When they returned to the room, Luke settled into the bed next to Asmodeus. Asme, rather. His lover pulled Luke against his firm body, and they settled with content. Asme stroked his arm gently. The demon threw his leg over the top of Luke's. It all felt natural, much to Luke's surprise. It felt like he was made to be in this man's arms.
"Where are your wings, As?" Luke asked. He made it a point to use As. The demon grumbled.
"You're about to lose the privilege of calling me Asme," Asmodeus grazed his cheek over the top of Luke's head, "I will make you call me Deus if you keep going."
"I will never call you Deus, demon. In the short time I've known you, you have given my life more meaning and joy than God ever did. You are not a duty I was forced into you. I chose you."
Luke felt Asme relax behind him. The demon squeezed him a little tighter. Luke swore he could hear his Prince choking up a little behind him, but he wouldn't dare point it out.
"You have no idea how much it means to me to hear you say that, Luke."
Luke felt the gentle touch of Asme's wings then. He reached forward and stroked them softly. Asme shivered behind him.
"Where were they?" Luke asked as he ran the feathers through his fingers.
"It hurts to lay on them. I just put them away."
Luke paused before he asked his next question, "How come the tales of this place always say how awful it is?"
"Because your God is a jealous god. We may be ruthless, but it is because our only rule down here is order. We let our subjects do as they please; we only ask that it stays civil. Our punishments are brutal, but we don't torture...often."
"But why lie? What purpose does that serve?"
"To make his kingdom more appealing, I suppose. I never understood it. Life up there is akin to the hell they describe this place to be. All the rigid rules and conformity. I much prefer my life here."
"You used to live there?"
Asme chuckled, "Yes. My brothers and I, we are the fallen. Me, Samael, and Beelzebub, we are the leaders of this place. The people named Samael king. I lived with that peacefully until Shynra was named his heir."
Luke sighed heavily, "Do all demons have wings? I've seen yours and Lily's are on my back. But I didn't see Samael's."
Asme shook his head, "No. Only royals and Lilith's line do."
"So they're a status symbol then?"
"Yes, except for Lilith's line. The royals can hide their wings, and they are usually their territory color. Mine are red, Beelzebub's are green. Lilith's line is predatory. Their wings are distinctive, like Shynra's, they can't be hidden."
"If she is royal, why aren't her wings like her father's?"
Asme growled low, it made Luke jump, "My brother and Lilith had Shynra before their bond was complete. You humans would call that wedlock. She has Samael's royal blood, which is how she stakes her claim, but she is not legitimate. She is a bastard, and her claim should mean nothing. The gold and silver of her wings proves that."
Luke reached up and grabbed Asme's hand, "I'm sorry, Asme. I'm the one that has given her claim merit."
"Don't apologize. Priest, you are the best thing that has happened to me in a millennium. Don't ever apologize for finding me."
Luke laughed a loud and boisterous laugh, "Find
you?
I'd say that you found me, Asme. I never would have sought you out on my own."
The demon leaned forward and kissed him on the cheek. Luke smiled.
"I know, Luke. I'm glad you opened yourself to me, though. I would be terribly empty without you."
Luke turned around to face him. He didn't understand why Asme was being so vulnerable. For the duration of his life, Luke had been taught to hide his emotions. The demon was so forthcoming. Luke reached out and captured the demon's face in his hands. Asme nuzzled into his grip.
"I wish I could be as open with you as you are with me, Asme."
Luke brought his lips to Asme's and kissed him with fervor. This was the only way he knew how to convey his feelings without words. He was truly in love with the man in his arms. He shuffled in the bed and pushed Asme onto his back. The demon obliged until Luke crawled on top of him. Luke didn't notice the shift in Asme's demeanor until the demon started hyperventilating.
Luke broke their kiss and looked into the demon's eyes, which were now clouded in terror. He was shaking beneath Luke, and Luke had no idea what to do. The demon's sandy blonde hair had fallen into his face again. Luke brushed it back and dragged his finger's down Asme's face. It didn't seem to help.
"Asmodeus, what's wrong?"
Luke reached down and tried to shake him. He didn't get the chance to. Asmodeus shot out of the bed and knocked Luke flat on his back. He retreated to a far corner of the room. Luke looked at him, knowing that the demon wouldn't actually harm him, and focused on the fear coming from Asmodeus. Luke imagined this is what he had looked like earlier in the night.
Luke stepped off the bed and took a tentative step toward Asme. The demon stepped back and flared his wings out in warning. The red tips looked every bit the warning they should be. Luke stopped. Asme was shaking, his arms crossed in front of his body protectively.
"Asme, please talk to me, are you okay?"
The demon nodded a little too quickly, "Yes. I'll be fine."
"You're shaking," Luke walked towards him again. His wings were no longer flared out. He tensed when Luke grabbed his arm. Luke stroked him softly.
Asme let out a long, ragged breath, "I'm okay. I promise. I'm sorry, I didn't mean to scare you. It's just... No one has ever tried to do that. Not since..."
"You startled me. But you're the one hiding in the corner. I'm more worried about you."
Asmodeus dropped his head. He was clearly scared, and now he was embarrassed. He withdrew his wings completely. Luke took the opportunity to bring him into an embrace. Asme shook his head quickly, but Luke ignored him.
"Asme, I don't know much about relationships, but you comforted me when I was scared. Let me do the same for you."
He tightened his grip around the demon as he spoke. Asmodeus stayed stiff. Luke stroked his back softly to try to ease his pain.
"I'm supposed to be here for you. Not the other way around," Asmodeus said as he relaxed into Luke, "I'm sorry. I don't know what happened. I felt... I felt trapped."
"It's okay. We won't do that again. But I would never trap you, even if I was strong enough to." Luke sighed with relief when Asme laid his head against Luke's shoulder. The demon returned his embrace. The fear coursing through the bond started to recede.
"No. I liked it. I liked it until a memory came into my head. I wasn't always immortal, per se. My father, he would try to suffocate me as a child. I could fight him, but the weight of his body on mine? It reminded me of that. And then there was the water..."
"Asme..." Luke started. What did he say to that? "I would never try to harm you."
"I know. But our bond puts a chip in my immortal life. I'm not afraid of you, but by the shred of immortality that I lost. Even as a creature of death, my own death scares me."
Luke nodded, "I get that, but it's my new eternal lifespan that scares me."
Asme stepped out of Luke's arms and locked eyes with him. For some reason, maybe for Luke's own benefit, he had changed his eyes from their usual swirling black to a human shade of green.
"I will do everything to make sure you have the happiest eternal life anyone can have. I will never leave you."
Luke smiled. He knew that, but hearing it made him happy.
"I know you won't. You haven't yet, not even when
she
tried to dismember you not too long ago. I will do the same for you."
Asme smiled back, the exhaustion in his eyes was evident, "Priest, I'm entirely too exhausted to continue this tonight. Please come join me in bed. I want nothing more than to sleep with you next to me again."
Luke agreed and followed Asme back to the bed. He found himself in the same position they started in- his back pressed against Asme's body. It was a familiar and comfortable position. It wasn't long before he drifted back to sleep.
Luke didn't sleep for long. He could sense Asme's apprehension. The demon was shuddering against him, yet Luke was still tight in his embrace. Luke wiggled slightly, trying to turn to face Asme. It was a little difficult because the demon had his face pressed against the top of Luke's head, buried in his hair. Asme moaned in protest as Luke turned in his arms.
Luke planted his hands on Asme's chest as he settled into his new position. The demon's eyes were still human green. Luke found himself missing the swirling black depths of his real eyes. Luke shivered as Asme traced a line up his spine.
"You're trying to distract me," he said softly.
"Perhaps. I don't really feel like talking," Asme closed his eyes as he spoke and sighed heavily.
"You can't work through this if you don't talk about it."