I wish I did not know what I know.
I wish that my life had been different.
It's true that I sold my soul to my master, the sorcerer. The erotic mix of sex and magic that he wove his spells around made him impossible for me to resist. I yearned for satisfaction, my fat little body craved the sound fucking and degenerate humiliations that so far only master could give. The fine print in my slave contract stated, in addition to my soul and body, I gave up the right to lie. I thought in the heat of the moment, (and there was *serious* heat in that moment,) it meant that I had to always tell the truth.
Fuck that.
What it really meant is that any and all lies, falsehoods, or deceptions made in my presence are excruciatingly painful. The pain varies in proportion to the grandeur of the lie. For example, a white lie feels a little like eye strain, while laying eyes on a shape-shifted companion feels like a white hot poker jammed through your skull. If that wasn't bad enough, a spell woven by the clawed hands of a spider-woman freed parts of my memory benevolently hidden by my grandmother. Now, with the facade of false memory ripped away, I could recall every moment of my life with perfect clarity. The veneer of propriety that hid the moments of my life that dealt with the traumatizing presence of my father, had been stripped away, every degradation, every shade and nuance, every compromising week on my knees begging for more cock echoed now within my well used soulless body. That void, that hole in my life left plenty of room for continuing humiliation.
I trudge forward because my master demands it, because the lust in my body needs the sexual crescendo that his touch provides.
I know that there is magic involved.
This new world I live in is filled with magic, that no small percentage of what he makes me feel is due to magic. As long as he owns my soul, its bonded to him, it calls to me, resonating through my holes like an electrified vibrator as he fucks me. The rest... he can torture me like no one else ever has... like no one else except my biological father, the troll.
I don't call him a troll to be cruel or as an exaggeration, he is a troll or at least part troll. You can see it in his stance, in the way his shoulders fit together, and the length of his arms in proportion to the rest of his body. The joy that my master gives me is only rivaled by the utter humiliation and emptiness I feel as his long fingers dig into my hips as my father inches his thickness into my body. I can barely stand myself, because he had trained my body to crave his attention as much as I now do my master's.
Because of that second spell, I remember with perfect clarity four decades of time, half a perfect fiction, Apple pie, noodle salad. The other time, the truth... twenty years of learning to please and appease the insatiable sex drive of my father: decades on my knees, back, covered in cum, five years alone learning how to relax my jaw enough to deep throat the entire length of his studded troll cock, endless hours of his voice curling around my brain, and almost all that time wanting more.
While my grandmother's spell held sway, and I believed that i was a normal girl, my body craved the things it had been trained to do. I found the worst men, and the depths of their depravity couldn't scratch the itch planted deep within me...
Push those thoughts out Kallie! You can't think about this now, you still have things to do!
In the silk purse, the bangles I bartered the memories of my happy childhood for, weighed heavy. Somehow, this so-called token of ultimate submission came from my mother. Barely visible markings traced its surface if you looked closely enough. The iron of the artifact sounded a constant chime against the silver clad crystal conduit in the bag as I walked. I didn't know what these things did, why they were currency in the underworld, or what use they could possibly have. The emotional weight impressed upon these tiny things could stagger the mind. I was forbidden to touch it bare handed lest I experience the moment in time the token carried, and I had enough new memories.
Master assigned me chores, fetching the bobbles, as well as several standing orders as circumstances dictated. Some were simple, like always be naked in the house, if I can see master's cock I suck master's cock, simple. This one, "When you observe an unawakened potential, casually and quietly, use the tools provided to locate, then assess the quality of the potential in question," had never up to this point happened.
The instrument master provided changed daily, today, the tool in question was a viciously enchanted sex toy inserted in my cunt. The constant buzzing and throbbing of the egg notified me that a potential was on the train. The buzzing was faint now, but growing more intense as I moved in her direction, the background arousal of this city sized game of hot and cold was making me crazy. The pulse of the sex toy on my g-spot led me like a magnet to a seedy porn shop I recognized from the name tag on the uniform of a girl on the train.
"Make sure you make a shopping list for stuff you might want later..."
Roxie's voice whispered into my ear. Her flirting was soothing and possibly the only thing holding me together at this point. Between the revelation about my father, and my feelings of abject failure and self-loathing as far as he was concerned, I just wanted to crawl in a dark hole.
Maybe, a dark hole just like the inside of this porn shop. It was what I expected, many of the patrons were citizens of the undergovernment, many just sad ciphers drudging through life. To accommodate the two different classes of customer, certain display counters in the area around the checkout, could only be seen and accessed by people from my world. Those sad zombies living in the shallow world, couldn't see the torture devices, the tools of true sexual depravity, disguised within crappy counter tops and inside badly painted walls. They couldn't see any of it.
I tried to be subtle in my observations of the girl, Erika, as I shopped around the store. My fellow citizens leered at my body, disguised like the counter, bulging within my bondage dress. I half-heartily looked around and basketed items, scandalized not just a little by the objects within the off the books areas. Struggling to reach an item over my head, I turned away, and lost track of my quarry.
"Whoa. That's one hell of a dildo for that strap-on you've got there. Respect."
Erika was standing right beside me. Half a foot taller than me, skinny, with looped hanging belts across her narrow hips, she pursed her lips and ogled my tits. The egg's pulsing became a thought braking jackhammer on my g-spot.
"Thought I saw you earlier on the train, but I was tripping balls, imagined you were all dolled up in a leather strap hobble dress going down on a giant Oni lady. As my hallucinations go, hot as hell. My name is Erika, and pardon my word vomit, I just had a hunch you might be mildly interesting."
Her smile played about her lips, curling and uncurling in the corners. Her eyes danced wildly from behind smoky eye makeup. I was pretty sure she was tripping now, and could see through the illusion, cum dripping down my legs, leather digging into my flesh, instead of the frumpy secretary image the unawakened people were supposed to see.
"I think you have me confused with someone else. Miss, ummm, you're not still tripping are you?"
"Why? You're not wearing a bondage dress that's binding your tits like torpedoes, making your nipples hard enough to cut glass are you?"
She wore her uniform like armor of a sort. She was thin, but hard, her blouse was unbuttoned to her navel. She was wearing a wife beater and from certain angles you could see her rock-hard nipples through the thin material. The egg river-dancing on my g-spot hadn't gotten the message I'd found my quarry, a bone shattering orgasm was on the way. I could barely stand.
"Where's the Oni? This harness isn't for her, is it? You need a size up."
She whisked away with the harness and reappeared with another, sturdier model.
"Coincidentally, this ought to fit you too..."
She winked, dropped another rubber cock in my basket.
"This one is from behind the counter in the stock that I'm not supposed to be able to see."
The thick double-ended rubber cock curved up to a fat apple, the other end knobbed with protrusions to work against my insides. It was creepy, corner of your eye squirmy, and reminded me of the movie "Alien."
"I don't think this one actually needs a harness, so whatever."
She reached out, and touched my harness, touched my nipples with her open palms, and sucked my right nipple into her thick lips. With her touch the maddening vibrations in my cunt stopped, but her lips and hands on my fat body worked their own magic.
"Tasty."