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"He's looking at you again," said Mel.
"What, again? You keep saying that, but I haven't caught him at it," I responded and took another sip of wine.
Mel rolled her eyes, and with more exasperation than I would have believed possible replied "Oh, good grief, Lexi. Just because you don't see him looking doesn't mean he isn't. If I say that Mr. Bodacious Bod is checking you out, I'm right." I calmly took another sip of wine and casually glanced over my shoulder towards the bar.
"You said the guy in the grey-blue shirt?" I looked back at Mel, who nodded. "Nice slacks, and work boots?" Another nod. "Brown hair?" Exaggerated sigh, which I took to be confirmation. "Currently flirting with the bartender?"
"What?" She turned to look. "Well, she isn't there now. Are you sure she wasn't the one to start it? I mean, he is gorgeous. Plus his clothes scream money - she probably wants a good tip and his number. Or his address." Mel calmly met my eyes, and her lips curled up in a smile I knew meant mischief for someone. Which, since it was just the two of us out for after work drinks, was something I needed to be worried about. "Bet you the next bottle?"
"Mel, need I remind you what happened the last time you said that?"
"Oh, hell yeah." She said, a misty smile on her face.
"Nearly fifteen thou in property damage to the room, and I'm still getting emails from that hockey team." I sighed, but...that had been pretty sweet. "Fine, but you are paying for any financial costs other than booze."
"Only if they happen in the next 48 hours." Grudgingly, I agreed. She gave me a sunny smile, and simply stated, "sweet. Turn and look at him - don't look away. When he looks back give him the old come hither smile." Mel looked at me expectantly.
"How do I know you've lost? This seems to be a pretty poorly worded bet."
"As long as you're honest I won't lose." Her face was a playful blend of trouble and fun, with just a tiny bit of calculation. So, normal Mel behavior. I turned to look at 'Mr. Bodacious Bod.'
Maybe a minute later his head turned slightly, as though to furtively look over his shoulder...right at me. He noticed me looking and was suddenly deeply interested in his drink.
Well. I hadn't expected that. This merited more effort. I continued to look at him, until a handful of breaths later he turned to look again. This time, even though the bar wasn't well lit I could see his blush from across the room.
Meeting his eyes was absolutely enthralling. I heard someone inhale sharply and it took me a couple of lifetimes to realize it had been me. Completely of their own volition my lips curved into a wicked little smile that up until now had only been seen in bedrooms (and one hotel room in Vegas).
Something wasn't right, not even a little bit. However, the alarm bells in my head were far too easily washed away by a veritable tsunami of lust. My breathing had increased, and I could feel myself getting wet. And the object of this sudden surge of lust was still a good 10 long strides away from me. It felt really, really good. Other than the distance between us, of course.
I broke the gaze, feeling somewhat alarmed. Mel was smiling at me, completely oblivious to the depth of what I had just felt. She looked smug. "I think I won."
"Yeah," my voice sounded a bit shaky, "I think you're right, he wants me." The really stupid part of my brain told me that I should do my best to stalk him and get him alone to...see what could happen. Before I could assemble anything like a chain of logic to defeat that thought I realized that I was turning to look at him again.
Holy fuck.
What felt like hours later I realized that he was walking toward Mel and my table with an easy hunter's stride, calmly navigating around the intervening tables and chairs. His smile could have charmed the pants off anyone who was interested in men.
"Well, my part this evening is done," said Mel, "You've been moping over your ex for too long. Enjoy!"
"Wait, don't," I started, panicked.
She quickly interrupted me, "Lexi, sweetie, you used to eat men like that for breakfast and have them begging for more. He is gorgeous, and was scared to meet your eyes! Seriously, have fun and meet me for lunch tomorrow. Same place as always" Then it was too late for me to say anything, since he was close enough to overhear.
"I hope I'm not interrupting?" He said quietly, and to the casual observer, shyly. Mel smiled at him, and shook her head.
"I was just leaving. Maybe you can help my friend finish that bottle?" With that she was heading towards the door.
"Well, how could I refuse a lady? Especially one as lovely as your friend." He smiled, and met my eyes again.
I'd thought that the first two times had been shattering. This time it was almost as though my lust that had been boiling over was transformed somehow. It became deeper, and oddly it was no longer preventing me from thinking clearly. Or, more accurately, it was guiding me towards drowning in some very clear thoughts and memories.
My first time, in the back of my high school sweetheart's car after prom. We were just eighteen, neither of us old enough to know better, nor old enough to care. He'd asked me to ride him, and I had. I didn't even take the time to get out of my dress after he couldn't figure out the fastenings. I'd loved being on top, and for the rest of the summer he'd said that he loved it when I took charge. So I did, and he came back begging for more.
Josh, the second guy I'd dated in university. At a major party I'd walked over to the captain of the water polo team, sat on his lap, and asked him out. He'd laughed and asked if I would discuss it further in his bedroom. We got distracted before we had that conversation - and before we made it to his bedroom. (The dorm showers were convenient, though.) The sex was aggressive from both sides, super physical, and amazing. Josh and I dated on-again, off-again for the next three years. Both of us slept around. Neither of us cared, so long as we told one another stories when we were on-again.
My graduation trip to Vegas with Mel and another two friends. A visiting collegiate hockey team had wandered into the casino, celebrating a victory. Mel made a bet. She both lost and won.
Reuniting with Josh at a friend's wedding. We were both part of the wedding party, since we'd introduced the happy couple. Even though he didn't manage to get my dress unbuttoned before I climbed on his lap, we did at least make it to my hotel room.
I really need to consider dating men who can handle buttons.
Two years later, Josh telling me that he'd been offered a job in the Netherlands. I'd just started a three year contract at my current job and couldn't leave. That had been two months ago.
Confused and a little dazed I pulled away from the eyes of the man sitting across the table from me. "You are single?" It sounded like a question, but something told me he had seen, or maybe even caused the memories to flow across my mind. I nodded, not trusting my voice. I sat at the table, frozen with both lust and fear. Then he reached across the table and took my hand, and kissed the back of it.