Brad and I have been dating for almost a year. My name is Isabelle. We've been called the sweetest couple of Sydney.
Brad is the type of guy who girls can never resist; 6"2, blonde, the deepest blue eyes and the most charming smile. His body is muscular from working out in the gym, not from steroids, but toned, purely from hard work. His skin was firm and bronze from going to the beaches. His voice is husky and deep, like a movie star's, but ten times better. He is a cheerful lad, sweet, romantic, but original. He's really funny too, but sometimes, people misunderstand him. I don't!
I can't imagine a day without him, he is the air that I breathe.
Brad describes me as "Unconfident, but entirely gorgeous". I'm not pretending to be shy or anything, but I really don't see anything about me that's gorgeous. I'm 5"6, dark haired, average body, tanned skin. My breasts are quite small, 36B, but I had long legs which made up for them. I'm on a diet now, which Brad keeps telling me to quit, but I'm afraid. I'm afraid that I'm not good enough for him, that he'll find another girl that's better than me. Thankfully that hasn't happened.
One night, we went out for some Chinese cuisine. After a good load of Kung Pao and Fried Rice, we headed home. We held hands as we walked to my house, and every time we did so, I had a whole museum of butterflies in my stomach. I would giggle randomly, and Brad would flash his brilliant white teeth at me as he smiled. But there was something different tonight.
His grip on me was particularly firm, it wasn't painful, but I could feel the pressure on my knuckles. Normally, he would be gentle with me, it felt so weird.
"Oh well" I thought to myself, maybe he just had a bad day at work.
When we reached my doorstep, he suddenly swung me around and kissed me passionately. Instinctively, my hands made their way to his neck, and his made its to my waist and backside. He cupped my butt so that I lifted my leg around him, and he pulled my waist close to him so that we could feel every movement. I broke the kiss and giggled, nudging him gently with my head, and whispered "Baby, you're so full of surprises."
He tickled me, while giggling "Only when I'm with you."
"I want to be with you tonight."
"Always at your service." He scooped me up and carried me inside.
I started pulling off my tank top and jeans when we went in, I knew that he watched me, that turned me on so much. I felt his hands around my belly, he breathed against my neck. He smelt so musky, and dark. He smelt so transformed. I laughed "You never told me you bought a new fragrance."
"Do you like it?"
"Anything you wear, I'd like it." He started moving his hand up, he pushed lightly on me so that our my back touched and rubbed his torso. When he got near my bra, I peeled his hands off me, giggled and told him "Nu uh".
Then he unclasped my bra and tossed it on my sofa. He would never do that. He knew my boundaries. That shocked me.
"I've had enough of you teasing me." He sounded so cold, like an entirely different person.
"I don't know what you're talking about." I was totally confused and scared. This wasn't the Brad I know.
"You strip in front of me, rub yourself against me, run your hands along my body. You know exactly what I'm talking about."
"Look, darling, I'm sorry, I don't mean to, but you know that I haven't done it yet, and I want to keep my virginity for a while." I reached my hand to retrieve my bra.
He slapped it away. "You're mine. I want you to know that. There's nothing better for a couple to do than make love, you have denied me again and again. I'm starting to question whether you truly love me."
"Of course I love you" I started to shake and tears began to form in my eyes. I moved forward to kiss him.
He stepped back. "Then prove it. Have sex with me."
I loved Brad so much, but coming from a typical Asian family, my virginity was the sake of my pride. I didn't want to lose it until I found "the one". It's not that I don't feel that Brad is "the one". I'm just so afraid that he might leave me and I might lose him.
I hesitated and tried to talk him out of it. "Brad, baby, please... you know what it means to me, I love you, please... please... "
"There are a ton of girls out there waiting for me to pound them. They tell me that they dream of it every night. What makes you so special and out of the ordinary?"
That scared the shit out of me. I leaped forward and hugged him. He didn't hug me back. "Baby, you know that I love you, please don't..." I started to seriously weep.
"Sometimes you leave me with no choice. I have my urges I need to satisfy, and you don't want to help me. He grasped my arms and flung them away, then he pushed me back. He started making his way to the door.
"Baby, please, what can I do to make you stay?" I sobbed.