(I have been away from this story for so long to focus on other erotic projects and I'm so sorry it's gone by the wayside. After long last, here's more!)
I was kneeling at the foot of Lord Kavan's bed, my wedding dress spread around me on the ground. The halo it created around was the size of my small sleeping nook back in my village. I was relieved that the beautiful white fabric was not showing any evidence of the rough treatment I had just received from Kavan. The first time I had been so roughly used in this castle there had been a small amount of blood and no such marking adorned my dress now.
After Kavan released his grip on my hair I had crawled over to the bed, afraid of tripping over the train of my dress if I stood. Now I was afraid to turn around and see what was occupying Kavan, for fear that he would take this action as disobedience. I heard the goblet being set down on the table, meaning he had served himself another cup of wine. I shivered. I had seen what men in the village were like when they were in their cups. They talked too loud and sometimes laid hands upon their wives with no justification. I was trying to banish from my mind these thoughts of violence when the Lord's heavy footsteps approached me from behind. There was the sound of leather creaking as Kavan bent down over me. In my peripheral vision I could just make out that he was holding a knife. I sucked air in fast, through my teeth, but did not move a hair.
"Be very still now Isme. We would not want you to get hurt," He murmured good-naturedly, and I felt a pressure, then a cold presence at the top of my spine. For one terrifying moment I could feel the blade kissing my skin, threatening to tear it open. Then his other hand grabbed the fabric of my dress, and the blade left my skin, cutting through the creamy lace back of the exquisite gown. The skin of my back was now laid naked to the air. I could feel now both the ghost of the cold metal on my skin and the dynamic heat of the large hearth-fire tickling at the fine hairs of my back. Kavan pushed me forward from my kneeling position so my front was on the side of the bed, and my backside was accessible to him. He slowed his knifework, teasing apart the fibers of the fabric little by little until he was cutting a line right between my buttocks. I was rigid with fear, anticipating the savage sting of the knife slipping.
But Kavan did not slip, despite the wine, and worked his knife down into the voluminous skirt, rending it in two. Not bothering to cut through the entire length of the train, Kavan stopped when his knife was around the level of my ankles. He had cut through my underskirt as well as the gown, leaving my whole backside and legs bare to him. He pressed the flat of the blade to the tender skin behind my left knee. There my skin was thin and soft, causing the cold of the blade to pass instantly into my bloodstream. I was determined not to move, hoping to please Kavan with my obedience, and to end this tortuous game.
My new husband inched his blade up my leg, skimming my thigh just barely, so that I could feel how sharp it was, but without causing harm. Before he reached my posterior he traveled back down, resting the blade on the thin skin of my ankle for a moment. "What pretty legs," He marveled, his voice low. "You are quite a prize Isme. Even if I am to die in this war I will die a man envied by all." His fingertips traced the back of my thigh as if he was a drawing a map. "Exquisite." He pressed down on my left leg with a warm hand and danced his knife up the inside of my right leg. I felt my body reacting as the blade traveled closer to my womanhood. My folds burned and pulsed. I could feel my heartbeat in every part of my body. It made it harder to kneel there, completely still. My body wanted to writhe like a trapped snake. I had to stop breathing completely when I felt the dull side of the knife nestle into the center crevice of my womanhood. I whimpered, near tears. It felt, cold, and alien, and it could feel it collecting my secret fluids. Then, painstakingly Kavan removed the knife, sliding it deliberately slow out of my most intimate place. He passed finally into my field of view. Then he offered the blade for my inspection, and I could see the dewy drops of my excitement on the blade. It smelled sweet and heavy.
I started to open my mouth to say something, but Kavan clicked his tongue, cutting me off before I had begun. I do not know what I would have said. Perhaps an explanation as to why my body was betraying me so.
"You were doing so good, wife. I did not give you leave to speak. And frankly I do not care a wit about what you have to say." He let the knife fall to the floor and, wiping his hands on his leather tunic before shrugging out of it, leaving only his emerald shirt, which he started unbuttoning. I looked away out of instinct, flushing crimson with adrenaline and with the wine. With all the blood rushing to my head I felt faint. I had never seen a man outside my family without an undershirt on. I had seen suggestions of their forms under their tunics, but my imagination had not taken me far past those suggestions. I had always felt wicked when I dwelled on those warm, confusing feelings that bubbled up. I could not bring myself to look at this half-dressed man who was to soon become my husband in more than just name.
Kavan's skin felt both rough and soft against me as he lifted me out of the remnants of my gown. He felt hot, as if he had been standing directly next to a fire. The sweat on his torso came off onto my skin and I felt hair, coarser than expected, pressing into my back from his chest. His arms flexed with muscle as he lowered me deliberately onto the center of his bed, but Kavan betrayed no expenditure of effort. The fabric of his bedspread felt delicious against my clammy naked skin, and I felt as if I was dirtying it. How had first wife had felt when he laid her down like this? Was she as scared as I was? Is it still scary for her?
Kavan handled my wrists roughly, snatching them away from my body where my arms had subconsciously crept up to shelter my breasts. I caught a gleaming, reproachful look in his eyes before it turned back to predatory hunger. He adjusted himself inside his trousers. I lay there, hands turned up towards the ceiling on either side of my head. My nipples pebbled painfully in the night air, despite the heat my runaway heartbeat lent to my body. In my head I chided myself with the reminder that this was not the first time Kavan had seen me without undergarments, and that this was not even the first time I was to lay with a man. However, that incident with Gareth in Kavan's study had seemingly done nothing to inoculate me from the maidenly fear that is a woman's curse on her wedding night. I pushed my thighs against each other, wishing to hide myself from my husband. I felt so ashamed; ashamed not to be a maiden on the night of my wedding, ashamed of the heat emanating from juncture of my legs.