Chapter 1 - Disillusionment
Kriti stood in the center of the sitting room, head bowed. Her father-in-law sat in his chair with hands on the armrest, legs planted firmly. Everything about him exuded authority, not only of his position as a Thakur, but also his force of will. As always, he was dressed in a black suit and tie with a white shirt, the only color being the red prayer strings tied around his wrist and the red tilak on his forehead. He was a large man and even though age had softened him somewhat, powerfully muscled. Piercing dark eyes and a heavy black beard added to a noble bearing.
To his right sat her husband, Sunil. He was a younger version of his father, tall, powerfully built, with the same dark eyes and upright posture. A curled moustache that was oiled and well-kept marked his high caste status. As his father, he bore a red tilak. His black slacks and white shirt were bespoke and of the finest fabrics.
To the Thakur's left, her younger brother-in-law, Raj, slouched in his chair. He seemed out of place. Almost too slender, with youthful features, he seemed younger than his twenty-two years. Having just returned on break from his junior year of college, he had adopted less formal dress and bearing. He wore a colorful t-shirt and jeans. And, yet, the same red tilak emblazoned the center of his brow.
Beyond them stood half a dozen servants.
Two years out of college, just entering graduate school, she had met Sunil; wealthy son of a Thakur, the modern equivalent of a prince. Theirs had been a Bollywood whirlwind romance. Her friends and coworkers had whispered in amazement.
Handsome
.
Charming
.
A dream come true
. She was of a more modest upbringing. The marriage had been mildly contentious—her parents concerned with a girl of such modest means marrying into such a wealthy family. For all the stories Sunil had told her about his father, the Thakur had been more accepting of the arrangement. Back then she had taken it as a sign of an open-minded, modern thinker.
The wedding was as one would expect of a family of such wealth and status. There had been no dowry and she had been gifted with jewelry and fine clothes. Again, a modern household. Once moved into the house, though, Kriti had seen little of her father-in-law except during meals. Raj had been the playful young brother-in-law she expected; Sunil, a doting husband during the day and a passionate lover at night who left her aching with need and fulfillment.
Then, this morning, two months after she joined the household, he had sent a servant to tell her that he wanted to speak with her after breakfast.
"Bahu." The Thakur had never called her by her name. Always her title,
Bahu
- daughter-in-law. "You are treated well here, yes?"
She nodded.
"You are the
bahu
of this house,
my
house. In my house, you will want for nothing." The Thakur stood up and gestured to the servants. Folding his arms behind his back, he continued, "The
bahu
of this house does not work. Not inside the house. Not outside. There are other demands on her time."
She raised her head in curiosity. The stern expression never left his face.
"This is a traditional house. First, there is respect. I am the lord of this house." He gestured to her husband. "And he is your lord. Just as the servants will obey the
bahu's
word, so the
bahu
must obey the word of the Thakur and her husband."
Kriti nodded. She had thought to say something but held her tongue. She realized she had not been bidden to speak.
"Second, the
bahu
of this house must always be presentable. Our guests expect no less. When you awake to the time you sleep, you will be presentable." He did not mention it, but his eyes traveled the length of her body, taking in the embroidered salwar kameez. "The
bahu
of this house does not wear cheap clothing. This afternoon, the tailor will come and fit you for new clothes. Your old clothes will be given to the villagers."
He then gestured to a waif of servant girl to step forward. "From today, Choti will help you become ready in the mornings. If you need anything or have any complaints, you will come to me." His tone suggested there should be no complaints.
A bit apprehensive about being attended through some of the most private time in her day, something she had not expected, Kriti nodded. She intuited that questioning this requirement or refusing was not acceptable, particularly not before the entire household.
"Good. Understand your responsibilities and you will enjoy your privileges."
***
Three days later, Kriti stood in her bedroom and looked at the clothes stacked neatly in her vast closet, which was more a whole dressing room. She could not help but grin as she entered and surveyed the kaleidoscope of colors along three walls. She fingered the expensive silks and linens. As the Thakur had said, she would not be wearing cheaper cotton. Then, there were the boxes of jewelry—gold and pearls—finely-worked leather sandals and slippers, and pashminas of the purest cashmere for chilly nights. Before now, she could not have imagined the collective cost of the closet's contents being spent on her.
In a moment, she realized she could not find a single salwar kameez. There were only saris and lengha cholis. Nothing else. Well, even though such clothes often took more time to put on, she did have Choti to help her get ready. Kriti picked out a light blue sari that subtly shimmered in the morning light. And, then realized something else was missing - undergarments. There was not a single panty or bra to be found.
"Choti?" She called to the young woman. "Uhm, where are my panties? My bras?"
Choti stepped back into the dressing room and shrugged. "I don't know, memsahib. These are the only clothes the tailor sent. The Thakur said to get rid of everything else."
Kriti look around, confused and frantic.
"You should get ready,
memsahib
." Choti said, unfolding the sari her mistress had chosen earlier.
With Choti's help, washing and dressing did not take much time. It was strange, performing her ablutions in the presence of someone who wasn't a sister or her husband, something to which she would have to become accustomed.
Soon, Kriti stood ready before the massive, gold-framed mirror that was mounted to cover nearly half of one bedroom wall. The sari's pale blouse seemed unduly small, cut low in the front to reveal the expanse of her throat and cleavage. The ties left her back practically bare. The front view caused her to take a deep swallow, for the whisper-thin silk was scandalous. It not only accentuated the curves of her breasts, the outline of her nipples was noticeable and would become shamefully so if they became hard, which they often did, too readily. She had tried to wear the sari high on her waist, but it was not cut for such a style and when settled where intended, it revealed the expanse of the flat plane of her abdomen. The only modesty was what she could manage with the top half of the sari. That was not much when she also tried to cover her head. Was
this
what the Thakur had meant about always being presentable? It made her shudder in discomfort. Kriti had considered changing into something else but realized that the rest of the clothes would be of similar cut.
Kriti had not considered herself a prudish person. She had gone to nightclubs in less modest clothes although that was in the dark of the night and in a sea of similarly dressed women. She was not naïve enough to be unaware that she was an attractive woman. Though her figure was slender, she did have enough curves to give her a graceful allure. And she didn't really need a bra beyond the modesty of it, having full, firm, high breasts topped with small, dark nipples. Her cobalt black hair had been styled in the layered style Sunil liked. The make-up on her long, heart shaped face was subtle, accentuating her full lips and the bright red bindi on her forehead.
"I really wish you hadn't thrown out my underclothes." She sighed, looking at Choti. The maid said nothing, keeping her eyes downcast.
Before Kriti could continue, she saw Sunil standing at the doorway of their bathroom, finishing the knot of his tie. He had a frown on his face. "Don't worry, Kriti. You won't need them."
Apparently, he had been listening. "What? Why—"
"I never really liked you wearing a bra." He looked her up and down with a slow perusal. Last night, she had been too tired to consider the absence of her underwear. Now, even though it was Sunil and they were standing in their private suite, she suddenly felt very naked.
Walking up to her, he cupped a breast in his large hand and grinned. "With breasts like that, you don't need anything hiding them."