Author's Note: Do you ever have a chapter that you know that you're getting to from very early on in planning, but just keep having to lay track down in front of to enable yourself to get there? I wrote most of the second half of this chapter in 2016(!) but it kept on needing other things to happen first so here we are.
CW: Forced captivity and implied sexual assault (not erotised or described).
Chapter Eight
I escorted a subdued, somewhat nervous, Nicklas back to the corridor of guest chambers in complete silence. My head whirred with the noisy clatter of a guilty conscience. But I was yet grateful to know that the secret of my name was sewn safely behind his lips.
I rapped politely on Her Majesty's door and Queen Lusaka emerged in her gossamer finery. There was no greeting.
"You've hurt him," Lusaka pouted, as she pinched the lad's chin and inspected the bruise on Nicklas' cheek. She kissed it with her full lips. He flinched a little at the pain, sucking air in through his teeth. "An apology is owed."
"I'm sorry for hitting you, Nicklas," I said gently, inclining my head towards him before turning to leave.
"Where are you going, witch? An apology is owed." Lusaka's voice was like ice.
"An apology has been given," I heard my voice heighten, "You are not my mother to bid that I 'say it nicely' --"
"It is to me, whore-pet, that you owe the apology,"
"What injury have I done you?" I protested.
"I don't appreciate your tone, witch," the Queen locked her gaze upon me. "You are of no higher in station than my pet is -- don't think that simply because Lazuren calls you a "guest" that you are one. His niceties are only that. You have damaged my pet, you will apologise to
me
for it."
I didn't plan to give her the satisfaction of an answer, I was meant to simply give her the raised eyebrow I'd learnt from Laz and stalk away to my other business. But instead I heard myself saying...
"I'm nobody's
pet
, Lusaka. Don't you ever talk to or about me that way. Even poor Nicklas is no
pet
."
The Queen's steely gaze took on a white-hot brightness. Her lips thinned into a contemptuous expression, then drew slowly back into an over-wide smile of gleaming demon teeth. My blood turned cold.
"You are not so dim as not to understand how precarious your position here is. Do not pretend a confidence that you cannot afford, and do not have me stoop so low as to verbalise the precise nature of the pains that I could put you through."
"Perhaps I am dim." I spat, "I certainly see no reason to think myself precariously placed. Good evening, Your Majesty."
There was something wretched in the air and I had no wish to spend another moment in that corridor. This time I did leave. Dimly aware of the weight of the golden chain hugging my body.
***
I returned only tentatively to our chambers. Shame clung to my skin.
"I can smell him on you, you know," Lazuren didn't look up from his papers as he spoke; the tone of his voice was inscrutable.
"I'd no intention of hiding my actions from you," I said, not quite sure enough of myself to know whether I was lying. I would not have told him of the spell I'd cast... but might I have told him of the tryst?
"I can overlook it," he said, still deadpan, "But I would ask that you never do so again."
"I didn't intend for it to happen, not in the moment I took him from the room... but, given that you and Lusaka are so... entwined... I shouldn't have thought it would much bother you."
Now he put down his quill and looked at me.
"Lusaka and I? Heavens Below! Not in moons."
"Not today?" I folded my arms, uncomfortable.
"No, no, not today. Our diplomacy is concluded. Neither of us has anything to gain from fornication in times of peace, just trade and good harvest. Else how can the act be used to sweeten the bargain in future if it is always on the table?"
"So it was politics? You have no care of her?"
"It was politics. Though she has been a friend to me these many centuries, she is no rival to my adoration and admiration of you."
"But you'll fuck her again, yes? When times are not so easy for your kingdom?"
"... I admit that I may," he said frankly. "Will it damage what you feel for me?"
"I'm not in any position to be damning of it,"
"That isn't strictly what I asked,"
"...Then yes, it might make me..." I floundered for words, knowing they were unwise as I said them, "Jealous..."
"A very understandable feeling in its way..." Laz rubbed his bald head with the palm of his big hand. "But not one I will bow to if the needs of my state are great and my options few."
"I suppose that it what is expected of a Prince amongst your ilk," I sighed heavily, ungrateful for the answer but comforted by the dispassion with which it was delivered.