Crystal smiled, and kept up appearances. While there was joy to be had in the annual Harper family Christmas gathering, the sting of what happened simply wouldn't allow her to fully enjoy the festivities.
As everyone rose from their seats to adjourn to the kitchen to play Hearts, Crystal's mother asked, "Are you going to play?"
She kept a smile on her face as she shook her head and stood. "I think I'm going to turn in. I'm still jet-lagged from the flight."
"I'll walk up with you," her mother said. "I only opened those vents a few hours ago. If it's still cold in there, I'll fetch you another blanket."
Crystal knew better, and doubted anyone else believed the excuse either. Her aunt said they would set up and save her mother a seat. Mother and daughter then mounted the stairs, and climbed up to the third floor.
Once far away from the eyes and ears of the family, her mother asked, "Is there anything I can do?"
Crystal shook her head. "I just need some rest."
Her mother cupped her cheek in hand and said, "He wasn't the one, and he didn't deserve you. I love you."
"Love you, Mom."
At least revealing her secret to her mother in a fit of tearful, disbelieving anxiety had gone better than the revelation that had resulted in that state. After three years of a fairytale relationship throughout college, she'd grown comfortable enough to tell Tony the secret she'd never revealed to another living soul. She'd expected him to be understanding. She thought he might even be aroused by the idea.
She couldn't have been more wrong.
His loving gaze had vanished in a mask of horror and disgust the moment she told him she was attracted to other women. He'd backed away without a word, ignoring her pleas to talk to her, or look at her, or
anything
. He left, and just like that, it was over. He had never spoken to her again.
Only three weeks distant, the wound was still very much fresh and raw.
Her mom said, "We'll be right downstairs if you need anything."
"Thanks. Go. Aunt Steph will be helpless without you," Crystal said.
Her mother shook her head, rolled her eyes, and sighed. "A doctor, and she can't play cards to save her life. See you at breakfast?"
"Mmm hmm. Goodnight."
"Goodnight."
With that, Crystal opened the door to her room and stepped inside. Strangely, though not a single thing from her childhood remained, the room still felt more like home than her new apartment. She'd only just moved in, unable to bear staying in a place that held so many happy memories — all turned to ash.
A walk to the window revealed a familiar and nostalgic view. Through the frost-rimed glass, she looked down on the town below. Freshly fallen snow covered everything. There was a Christmas tree in the largest street side window of every home, and multicolored lights twinkled far off into the distance. The place was still as much an immaculately prepared tourist trap as a town, but it was home.
Crystal unzipped her suitcase and pulled out her pajamas — which she'd conveniently packed last, so they would be immediately available. After laying them out on the bed, she pulled off her top, and realized that her mother's excuse wasn't entirely a fib. The room was indeed chilly, and she shivered as her nipples stiffened from the cold.
Even as she hurried to change, in order to slip beneath the blankets and quilts on her bed, she felt a tickle from her right ear. She lifted her hand to brush away the stray golden blonde hairs, but found she was mistaken about the source of the sensation. Her long, braided pigtails hadn't slipped loose a few strands. At the same moment, she swore she heard an almost inaudible tinkling of tiny bells.
Maybe my excuse wasn't entirely a fib either,
she thought. She was imagining things, and that was certainly a sign that she was tired.
She steeled herself for the chilly air to kiss her bare breasts, but when she slipped off her bra, she no longer felt cold. What's more, the clouds over her mood felt as if they had thinned — just a little. Unwilling to risk losing the twin boons by contemplating them overmuch, she accepted them, changed into her pajamas, and crawled into bed.
She drifted off almost immediately — warm and safe in the room where she'd grown up.
****
Crystal awakened wearing a smile so wide that she could feel the strain in her cheeks. Faint, wispy memories of a dream remained, but beyond that, she couldn't recall anything specific. There were a few obvious clues, beyond her smile. Her pebble-hard nipples, tingling sex, and the scent of her arousal wafting from beneath the blanket identified the nature of the dream as erotic, even if she could remember no details.
She blushed at the thought, but her smile remained. For the first time in weeks, she felt almost normal. There was still an icy, dark cloud within her heart, but it no longer dominated her, as it had since Tony had left her so abruptly and cruelly.
The welcome buoyancy of her mood remained as she slipped out of bed. The room was warm, and even two floors up, she could smell the heavenly scent of coffee and bacon from downstairs. Eager to partake in both food and fellowship with the family, she went to her suitcase to dress.
Her brow knitted when she saw something unexpected on top of her carefully folded clothing. It was an old tourist pamphlet from the time when she was a child. The image on the front was sun-faded, and there was foxing along the folds. Atop that rested a shiny, golden key.
They certainly weren't there when she removed her pajamas the previous evening.
Crystal picked up the key and examined it. There was no writing of any kind to identify what it might belong to. She put it down on the chest of drawers and withdrew the pamphlet. One side advertised the local tourist destinations, while the other was a map of the town, and the surrounding region — including her home, which had also served as a bed and breakfast since her grandmother's time.
Near the marker for her house was another for a spring where she had spent many a joyous day as a child. There, in carefully penned, but childish script, was an odd rhyming poem. She knew instantly that the handwriting was her own, but remembered nothing of writing it.
It read, "The ring in winter. The spring's beautiful sleep. Touch in its center. The promise she'll keep."
Though the words made absolutely no sense, reading the poem made her smile return again.
A knock sounded on the door. "Honey, breakfast is ready."
Crystal turned toward the door and responded, "I'm getting dressed. I'll be right down, Mom."
"Your aunt made blueberry pancakes, and you know how long those will last. Better hurry."
Crystal laughed and said, "Okay, Mom." She put down the pamphlet atop the key and returned to picking out her clothing for the day.