Did you see the frightened ones?
Did you hear the falling bombs?
Did you ever wonder why we had to run for shelter when the
Promise of a brave new world unfurled beneath a clear blue sky?
Oooooh
Did you see the frightened ones?
Did you hear the falling bombs?
The flames are all long gone, but the pain lingers on.
-Pink Floyd, Goodbye Blue Sky
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Santa Fe Pack, New Mexico
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Renee awoke to the sunrise. She didn't keep her eyes open, she was still in wolf form and her nose told her what was going on. Most of her pack still lay piled around or on her, but the fire had been stoked and breakfast was being made. She gently untangled herself from the wolves around her and stood up.
She was healing quickly. The pain from the gashes plus fatigue left her stiff and sore all over. Yesterday had been tough on her physically, the fight exhausted her and she had multiple injuries. His claws had done serious damage before blood loss stopped his movement.
Then there was the mental fatigue. It had been a rough couple of days, including the loss of a friend and her imprisonment. The Alpha challenge had been the desperate answer to the threat of a forced mating and the loss of her pups, and now she faced a new challenge, one she was not ready for. She was now an Alpha. She looked around to all the people who now depended on her. She had been in leadership positions before over groups this size, but it was the first time where she had no one above her to help her and mentor her. Maybe now with the ability to use cellphones again she could call her brother and Amanda for help.
How would she do this all by herself? Derek had always had Amanda by his side to help him. This pack didn't even have true Betas left. It was all so overwhelming. Almost as overwhelming as what was coming.
Her babies. She shifted into human form and rubbed her hands over her belly which had not yet began to show, carefully avoiding the healing wounds. She focused her love onto them as she walked. Gary's children, their future. If she hadn't become pregnant she doubted she would have kept going after he was killed, when he stopped breathing her soul had shattered. She missed him terribly, but for her cubs she would go on, somehow.
At least this last night she had not had the nightmare, had not woken screaming, had not cried herself back to sleep. It was a start.
She was standing still with her eyes closed when she felt someone hug her leg. She opened her eyes and looked down at Michelle's eyes, then rested her hand on her dirty blonde hair. Julie had given her the story last night after Michelle was asleep. Michelle was the only cub in the pack, she was seven years old now and was orphaned at five. She had been fostered by Crystal and Ed, two pack elders in their fifties who were former schoolteachers. Michelle rarely spoke and didn't interact much. Her eyes were haunted by the memory of watching her parents being killed in front of her while searching for food in a nearby town. She watched them bleed out while she hid silently for hours, staring at her mother's dead eyes, and that pain never left her eyes.
She clung to her Alpha, hoping she could help fill the void in her heart. Renee thought the same.
She picked her up and lifted her onto her hip, and Michelle buried her face into her shoulder. Her maternal instinct took over, as Alpha she felt the responsibility to look over the cubs. She would help her the best she could. Michelle snuggled in as they walked to the cave entrances.
Anna poked her head out of the cooking cave, smiling at her new Alpha. "Good morning Alpha, breakfast will be ready in about twenty minutes." Anna was a young and vibrant brunette with a mischievous streak. At seventeen she had not fought in the war, she grew up working in the caves. She kept to the kitchens where she worked with Becky, the twenty year old daughter of Crystal and Ed, and Julie who ran the household. The smell of food awakened her brother Caleb, at 18 he had grown up quickly. He was the pack's tracker and one of their better hunters. He had the skills to be a Beta but intentionally had hid them during the previous regime. He had seen what Betas were doing to others in his Pack and wanted none of it. He was a kind boy at heart. Life as an Omega was preferable to working directly for the Alpha, so he never challenged his Pack position. He nodded to Renee in greeting then kissed his sister and told her he was going to clean up in the nearby stream. Anna handed him a water container to refill and sent him along.
To Renee, a bath sounded pretty good right now. She let Michelle down and asked her where she could find soap and a washcloth. Michelle slid down to the ground and pulled her into the cave towards her foster parent's sleeping section.
As they passed the Alpha quarters, Devin was just coming out carrying a blanket filled with other items. "Good morning, Alpha, how was your night?"
"Good, Devin, I enjoyed being under the stars with everyone, it reminded me of when I was a child. What are you up to?"
"I'm clearing out the quarters for you. As you asked, nothing of his will be left. Give Julie and I a day or two and we'll have it ready. Until then, you are welcome to stay with us, or anyone in the Pack. We all want you to be comfortable here."