Exhausted sleepy helloooo...
It should be written somewhere, and probably is written that writing is like setting up a chessboard for you endgame: Highly involved and mentally straining! I suck at chess btw, so I am working really hard to get to the end I imagine for this story so bear with me. This chapter introduces the last edge pieces of the puzzle. Now our main characters can finally start filling in the picture.
That being said I apologize, but I make no more promises. I put a lot of work into my chapters, my plot and my characters. It doesn't fit some preconceived timeline of when I should post and for that I apologize. That being said, I can tell you that I am not going to simply stop. I will keep working at this story until it is finished. I don't like unfinished stories either. If that affects ratings and whether or not I am a favorite author, so be it. I am writing for the sake of taking the good story out of my h
ead and giving it to the world, not for the ratings.
That little tirade complete and totally in response to an aggressive email I received. Thank you to my editors LadyMirage, AWys, Hal and Lizzie! I will get another chapter out as soon as I possibly can, I am already working away at the keys. Enjoy this one, it took a lot of time and effort and I think it is the natural progression for the story.
P.S. I tried to make it feel not so rushed!
Silently S(leepy)illy
*****************
Victoria was slow to wake up. Her body was heavy and lethargic, her muscles completely relaxed. She kept her eyes closed long after she was fully awake. Last night had been far more than enjoyable. Antony had been forceful with his pleasure; he was all over her like a second skin. His teasing nips had brought her wolf to the surface and Victoria had been overwhelmed by the heightened sensations. The feel, the smells, the sounds...had all worked in conjunction to bring her to a tizzy. She couldn't think any longer. She could only feel the delicious weight of Antony's body on hers. The soundtrack of the night had been their matching pounding heartbeats and pants blended smoothly with sighs and moans. She couldn't help the smile that spread across her face at the memories, but who could; who would want to?
"I wonder what would put such a gorgeous smile on that beautiful face."
Her smile grew bigger. Without opening her eyes, she started to stretch, but her hands wouldn't move. She cracked one eye and glanced up to see that her right hand was tied to the head board. She looked quickly to the left and saw it was in the same predicament. Antony was standing at the end of the bed, a sly smirk on his face. She glared at him, trying to beat down the rising panic in her chest.
"Now before you work yourself up into something we won't be able to leave this room until we've dealt with it, let me tell you what conclusions I have come to."
Victoria snarled, "You're crazy! Let me go."
"No, I am not crazy and I am not letting you go. Also that isn't listening. Now I realize what my big mistake was. After our mating I gave you space, because I didn't want you to think I was smothering you; I wanted you to know you were free to...to move I guess. That apparently was the wrong move, because you moved in the wrong direction; you and I did a lot of moving. So I thought about it early this morning while you were all curled up against me. Our little honey moon was brief and you didn't come back that first night. I never got to remind you what you were coming back to. By the time I did realize it, you were adeptly avoiding me like the plague."
Victoria's anger and panic was building quickly. She couldn't quite convince herself that Antony was going to let her go. He was rambling and she couldn't straighten it all out in her mind what exactly he was saying. Her heart was seizing and she could feel the tears rolling down her face.
Antony was in her face in a second. He straddled her body and locked eyes with her. She felt him, full force in her head. His panic matched hers, a response to her fear, as he shared his plan. She watched his dramatic attempt at seduction run through his mind and couldn't help, but laugh. There was nothing logical about it, it was ridiculous and silly, but it was exactly what she needed to see. With their minds so deeply intertwined it was difficult to separate her panic from his, but she felt both of them go down. Felt his relief as her eyes looked less frantic. It was only then that he breathed out and closed his eyes resting his forehead against hers.
"Do you want me to let you go? Are you going to bolt?" Antony asked shakily.
Victoria hesitated before answering; she wanted to be sure that what she was saying was what she actually wanted. She knew she had so much to think about and such little time to do it. After that night they had been attacked it hadn't been as easy as she hoped it might. Being determined wasn't always enough. She was willing to let him in, when it came to pack stuff. She would let him balance the load, as she had done his when she first started. After a while though, she realized she had taken on more than she could handle. So for at least two weeks she was fighting not only her revulsion at being controlled, but her irritability at being stressed. They had gotten into more fights in the last two weeks than when they had first met. She didn't like it when he asked her where she was going, what she was doing, who she was doing it with. She balked when he planned things for her or changed her schedule.
One day complaining to her grandmere, she was surprised when her story was met with loud laughter.
"Mon petit loup, it sounds to me like your describing yourself. You both are just as controlling. You think you know what's best for everyone around you." Victoria could only stare as her grandmere laughed the whole time she gave the explanation. She laughed her way out the door. It hadn't been the response she had expected, so she had taken a couple hours to actually think about what she had said.
She wasn't controlling per say, she just like the way she did things. It worked! Plus she only had people's best interest in mind. It was that moment when her relationship with Antony got a lot easier. She started thinking about intent, what was the intent behind the decision she made. She couldn't say that she actually enjoyed where her thoughts landed, but then people rarely did. Though hesitant, Victoria started to look at the reasons behind Antony actions using their mental connection. Once he figured out what she was doing, he opened up more to her. She stopped having to poke and prod stealthily.
Not so suddenly, it was easier for them to communicate and interact on one level. They began to work together, but still she couldn't help pulling away on the romantic front. As much as her wolf demanded they return to Antony every night, she would find any reason to stay up late. She would work in the office until everything blurred and then sleep on the couch until morning. She would eat meals in the main dining room, surrounding herself with the pack. She wouldn't let Antony catch her alone. She started working out with some of the women, running with them, teaching them new tactics. She filled her days with the pack, so that outside of their work related interactions, she didn't have time for him. He'd only gotten to her last night because her mother had wanted a sit down dinner. That being said it wasn't as if she didn't dream about him every night. A wad of longing had built up within her, but she had enough experience denying her desires. She ignored the fastidious lump of emotions tying her shoulders up with tension.
Antony was staring down at her, his eyes pleading. She reached out her mind and felt the desperation and desire. She could feel the truth behind his words and it helped relax.
"I believe you had seduction on your mind and I would hate to ruin such a well thought out plan. Besides I should at least give you a shot at what you want, seeing as there is no guarantee that you will be successful."
He chuckled and looked at her, his previous excitement and passion reigniting in his eyes. He sat up and took a deep breath. "Oh now Victoria, don't you know how much I love a challenge?"
He started kissing at her neck, sucking lasciviously at the sweet spots he had discovered in their limited time together. She unconsciously bit at his shoulder. He growled in response. The sound sent chills across her skin, but she held back her moan. She wouldn't give him the satisfaction; he would have to fight for them. She felt his smile against his skin; he looked up and gave her a quick kiss.
"I have no problem fighting."