It had been nearly 3 months since I had seen Edward and the feeling of being used had again come over me.
My husband and I had gotten on with life, he still knew nothing about Edward and that was the way I wanted it to stay. It wasn't like an affair, after all, Edward was a ghost and he hadn't even kissed me, but I still felt a feeling of longing for him.
I would sit at the computer every night while my husband was at work and just stare into the screen, hoping that I would hear his voice again. But nothing came.
One September night, while my husband was at work, I decided to have a good clear out of the bedroom. Edward was far from my mind, and the nights we would spend with him telling me what to do, where almost forgotten.
I moved the cast iron bed out and I heard a clunk of something hard hitting the floor. I let go of the bed and went to investigate.
There it was, the old rolling pin, suddenly my mind shot back to that night and I relived the night in my head.
"I want you to insert the rolling pin again, but you have to go slowly this time, or you will push the tin out of your arse. Just leave it in the entrance of your lips, about 2 inches in, then wait for the next thing I want you to do." I remember him saying, and I remembered how it felt.
It felt so good to feel so full, and the pleasure that one thing brought me was unforgettable.
I wrapped it up in the towel that also held the aerosol and the 2 bulldog clips and put it up on top of the wardrobe and went on with my cleaning.
After a while, I was getting a little tired, so I sat on the edge of the bed that was now in the middle of the room. I closed my eyes for a few moments, I was so hot from the lifting of the bed and chests of draws, and I was sweating a little. I took off my vest shirt and just sat there in my bra and shorts.
My head started spinning after a while, so I lay back on the bed.
I must have fallen asleep, I felt something cold touching me, I thought it must have been my husband back from work early, but as I was about to open my eyes, I heard a voice that I knew.
"Don't open your eyes," Edward whispered.