"I hate this," I say out loud as I walk on the sidewalk in this unfamiliar part of town with my fear growing. My name is Rebecca and I am from El Salvador. I am 19 years old and part of a foreign exchange program with the EEUU, or what people here call the United States. I go to the college that is located within this city, where I am studying to get an engineering degree.
I am actually considered one of the smartest people in my college of engineering as told to me by many professors. I also have made the Dean's List this, my very first semester. My smarts are actually why I was chosen to be a part of this foreign exchange program as they knew I would take full advantage of every American opportunity.
One small problem I have is that I have to live with my sponsor family as the program states that I have to, just like the girl that went to El Salvador has to stay with her sponsor family. It would be so much easier for me to stay on campus because my sponsor family lives so far away. To get to college I have to walk for a while, then take
two
buses. Not that I mind, it's just the bus system is so strange in this country. Where I am from, it is linear and you know right where to get off. Here the routes seem planned just to confuse you. Then again, everyone I have ever known has told me I have no sense of direction.
This brings us to where I am now and why I've been walking for about 20 minutes in this scary looking part of town. The bus broke down. I was heading home and got on the second bus that would have taken me to the Park and Ride but then the bus just stopped in some part of the city I don't know. The driver then announced that we all had to get off for legal reasons. He mentioned another bus would be coming, but then got off the bus and disappeared so I couldn't ask more about the bus that never did arrive.
I did hang around for a little bit, but when it seemed that no bus was going to come, I decided to start walking. I did this in hopes of finding another bus stop or maybe a policeman that could help me. I would like to call my sponsor family for help or to pick me up, but my cell doesn't have any signal in this part of town. And that doesn't surprise me. This part of town looks very scary and very, well, low-class. I've seen many places that are poor but the people that live there have class, but this isn't that sort of place. This looks like a place where the people are poor because they want to be, where they don't care if they steal or hurt anyone.
What concerns me most about this area is the symbol that I see a lot, the symbol that my foster family said to stay away from if I saw someone wearing it. The symbol that is a white X made of stars surrounded by the color red. I know it is the symbol on the South's flag during the American Civil War, but my sponsor family said that it means something different today. That if I saw someone wearing it and I was alone I should walk away from that person.
You see, I see that symbol quite a bit around here. I see it on the hats of men that are sitting and drinking beers. I see on bumper stickers on trucks. I even saw a woman wearing it as a shirt that looked more like a bra than a shirt. It was even painted on the side of a trailer.
I know this area is a bad place because of the movies I've seen, as strange as that may sound. This area is populated by old trailers and rusty RV's, where the grass surrounding them is littered with car parts, empty beer bottles and other trash. The sidewalk that I walk on has turned to a dirt path and even the roads that lead to these trailers and RV this community aren't paved.
The best thing I can do right now is to keep my head down and keep walking. Not sure where I am going, but if I keep going, I'll find a bus stop or a cop, I know I will. The chances of it are very high. Or at the very least, I will find an area that has some cell reception. The only thing I need to make sure I avoid is engaging anyone here in conversation. That's too high of a risk to get robbed or killed.
"Hey, girlie!" I hear a man yell. In sheer reaction I turn to look at the voice and when I do, I curse under my breath. Why did I do that?! I can't interact with anyone here! If I do, I could be robbed or worse! Everyone here are probably murderers and criminals. Someone good like me won't last too long a minute here if I start interacting and talking with them.
Yet now that I'm looking at him, I know I have to respond. If I don't, he might get mad. If he gets mad, he might chase me. If he chases me, he might have a weapon like a hunting knife. If he has a knife, he could do something horrible like cut my hands and feet off. And all because I didn't tell him hello.
"Y-Y-Yes?" I stammer out in response. I try to sound strong and sure of myself, but it comes out to show just how terrified I am. The man is two trailers in the trailer park and I am still on the sidewalk, so at least there is a good amount of distance between us.
"You've walked past us 4 times now, you lost?" The man asks with a bit of a chuckle. I frown at this. 4 times? I've walked past him 4 times? Surely not. Granted, I think I have been favoring turning left, but surely I haven't walked by 4 times. I couldn't be that stupid. Then again, everyone says I have no sense of direction...
"I...I...," I call back, not sure what to say. The man holds a bottle of beer in one hand and looks at me to hear what I'm going to say. Unlike many of the others I've seen here, he actually looks clean. His clothes are torn and stained, but they at least look washed. He looks the type that wouldn't smell.
The man looks at me for a moment confused when I don't say anything else. Then he turns to the side and says something but it's not directed at me. That's when I notice there's a card table and 3 other guys sitting at it right next to him. They are partly hidden by the trailer in front of them, that's why I didn't see them at first.
Noticing that there are 4 total, my stomach drops as this is going bad to worse. It's not just one man, but 4. Oh dear, oh dear. 4 against 1.
"Come here," the man says and his voice is remarkably friendly which concerns me. It makes me believe that this is some sort of trick. That he's trying to lure me into a false sense of security then attack. He then waves me over to come to him and his friends. He does it very casually and not forceful.
I know I should walk away and fast, but the fear I feel makes my feet walk towards him instead of away. After all, if I walk away, he and his friends could chase me, right? That act might make them so upset that they come after me. Maybe, for the moment, it's best to just see what he wants instead of making things worse for myself.
As I walk closer I see that he's a 40 something year old guy, the sort that looks like he works on fixing tractors or other farm equipment. He's dressed in blue jeans and a gray shirt button down shirt that is opened with a white undershirt underneath. His face shows the stubble of someone who hasn't shaved in a few days but his hair looks combed and styled.