"O my Soul, there is a link between your hear and mine.
And my heart is looking for that path.
My heart is clear and pure like water and pure water
is a perfect mirror for moonlight."
--Mevlana Jalalu'din Rumi,
Veiled
Please… Let me die…
The hot desert sun was starting to set, and the cold was creeping in. The last of Saira's strength gave out and she collapsed in the hot sand. Her lips were dry and cracked and her eyes, her nose, and her lungs were full of dust. She tried to crawl, to drag herself a little further but it was no use.
Saira rolled onto her back in the shadow of bleak, wind-carved rocks and her eyes stared up into sky, into the infinite darkening nothing. Her lungs burned and struggled for every breath and her eyes opened and closed, not really seeing the desolate desert around her. The wind was picking up now…
I'll be buried,
Saira smiled vaguely.
I'll be dead and buried before something comes to pick at my body…
Her eyes closed and she welcomed the desert's harsh embrace as it made to consume her. Sand half covered her now and her breath grew more and more shallow. Saira felt something like the briefest touch of fingers on her brow. Her eyes barely opened. Something was reaching for her, something dark.
Shai'el,
Saira thought dimly.
The devils are here to take me…
It was the last thing she thought before darkness swallowed her.
***
He watched her, the same he had done for the past day or so now. The woman he found on the sands refused to stir. Nothing he did seemed to rouse her. It was as though the desert had cursed her to permanent sleep.
Who would condemn such a beauty to die?
He thought as he reached out to stroke dark hair from her face.
Who would leave her in the desert like that?
Fingers wrapped in black silk barely touched her hair and he thought against it. He withdrew his hand as though it were a sin to touch such beauty, and sighed softly. He reached for a tarnished, silver carafe, poured water into a small, tarnished silver tumbler, and brought it to her lips. A little managed to trickle down her throat, but the rest ran down the side of her mouth. He gently mopped the water from her face with a covered hand.
He rose from her bedside and arranged the diaphanous silk so it was closed again, and poked at the brazier where sweet herbs and resins barely smoldered now. With a gentle breath, he blew out an oil lamp, and took up the plate of food that he'd left a while ago in hopes that she might wake up.
I was too late,
he thought.
I found her too late, and she's probably too weak. I don't know how long she was out there crawling around in the sand.
He took one last look at her through the silk. Any moment, she looked like she would wake up from her seemingly peaceful sleep.
This is too cruel to put such a temptation before me.
His brow furrowed and he pushed aside the thought, disgusted that he would even think of a helpless woman in that way, no matter how beautiful. He shook his head and turned away to blow out the last lamp.
The least I can do is make her comfortable...
***
There was something soft, something warm against her skin as Saira slowly awoke. Her ears rang and dizziness forced her back down to the pillows. She stayed there for long moments before she slowly tried again.
Saira's eyes squinted through the sheer silk that surrounded her bed. The flicker of oil lamps cast strange shadows around her that she didn't recognize. The perfume of soft, spicy incense hung in the air and she reached out to part the gauzy curtain.
Where am I?
Saira peered around the room—if it could even be called that. At one time it might've been beautiful: tiles of cracked, once vibrant mosaic tiles of blues, greens, golds and reds set in white, lined the ruined walls in patches. She thought they might've been arranged into flowers of some sort. Half the room looked like it was smashed in by rocks and the other half, ravaged by time.
"This was once a beautiful place..." Saira murmured to herself.
She went to get up and realized that she was naked.
Where… are my clothes!?
Saira pulled the silk she'd been sleeping under, around her, and got up. She wrapped it a little tighter and tucked it in at her chest. On one of the rocky outcroppings that penetrated the room, she saw one of the flickering oil lamps. There was also a small table set with food and a carafe. Saira rushed over to it and for a moment, she hesitated.
A mirage?
She thought.
A dream?
It looks fresh.
She picked up the carafe.
Fresh water…
Saira didn't care if it was real or not. She reached out, ravenous, as she pushed olives into her mouth. The figs tasted sweet and wonderful on her tongue and the meat, the delicious strips of meat went just as fast. Saira washed it down with the water. She drank cup after cup until her thirst was sated, and the carafe nearly dry.
Someone's here,
She thought.
Someone put this here…
"Hello!" she called out. "Hello?"
A dark shade approached the room and stopped at the feminine voice. It ducked out of sight behind a broken column and peered out at Saira from behind.
She's awake!
His heart soared with joy… and terror.
"Is anyone there? Can anyone hear me?"
His eyes closed behind the black veil he wore.
I want to go to her, but…
He cursed under his breath and moved from the column to behind the wide mosaic arch that made up the doorway to the room where Saira was.
"Anyone?" she pleaded. "Please?"
Her last words sounded so mournful that it pained him. He swallowed his fear, but his lips still trembled as he spoke:
"Did you eat well?"
Saira turned abruptly, but saw no one.
"Who's there?"
"Are you warm enough?"
"Where
am
I?"
He heard her small feet patter across the broken marble towards him.
"
Stop.
"
Saira came to a halt at the strong, firm masculine voice behind the door's frame.
"You're my guest," he said. "And you're safe. I was… worried for you."
"Worried? I don't--"
"--I found you, took you in from the desert. I was afraid you wouldn't wake."
"In the desert…" Saira murmured.
Her chest heaved at the memory of sand and searing heat that had choked her lungs. She remembered the merciless sun and vaguely, the shadow that had reached for her.
"Who are you?"
"Kahlil," he said.
And before he could stop himself:
"I am at your service."
There was silence between them for a moment and Kahlil swallowed hard.
"If there's nothing else, then I'll--"
"Thank you, Kahlil," Saira said softly. "My life… is yours."
Saira heard him sigh softly.
"I don't want your life," he said. "But if I could know your name?"
"Saira…"
Saira,
Kahlil thought.
Lotus--and just as beautiful as one.
"Good evening then, Saira. I'll see if you need anything in the morning. Rest well."
Kahlil drifted off and Saira was left standing in flickering shadows of the crumbled room, wondering who this man was.
***
The evening gave way to morning, and the sun slowly rose over the desert as Kahlil closed one of many old trunks in his room.
This should do…
What should've taken two men to lift; he lifted effortlessly into his arms, carried it to Saira's room, and quietly set it aside. He went back for the food that he had prepared for her earlier and sighed nervously as he made his way back.
This is madness!
Kahlil chided himself.
Give her food and water—send her away before she finds out! If she stays, if she comes to know…
When he came to Saira's room and saw her sleeping so peaceful beyond the gauzy veil his heart protested.
You know you can't do that…
Kahlil told himself.
There's nothing but desert, no place she could walk to. If you send her out there, she'll perish. You'll be little better than the monsters who left her to die.
He set the plate of food down on the small table and turned to leave, when Saira stirred. The silk slid off her tanned skin, revealing beautiful, firm breasts and a strong, slender body. Kahlil felt himself stir for the first time in ages at the beauty of a woman's body, and he swallowed hard against his sudden arousal.
A shrouded hand parted the diaphanous curtain around her and he reached out, tempted again by her beauty.
I mustn't!
"Kahlil?"