I needed some extra cash. That's why I was sitting in a large meeting room of a hospital at 8.a.m on a Sunday morning. The research I was participating in was quite simple: it mainly required filling out some paperwork, some surveys and questionnaires. It had something to do with both neurology and psychology, as a young doctor standing in the front of the room was explaining in more scientific terms. I didn't care. I just wanted to get paid, but that wouldn't happen until I had attended the five required weekly meetings and this was just the first one. The pay was above average, though, and I had already decided to stick through with it.
There were about twenty other participants, all looking as grumpy and tired as I was feeling. None of them seemed particularly interesting. The research was apparently led by the young doctor, who was currently explaining the details of our participation. The first thing I had noticed about him was his annoying voice that was slightly arrogant and somehow stood out, filling the room. As I looked at him more closely, I realized that he truly had a striking appearance. He had full, wavy brown hair that was quite wild, sticking up in all directions even though he probably had tried to comb it this morning. His blue eyes had a sharp, intelligent look and he was slim with a good posture. He had the look of someone who was constantly pissed off. I liked him at once.
By the second meeting, everything about the young doctor was gorgeous to me and I already called him "my schoolgirl crush" in my mind as he was obviously unattainable for me. I was at least ten years his senior and even though he had no ring it was highly unlikely a man like him would be single. Besides, I hadn't even spoken to him, as the meetings mostly consisted of him giving instructions to us as a group and then us filling out the surveys. His demeanor was strictly professional and impersonal. As a realist, I was content just admiring him from afar, admiring his slim hands with long fingers as he was handing out some papers and pretending to listen as he spoke at the front of the room.
I was feeling more nervous than I should've been. Last week we had had our final meeting and the only medical examination of the research: a CT scan. The small tube of the CT scanner had made me nervous and the examination was carried out by some other doctor I didn't know. Now, however, I was going to get my personal feedback from my "crush". I didn't know why, but it was the last prerequisite for the payment. It was late afternoon and the hospital was quiet. The CT scan felt nothing compared to the feeling I had when I opened the door to the room I had been directed to.
"Good day," the doctor turned around in his chair and looked at me neutrally.
We were apparently in his personal office, which was small and neatly organized except for several stacks of papers and files on his desk. So much for the paper free office.
Despite every sensible thing I had tried to tell myself, my heart was beating out of my chest as I dryly replied, "Good day, doctor."
He gestured me to sit on a chair opposite of him and began, "I know we both are busy and you actually happen to be the last one to get feedback, so let's get to business, shall we?"
After I nodded, he managed to squeeze out an impersonal smile and went on, "So, as you remember, our study is, simply put, about the individual neurological makeup every person has at birth and the processes that either weaken or strengthen those, let's call them characteristics, as we get older."
I nodded, fully fixated by his eyes.
"For the sake of the research, what we didn't tell you during the execution was that the research is actually focused on sexual characteristics -- or more specifically on sexual fetishes and disorders."
I felt like I was frozen on my seat.
The doctor didn't break the eye contact as he went on, "I have to say, out of all the participants, your results were, as we say in research slang, at the far end of the Gauss curve - meaning unusual."
"Y-yes?" I weakly replied, my heart pounding wildly now.
The doctor didn't even break the eye-contact as he recited a text that was apparently a part of his research notes or something similar, "On a closer inspection, the subject Q363's CT scan displayed several abnormalities in these areas, which might suggest the origin of abnormal sexual preferences has been present at birth and those preferences might have, to some extent, been displayed in some form already at a young age. The written surveys further suggest that these preferences, although not necessarily openly displayed, might most likely have strengthened during the lifetime of the subject. More notably, out of all the participants, the subject displayed an unusually vast range of potential sexual fetishes. The Q363 ranked the highest on the scale of following fetishes: bondage, submission, humiliation, exhibitionism and non-consensual sex. In addition, the subject had unusually high scores in terms of sexual denial, lingerie, group sex and voyeurism fetishes."
The doctor finished and looked at me as if expecting for an answer. I didn't reply as I was astonished and didn't know what to say. His words felt like a rude invasion of my privacy and despite being gorgeous, the pretty boy had certainly overstepped all possible limits.
Before I had uttered anything, he surprised me by saying, "Look, I divulged this many details out of personal interest. I have a suggestion for you."
I The subject becomes an object
I swore to myself for the umpteenth time. I was considering making an U-turn for the fifteenth time. I questioned my life choices and life up to this point yet again. Still, I was driving towards his house. "He" was the young doctor, of course.
His suggestion had been simple. He thought we could have a mutually beneficial agreement. He wanted to be dominant, and I was obviously fit to be, "I don't want to use that word, but some might say 'a slave'", as he had said. The doctor had had a few rules on a paper he had handed to me (on paper! I still couldn't believe he was so well-prepared). By now, I had burned the paper and learned them by heart, as he had instructed.
They were:
1. You shall call me master.
2. You shall only speak when spoken to.
3. You shall never under any circumstances stalk or spy or research the master in real life or online.