him.
"Enough!" she snapped, cutting him off. She closed her eyes and faced the sky, the dark clouds from earlier were now dissipating, oddly enough. Sunshine broke through from the west at that moment, bathing them in the gold-orange light of late afternoon. "Too long have I sat aside," Vayani said softly, as if to herself. "Too long."
When she looked at Smythe again, he felt very glad he was not the source of what he saw in those eyes. Even with his
vala
suppressed, he sensed her emotion. Deep,
colossal
wrath. Something was about to happen. Something momentous.
"You will not do what you intended, this day," she told him, her face impassive. "The land needs you,
arohim
. I will not allow it."
Smythe realised she was talking about the thing he had not yet admitted to himself. He had been running away to die. Falling on his own sword was a far more honourable death than wasting away as a cripple, always on the sidelines, never in the fight. He sighed. It would have been so easy, just finding a quiet place and falling forward, letting Lightbringer pierce his heart. He would have released Elsa first, of course, so she would not have felt the pain of his death. "I cannot fight," he told Vayani. "Look at me!" He was angry, he realised. And he had just shouted at a world guardian. Well, if he wanted death, she could do it just as well as his sword.
"This," she flicked a hand at his stump dismissively, "is nothing." The vines around him changed, winding around his severed leg. He watched wide-eyed as green shoots sprung forth from those vines, braiding together and taking shape. They solidified into something impossible, something he had not dared to dream about. Heavy bark spread across the new growth, smooth yet hard, and pale like his skin.
"I..." words were lost to him as Vayani lowered him, until his feet touched the ground. His
feet!
From his thigh, something had grown to replace what was lost, made of vines and bark. He tested his weight on it, feeling the strength and flex he'd had before, perhaps even more.
"He is called
Bar'vanaya
," Vayani said, watching him try out his new foot. "He is strong, and loyal, and will always grow back if cut off or damaged." The way she was talking about the appendage meant it was its own creature, alive.
"Vayani," Smythe breathed, "thank you." This time he did kneel, before she could stop him.
"You were foolish to think your life was forfeit," she said. "Perhaps
Bar'vanaya
will help you realise the truth."
Smythe nodded, bowing his head, feeling no small amount of shame. He had almost thrown his life away for nothing. He owed a great debt to Elaina, Elsa, all of them. When he raised his head, Vayani was striding away into the trees. She vanished behind the trunk of a pine. He didn't bother to follow her; she was already long gone.
"Wouldn't want to be a bloody Herald today," he muttered as he pushed himself to his feet. Wasting no time, he took up his sword and hurried back to camp.
*
Rodric Eames stood in his spacious square tent, eyes closed, thumb and forefinger pinched tightly to the bridge of his nose. Through the yellow canvas walls, he could hear the urgent but concise orders being shouted as Heralds erected the rest of the camp in the late afternoon. After the colossal blunder near Ironshire, he'd pushed his soldiers hard, urging them north as fast as they could without killing the horses.
His hand trembled as he lowered it from his face and opened his eyes. Fire and fury, he was tired, but thankfully alone in the tent that served as both a headquarters and his personal space. A small collapsible desk and chair sat against one wall, and a larger round table in the centre where maps were spread, the corners held down by small marble figurines of men and horses, their polished surfaces glimmering in the light of the lanterns hanging from hooks above.