I woke up Sunday morning and as soon as my eyes opened I was angry. The day before had been such a nice day, but it was ruined by reading my e-mails at night. The same questions rushed back into my head. How did he know so much about me?
I got out of bed and it was 10:30am already. "Huh," I said under my breath as I walked to the washroom. Maybe being angry made me sleep better? I washed my face as I started to wake up. I knew I had to walk back over and look at my e-mails, I knew I had to see what that fucking asshole sent me, but part of me just wanted to throw my laptop out the window.
My hand opened up the laptop as I leaned against my desk, "let's see what sick thing I have to do today," I said to myself in anger while opening my e-mail.
Subject: HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Fuck you.
Subject: MAYBE A LITTLE ANGRY?
Fuck off.
Subject: ARE YOU STILL THINKING ABOUT YOUR DAUGHTER?
Well I wasn't until you mentioned it fucker. My blood was boiling. If I knew who this person was I would kill them.
Subject: OPEN THIS VIDEO
I clicked the e-mail and opened the video that was in it. I thought it would be just another video of me in the classroom so they could remind me of how they could blackmail me and I had to do what they wanted. The odd thing was that the video never played, it just sat there like I hadn't even clicked it. After a few more tries, I gave up and assumed there was something wrong with it. That was until I saw the next e-mail.
Subject: GOOD NOW I CAN SEE AND HEAR YOU
My face dropped. What the fuck? "What the fuck!" I actually said way to loudly. How the fuck can he now see and hear me?
Subject: THAT WASN'T A VIDEO I NOW HAVE CONTROL OF YOUR COMPUTER
My head fell into my hands and I started to cry. For the next few minutes I just sat there at my desk crying and I didn't know what to do to stop it. My life was falling apart all around me and I didn't know how to fix it. My mind just kept racing through all of my decisions, and how bad everything was. I took a deep breath and looked up at the screen again, my eyes blurry and red.
Subject: DON'T BE SAD NOTHING WILL HAPPEN IF YOU DO AS I SAY
"But what are you going to make me do?" I said thinking it was too myself.
Subject: WHATEVER I FEEL LIKE YOU SLUT
I started balling again, tears running down my cheeks, my hands soaked. I wanted to fall on the ground and crawl up into a ball and stay there.
"I have kids! And a life! And a job!" I yelled at the screen hysterically.
Subject: THEN YOU BETTER DO AS I SAY SO YOU DON'T LOSE IT ALL
Subject: NOW GET UP
My eyes looked at the screen and my body reacted, pushing myself up and standing straight. I didn't want to do this, I just did it. My mind wasn't thinking straight and I just couldn't think enough to comprehend what was going on.
Subject: GET CHANGED INTO SHORTS AND A SMALL T-SHIRT NO BRA THONG
My body moved over to my dresser, my mind still trying to catch up to what was happening. My hands pulled the drawers out and I grabbed a pair of grey fabric shorts and an old white t-shirt. I already had a thong on so I pushed my leggings down and slid the shorts on. My hands pulled the shirt of my head and replaced it with the new t-shirt that landed just above my hips. I turned around and looked at my computer again still completely shaken and moving like a zombie.
Subject: YOUR ASS LOOKED AMAZING IN THAT THONG SHOW ME AGAIN
My body did what I was told, I could feel my brain starting to turn back on, but for right now I was still just floating through the motions. I turned so my back was to my computer and bent over, pushing my shorts down and revealing my thong. After a few minutes I pulled my shorts back up and turned around.
Subject: THOSE SHORTS ARE TOO LONG ROLL THEM UP
"Fuck," I said under my breath, but they could have heard it too. My fingers started to roll the waistband of the shorts up once.
Subject: THREE MORE ROLLS SLUT
"Fuck you!" I said louder this time, my anger returning, my eyes still red. I rolled the waistband three more times so that the bottom of the shorts stopped right below my ass.
Subject: NOW TIE YOUR SHIRT ON THE SIDE SO I CAN SEE YOUR STOMACH
I rolled my eyes and did what I was told. I scrunched up the shirt and tied it on my right side. My stomach was now on show, my navel out in the open. My shorts waistband was rolled in a large band showing that I had made them shorter.
Subject: YOU LOOK VERY GOOD NOW GO ENJOY YOUR DAY
Wait, what? "You want me to go downstairs like this? There is NO way I am doing that!" I couldn't let Sam and Emma see me dress like this? I never dressed like this, it would be completely out of the ordinary and they would know something was wrong.
Subject: YOU WILL OR I WILL RELEASE EVERYTHING UP TO YOU
My mind went through the options again, just like usual, trying to figure out a way out, a way to stop this asshole and get my life back, but just like every other time there was no way out that I could see.
"FINE you fucker!" I said moving my head in close to the camera so they could see my disgust.
Subject: AND CHECK YOUR E-MAIL AT 10PM HAVE FUN!
I slammed my laptop shut and swore again. My anger had returned 110% and now I just wanted to punch something. "Deep breath," I said to myself and I did just that. "Deep breath," I told myself again. I continued this again five more times and I could feel my blood pressure lower and my head start to straighten out.
"You can do this Madison. It's just some clothes. Your kids are old enough to see you like this, you're not naked, and you've seen Emma dress with less. There is nothing to be worried about," I told myself while I walked around my room building up my nerve before walking out.
I walked past the mirror and took a look at myself. If I was someone else in a different situation I would think the reflection looked pretty damn good, pretty sexy. Unfortunately it was me in the mirror, and I was being blackmailed to wear this, so I didn't think the same things about. If I'm being completely honest dressing like this did make me feel pretty good, I never got to dress like this, but I was far too angry to think that way. All I had to do now was open my door and walk out.
I felt like a spy or someone trying to sneak out of a room, which in reality was exactly what I was doing. My head looked down the hall towards Emma and Sam's room before darting out and down the stairs to the kitchen. I could feel the air brush against my exposed legs and midriff as I ran. Luckily it seemed like Emma and Sam were still in their rooms. As my heart started to settle down into a normal rhythm I made myself a coffee and went to the couch. My genius plan was to stay on the couch covered in a blanket and watch TV all day, or at least until Sam and Emma were out of the house. I turned on a home and garden show and sipped my coffee for a while. Eventually I heard movement upstairs and someone coming down the stairs towards me. My heart started to beat faster as I got nervous again.
"Hey mom," Emma said as she walked past me and went to the kitchen. I watched her as she went, for some reason she was more dressed up than usual. Tight jeans, a nicer shirt, she must have been going out somewhere.
She came back a minute later and stood beside me sipping a glass of orange juice, "I'm going to go to the mall with some friends, so I'll be back later on," she said.
I turned my head away from the show hoping that my face wasn't blushing red, "sounds good honey, have fun, I'm just going to stay in today," I replied with a less than confident tone. Emma didn't seem to notice.
For the next few minutes we chatted about nothing important as she sipped her juice and I tried to keep myself covered. Eventually there was a ping on her phone and a text that her friends were out front. We said our goodbyes and a second later Emma was out the door and I was free to relax again. The blanket was making me warm so I threw it off me and sat on the couch in just my worn out t-shirt and rolled up shorts. With Sam still upstairs I felt OK relaxing for a few minutes.
As I sat there watching TV, relaxing, sipping my coffee, I actually started to relax. My mind moved away from the person controlling me and just started to be in the moment. That meant being OK with what I was wearing, looking down at my exposed legs, seeing myself in our living room, not hidden in my bedroom. Being free to dress like this was actually a turn on. It wasn't motherly, it wasn't what a teacher should do, but it still felt pretty good. My left hand ran up my leg feeling the skin. I could feel my pussy moisten the more I relaxed. I wanted to reach inside my shorts and play with myself.
I took a deep breath, "NO MADISON," I mumbled while I forced myself to be composed. I got up off the couch and brought my dirty cup to the kitchen. As I was in there washing it I thought I heard some footsteps. My hand pushed the tap off and I listened carefully. Behind my I could hear someone flop themselves down on the couch. I walked slowly to the edge of the kitchen and looked around the corner. Sam was there, lying on the couch where I just was, with the blanket over him. My mind raced, what was I going to do now?
"Mom?" I heard Sam question from the couch.
I didn't know what to say, so I just said what came naturally, "Oh, goodmorning Sam, I didn't hear you there." I was still hidden in the kitchen.
"Mom... I don't feel very good..." he trailed off.