My name is Emma and I am in my mid-twenties. I used to live in the city, but after a long series of disappointments I felt a calling to move out here to the mountains. I've always been told that I was an attractive woman and to a certain degree I even believed it when men and women told me so. I guess it's the rarity of seeing a red head with bright green eyes and pure, clear skin that doesn't look anemic that keeps people looking and commenting. I, on the other hand, have always felt that my nose was a little too small and my breasts a tad too big. I can only shrug and shake my head when people are satisfied to judge me on the things they wish to see and not what's really there.
That's how it all started I guess. I don't think I have ever been satisfied with anything in my life. I've never been fulfilled emotionally or physically and it was starting to frustrate me. Down there in the city with all those people swarming around and around I just couldn't concentrate. I think it was the smell of all the sweat and life pulsing about me. It was rough, especially when I knew that each and every one of these men or women (doesn't matter too much to me at this point) was so incomplete and broken that they had no chance of filling me on any level. I mean the sadness that would fill me after yet another man whipped out his 6 or 7 inches and proudly jumped right into my wet waiting pussy with no thought of me or my desires was really problematic for me.
The last encounter I had before I left was the worst of all. It brought me to the conclusion to leave all this meaningless sex and interaction. I had gone to the house of a couple I had known for a few years. They had always fawned on me and attempted to sway me into bed or the couch or wherever they could get me. I had always had a sense that they viewed me as a potential conquest. Like I was a trophy to be stuffed crudely and mounted to the headboard. Every time Phil or Karen (Who we all called Kay) would let their eyes travel all the way down my 5 feet 10 inches I would feel their hot gaze lingering on my pert breasts and tight rounded ass. It never really turned me off but it was never a real enticement either. I did know from Kay that Phil was, as she said, hung like a horse. She was in fact so proud of his manhood that she claimed partial ownership of it and referred to it as Phil and Kay's dick. Kay herself was like a roman statue or a slightly overbuilt runway model. She was all legs and breasts and blond hair with perfect parts combining them all.
We ate a wonderful meal that Karen and Phil had spent the day preparing. The meal was a wonderful Italian affair with rich red sauces and pasta cooked to the perfect firmness. I will have to admit that I savored every dripping noodle that I sucked up and delighted in each meatball that I greedily crammed in my mouth. I enjoyed the food far more than what came later.