Today was the anniversary for Rachel and Stephen, they had been married for several years. Rachel now 44 and Stephen 47, where Rachel has been a stay at home mom while Stephen been working a high-end job to provide for the family. Now that both their kids had moved out Rachel found herself with more time on her hands than she was used to and not quite sure what her purpose was now that there were no kids to take care of. Stephen was till working quite a lot, often weekends and long days while she took care of their home.
Lately she had felt her self-esteem been dwindling, she missed the looks that Stephen used to give her that made her feel wanted and sexy. Now when she looked in the mirror she could still see that she had some curves, her breasts were quite large as they had grown quite a bit when she had children, her butt was also quite large but she thought more and more that her beauty was fading. Her breasts were not as firm anymore and her butt, she felt, were too large. She had also put on a few pounds, most would call her figure curvy and quite normal but she saw someone who was chubby. Adding to it her insecurity was the lack of intimacy in hers and Stephens marriage, the occasional kiss on the cheek a few times a month was basically it.
Passionate kisses far and few between and sex, well that was months ago and over very quickly. In the back of her mind there were a voice telling her that she was nothing to be desired, it had been there for a while as a whisper at first but growing more and more loud as time went on. Now she was feeling desperate for attention, to get a look from someone even if it wasn't her husband (even though that thought made her feel very bad..). It may sound like Rachel was a very sexual being, but it was more having the feeling of worth and purpose. She and Stephen hadn't really had much more than vanilla sex with the lights off but that had still made her feel wanted and that was the feeling she craved.
Today she had made plans, she had prepared a very nice dinner and spent several hours preparing a steak, salad, homemade fries and bought a couple of bottles of very nice red wine to go with it. She had put on a new red dress with quite a lot more cleavage than she usually showed and it was shorter than normal as well even though that made her feel a bit exposed and uncomfortable but she hoped that Stephen would give her some extra looks and spark his interest. She also wore a pair of rather high heels, which she had to practice walking in to make it look more natural and to get used to the feeling of her butt swaying quite a bit. For the occasion she spent close to an hour on her make-up so that her blue eyes really glowed. Her long blonde hair fixed into nice sets of curls down over her shoulders, and she had to resist the urge to make them cover her breasts that were quite exposed.
But the evening didn't turned out the way she wanted, just when the food was almost ready and she expected her husband to walk in any minute she got a phone call from him where he apologized so much but he had to go on a urgent trip to save a very important deal with one of the larger customers. In reality though he would spend the next few days banging his secretary at a hotel room, as they had been for quite a few years now. Rachel sighed, she felt so sad that all her effort where for nothing although she understood as this was the nature of things. Stephen had to keep his job so he could provide for them both and that meant sacrifices, and as he said he had to work while she still could enjoy the food. And they could celebrate at a later time, even as much as it pained her she knew without his money she would have nowhere to go.
When she put the phone down she wanted to start crying, this felt like the last piece where her self-esteem and sense of worth vanished. The voice in the back of her head started to scream and now when she looked in the mirror she whispered to herself that she understand why no one gave her a look, why would they when there were so many other much more beautiful girls and women out there?
She had opened a bottle of wine and had a glass to herself while getting ready to build up some courage, now she finished off another one in one gulp and was just about to throw the food away when the doorbell rang. She took a couple of deep breaths to compose herself, she would not let anyone see her in this fragile state. Maybe it was Stephen who had just made a bad joke?! Had it not been for the wine she would have covered herself up before opening the door but now she forgot about it.
when she opened she saw her neighbor Dan standing there. He was in his mid 20s, short brown hair, light brown eyes and one of those boys that really took care of himself by working out several times a week and he had that kind of smile that would girls sigh and he knew it.
"Hi, I hope I'm not interrupting anything? You look like you were expecting company" he said and his eyes wandered a bit over Rachel's body and lingered for quite some time in her impressive cleavage. Part of her saw him and a shiver went through her body, a handsome younger man standing in front of her but did he really look at her a bit more than just neighbors? Did he REALLY look down her cleavage? The voice in the back of her head cackled and told her of course he didn't why would he? She should be lucky that he wanted to talk to her at all and she could almost feel tears forming in her eyes before she took a deep breath and composed herself.