Always an early riser, Mary loved walking her gated community for the exercise and fresh air. The sights and sounds of noisy geese flying in formation overhead peppered with the other sights and sounds of nature, chipmunks and squirrels scrounging for food, along with hawks eying their kill and crows scavenging for anything dead to eat, were diversions that she always enjoyed seeing and watching, but not today. Today, on a mission, more focused on walking as fast as she could, her wonderment of nature was replaced by the anticipated sexual satisfaction of herself. If she could drive to where she needed to go, she would, but there was no place to park her car. If she could run to her destination, as she used to, when she was younger, she'd sprint at a World's record pace to get there in her hurry.
Such a long time ago, when she had that kind of energy to run as fast as a deer through the forest without falling, if only she was younger, she'd make the changes in her life then that would have surely given her a better life now. Knowing what she knows now, now that she's alone with no one in her life, her only regret, she would have married and had children. The only time her thoughts turn to remorse over not marrying was when she ran into her 28-year-old neighbor, Sam, who lived next door with his dog, Snowball, a cute, little, fluffy white Bichon Frise.
A quality young, good looking man, he'd be the type who'd interest her. Yet, realistically, with nearly forty years differences in their ages, every time she thought of Sam in that way, old enough to nearly be his grandmother, she felt ashamed, embarrassed, and ridiculous. However her feelings of shame, whenever she thought of Sam in that way, she felt sexually excited. Inspiring thoughts she thought were forgotten, she felt wickedly wild every time she saw him. Wishing she could make love to him, she felt like a sexual cougar. Whenever she thought of Sam in that way, she touched herself, fingering her nipples and dipping her finger in her warm wetness, while rubbing her bean, before feeling sad that their union would never be.
Separated in life by two, long, life altering generations, what would someone like him want with someone like her? She was too old and he was so young. Yet, had she met someone like him in her youth, without a doubt, he'd be the one she'd marry. Nonetheless, tempted enough by his good looks and her horniness, in the way Mrs. Robinson seduced Benjamin Braddock in the Graduate, wondering what he'd do, invite her in or turn her away, she fantasized about knocking at his back door naked, holding only a bottle of wine.
Preoccupied with other sexual thoughts, with her feelings more focused on what waited for her in the forest than on Sam, she no longer took her leisurely stroll through the woods to soothe her mind and heal her soul. Desperate to get there, today was uniquely different than all the other days that she took her morning constitutional. Normally going for a leisurely, albeit brisk walk around the landscaped paths that snaked through her community complex of lavish townhomes and that were beautified with lush greenery, her walk ended at the duck pond.
Having lived here for several years, she never knew they had a duck pond. Now, while thinking how different she wished her life was, she'd sit on a bench feeding the ducks bits of bread she brought with her in her pocket. Tired of being so alone and living alone, no doubt, her life would have been so much better with the inclusion and accompaniment of a man, a friend, a partner, and a lover all rolled into one. Only, resigned to live alone, after having given up her search for her white knight years ago, unable to ever find such a man, she was now too old, too tired, and too disinterested in sex to continue to look. Yet, today, forgetting about her loneliness and her sexual frustration, when thinking about Sam, with the knowledge of what was waiting for her at the end of her hike at the duck pond, she quickened her pace.
On a mission to rendezvous with her lover, Mary walked to the pond to have deeply probing, purely penetrating, and unadulterated wanton sex, the kind of sex that every woman wished they could have, especially with a phantom lover, one that she doesn't even know his name. If only her priest knew the sexual slut she had so quickly become, she'd be so embarrassed. Promising to say extra Hail Mary prayers and put a little more money in the collection plate, she struggled not to feel so damn guilty over something that felt so extraordinarily good.
"Oh, my God. I can't wait to make love to him. I can't wait for him to take me and to fuck me. I can't wait to feel him inside of me. He makes me feel so alive. He makes me feel so young and so wanted. I hope he's still there waiting for me," she said already glistening with as much perspiration from walking at a very fast pace, as she felt moist from her secreting vagina, when thinking about having sex with her mystery lover.
In the way that she now preferred, wanted, and needed to have sex without all the complications, there were no introductions and no names. Without having commitments, there were no broken promises, apologies, and excuses. With no reason to see one another again, unless she wanted to, and boy did she ever want to have sex with her lover again, she and he, whoever he was, were free to come and go as they pleased. Yet, even though she tried acting so cavalierly cosmopolitan about her shocking new sexual behavior and random albeit erotically exciting love affair, had he suddenly disappeared and if he wasn't there, when she arrived, she'd be inconsolably devastated.
Yet, never wanting him to leave, fortunately for her and for now, he stayed. Perhaps, he enjoyed her as much as she enjoyed him. Perhaps, he didn't care that she was an older, mature woman. She didn't know. He never said. Whenever she wanted to see him again, as if he could read her mind, he'd be waiting there for her, even if it was in the middle of the night, which is the time she went there last night and here she is going back again this morning.
A shameless whore, with nothing on her mind but him giving her an orgasm, suddenly feeling so much like the sexual slut that she has become, she didn't care. So much better than having sex at a swingers' function, not that she's a swinger, she isn't, or has ever had sex with a swinger, she hasn't, but she imagined it was. Yet, after forty years of not having sex, in the way that her sexual life has suddenly changed for the better, happening overnight, her feelings of sensuality and sexuality blossomed in a volcanic eruption. Running parallel to her sudden feelings of all things sexual, she imagined swingers at a swingers' party, the epitome of sensuality, sexuality, and forbidden debauchery, feeling the same way that she felt now, alive with passion and with sex. Not wanting to even know his name, not needing an introduction, she just wanted to feel the sexual excitement of the warm orgasm that he gave her throughout her entire body.
"Fuck me, fuck me, fuck me, fuck me," she said louder, while walking faster. As if she was a yogi chanting a mantra, she was preoccupied and possessed with sex, sex, sex, sex, sex. "Fuck me, fuck me, fuck me."
Dressed in just her sheer nightgown and fuzzy slippers, what she wore last night and the night before to see him, with her nipples already erect and her pussy moist from the sexual anticipation of him taking her, making love to her, and fucking her, if she could walk from her house to the pond naked without being seen by her neighbors, she would. Finally feeling free, sensually alive, and sexually invigorated, as if getting laid has given her an injection from the fountain of youth, in the way Jessica Tandy felt, when she played Alma Finley in Cocoon, this sudden revitalization of sexuality was her second chance at experiencing a fuller life. No longer looking at the duck pond, as just a small pool of water tucked away in the middle of a huge field, she's been having the best sex she ever had at the pond for a week. This pond, her fountain of youth, in the way that Ponce de Leon discovered his fountain of youth in Florida, six hundred years later and retired in Florida, Mary has discovered her own, private fountain of youth at the duck pond.
Never so much as getting a good look at her lover, she didn't know if he was a mere mortal man, a God, an Angel, a thing, or an Alien sent here from another universe and another planet for her personal use to make love to her and to pleasure her. Not really caring who he was, so long as he continued sexual pleasuring her, every time with him was better than the time before. So very happy, all that she knew was for the first time in four decades, she felt so sensual and sexual and she didn't care if some erotic extraterrestrial energy form ravished her, so long as he continued. If his far away planet is like that all the time, a sexual paradise of orgasmic pleasure, she'd rather be there than to stay here.
"Take me away. Take me with you. If you leave, don't go without me. Beam me up and take me aboard your starship, so long as you continue to give me wonderful orgasms with your beam of probing light."