This bitch done lost her mind! I know good and hell well she is not laying up here in my house... in my clothes... sleeping with my woman! I thought to myself.
"Savon! What the hell is going on? I thought you were my girl! And this is how you treat me! I was nice enough to let you stay in my house after your ass lost your job and your apartment. I haven't charged you jack shit for all the damn food youâve sat around here and ate, the damn phone bill you ran up or the pornos you keep ordering! Now I come home from working 12 muthafucken hours to find my house in shambles and you in my girl's pussy! All this and I ain't had nothing to drink!"
"Taylor... let me explain...â Alex started to explain.
Alex... My boo⌠my angel...BITCH!
"Explain what?? This is going to be good. But don't tell me just yet... let me get some things first. Yall hold on... wait right there.â I laughed.
DMX couldn't have said it better... 'Yall gon make me lose my mind up in here... up in here.' This is too damn laughable.
Then I started giggling... then laughing out loud. I laughed so loud and so long, that I started to choke and tears ran down my face. Savon and Alex peeked out of the room and stared at me while I fell over in fits.
"Taylor... are you ok?â Alex asked shakily.
"Yes I am fine... and will be doing better in a minute. Why don't yall meet me in the den?"
I went to my closet... and rummaged around for a minute, and then I found what I was looking for: my bottle of Tanqueray 10Ž and Eve⌠my chrome baby .380.
As much as I hurt, I couldnât stop laughing. I think I heard one time, from someone, that laughter was one way the body deals with pain. Well, whatever the scientific, medicinal, or technical reason was, I had my own agenda of coping. I opened the shoebox where I kept my bullets. Just as I put the lid back on and turned with my loaded solution, I was met by Alex's plea.
"Taylor, no." She sounded calm as can be. Could she not see I was standing here with a loaded gun and mind full of intentions? "You donât want to do this."
She was right.
"Right Alex, I donât. I donât wanna do this. I love you and that is why you need to move out of my way and let me do that bitch first"
I looked at her for what seemed like an eternity. All sorts of past images of our happier times passed through my head. They were replaced by the times that she has hurt me in some way. I felt the water well in my eyes. Alex saw the movie that was playing in my head through my eyes. Von was still standing there looking from me to Alex and back again as if she was watching a tennis match, not really sure what to do or what to make of the entire scene. Hell neither was I for that matter.
Alex turned around and told Savon to wait in the den.
Von, still in shock over what could've happened just stood there and asked, "Are you going to be ok?"
"I'll be just fine, now would you please just go wait in the den." Alex motioned her off.
Tears streamed down my face, I felt my chest rising and breaths short, and I just sat there still holding my head. I felt Alex's hand on my hair trying to hold me, calm me down.
While pushing her hand away I screamed, "Get the fuck away from me! Don't touch me! How could you? Why Alex?â
"Taylor baby, I'm sorry that you had to walk in on us like that. It just happened,â she pleaded.
"In my fucking house?? In my bed? How long has this been goin on?â I asked her. "I must have damn fool written on my forehead. I let the bitch in my house after her sorry ass lost her job and I come home to find her laid up with my girl?"
By now my breathing is getting more and more difficult. I know my asthma kicks in whenever I'm stressed, but right now I just wanna hear what this bitch has to say for herself.
I looked at her beautiful face. This woman... Alex⌠just the thought of her could make my insides quiver and get me so wet! But now... all I wanted to do was spit in her face, scratch her eyes out, slap the shit outta her! I couldn't do anything but look at her.
"Taylor⌠say something... please", she begged me.
I slowly wiped my eyes and my nose on my shirt without caring. I stood up, got Eve and walked towards the bathroom.
"Go wait in the den with Vonâ, I said emotionless.
"What are you going to do?"
"Just go wait in the den.â I said again and closed the bathroom door.
When I came out, face washed and clad in my 'knock around' t-shirt and shorts, they both were sitting on the couch. Savon was the first to notice me.
"Tay⌠let me explain please."
I sat down, set the gun on the table and pulled out a joint. I rarely smoked the shit with the way my asthma has been acting up, but fuck it. If I was gonna hear some bullshit, I might as well be blunted when I hear it.
Savon started again, "Tay, you know I would never do anything to intentionally hurt you. You've always been there for me. If it weren't for you, I would be homeless. What happened between Alex and me was a fluke... I mean it wasn't something that either of us planned to happen. It just did."
"It just happened? How the fuck does it just happen? You can just happen to wear a fucked up outfit. You can just happen to fall and break your ankle. You can just happen to win the muthafucken lottery! But please tell me how in the blue hell do you just happen to land face first in my girl's pussy! I've just got to know this." I snapped my head to look at Alex. "Tell me Alex... was it good? Did she hit that spot better than me? Did she suck the clit just right? Did she use the 'bowling ball' technique that you love so much?"
I took a deep drag off my joint and got up. They both jumped. I walked to the bedroom and got my Tang 10. As I walked in the kitchen to get some orange juice and ice, I had an idea. I strolled back in with my cup in hand. I mixed myself a drink and sat down.
I said, "Alex.... instead of telling me how you could sleep with my best friend... why don't the two of you show me? Maybe I can learn a few things for future reference."