I tried not to cry as I had to wrap my arms around his neck like I loved him like I used to as a child. I had to do it to make his thrusting inside me hurt less as all his weight pressed him into me. I wrapped my legs around him and welcomed him in deeper with my legs raised and pulled in like momma said I'd need to when it was time to get pregnant. I was going to be that for sure soon anyway, and this way it hurt way, way less. I gave in fully and pressed my breasts into his rough dirty flannel that felt scratchy and burned from work. I felt so clean and innocent and small and cute against his rough, cut-up, musty, fully dressed body and work clothes.
There was something poetic about being so vulnerable and naked against him in the clothes he wears when he commands, earns, and reciprocates respect while at work with other men. I felt so beneath him. I know that I was literally beneath him while he raped me, but I mean like an object. Like a flower-thing he was here to pick clean and make use of, or a tissue to jizz in and discard and forget about. Not a person.
Daddy grabbed my neck and kissed me on the lips and added tongue and explored my mouth while his dick stretched my virginal pussy way, way, way out. He caressed my tits and my ass and bucked hard and deep up inside me like it wasn't my first time taking a dick at all. I guess sweet, thoughtful-fucker daddy was leaving now. He had taken me down from his pedestal of innocence only minutes ago, and already I was a whore to him because I'd had a dick in me now--I could tell from the way he soon stopped touching and kissing me. He tapered off down my neck after lovingly planting passionate kisses across my cheek and ear. Then he slapped my arms down to my sides, humped his dick faster and faster and wildly painfully up into my cervix, covered my mouth, pressed in as hard and as deep as he was able, making me scream into his filthy hand, and I felt a gorgeous warm liquid surge and gush up into my cervix over and over oh, so many times. It must have been ages since mom let him cum in her, or anywhere in the house. She hated when he jerked off--I'd overheard that much for damn sure during insanely graphic arguments.
I stared at the ceiling as Daddy finished inside me. Everything hurt, and I could not escape it. I nearly screamed hate to God himself when Daddy's dick didn't get soft at all for me. Daddy pulled his cock out and watched his seed leak from me and into my clean sheets for only a moment before he was grabbing my hips and spinning me and pulling me to the edge of the bed. He gripped my hair tight and used it to shove my face down into the fresh cum puddle he'd watched ooze from me. It was sticky, salty, and tasted nasty. Daddy spat on my asshole this time, stroked his dick just a little, then started pressing his fat dick inside my butthole.
Immediately, I squirmed violently around in his grip and started screaming bloody murder in protest even though nothing hurt yet. Daddy paused and searched for the panties he'd taken off me in my sleep. He found them under my foot and looked for a second like he was about to shove them into my mouth. My eyes went wide in fear, but then he paused again. He threw my panties at my laundry bin, then fished some black lacy thing out of the flannel pocket in his chest. It was my mom's panties. The kind of slutty things she wore for every single occasion. She wore thongs and g-strings like that one while lounging at home, working all day, going out with friends, or in this case, to the gym for an insanity workout or something for several hours. I knew that was the case when he soon brought them nearer to my face to gag me--strong, sour pussy smells approached and hinted at a cacophony of drenching ass sweat, hormonal pussy juices of needy sex parts ovulating like mine no doubt, and carelessly missed drops of urine.
Mom's clothes always smelled of a fit, healthy woman's body, and this was no exception, but I was not about to be gagged by her fucking gym day g-string. Daddy can rape me or spank me, ground me, or kill me, but as I clenched my teeth and thrashed my head away from him, I knew at least that one thing for certain: there was simply no way that kind of insult was about to be added to this level of injury. But Daddy held my throat and shoved a fat dick up my asshole, and the sheer shock of that kind of stretch and unbelievable violation made me scream in no time. Musty, womanly-reeking black lace fabric met my tongue and its scent and taste washed over my buds and up and out my nostrils as I had to breathe that way while Daddy fucked my poor asshole in doggy as rough as he liked it, and pinned me with his hands on hips and made me take it. It hurt so bad I thought I might explode, but also the pleasure was immeasurable. The stretch was ungodly, and I had never felt that kind of full and overextended in my life, but a seriously dark masochist was budding within me to meet this challenge of my body's limits. It felt deeply intrusive and domineering, but also so warm. The painful hyperextension of my anal canal blended with the rush of hyper-sensitive sensation of his skin and flesh sliding eagerly in and against me and my tender pink walls inside.
While Daddy slid into me, my whole body felt like a sleeve of soft skin that was stretched to its limit and much, much further for Daddy's purposes. When Daddy finally came again, I felt another gush of warm manly seed and it leaked deep down inside me. Some still drained out when he pulled his dick out of me and it dribbled over my other leaky sex parts as Daddy sighed, smoothed his hair, and made for the doorway quickly like I was a cheap fuck in a backseat behind some old dive bar or something.
I laid in my bed unmoving for ages. I couldn't bring myself to do anything--physically or mentally. I wasn't a virgin anymore. Daddy had stolen that from me. I curled up into a ball as the sun rose. Why did he do that? How could he do that to me? Why did that kind of abuse feel so good while it hurt me so badly? I realized Mommy's panties were still in my mouth, and slowly, I pushed them out with my tongue. I didn't want to think about that right now, but her sour, sexy, mature sweat and pussy juice flavors were more noticable on my tongue now that my tastebuds met the air again. It clung there, and Daddy's cum stewed and pooled in my orifices feeling all hot and nasty and slimy and swimming strongly with many spermies. I could have all but sworn I could actually feel them wriggling around like little vile serpents inside me.
I was fucked. I was so fucked. Pregnant probably. Dissociating. Used and discarded. Turned into a whore, and all my life plans were ruined. And all for the evil sexy man who was supposed to protect me. How could he not see that? How wrong and disturbed this was?
For hours, I laid in bed as my head replayed how it felt when his stubble lovingly slurped over my privates with that steamy hot, slug-like tongue sticking out of it. I felt my ass leak, and the lingering pain from the stretch and the gape made it feel like his fat middle-aged cock was still up inside of it. My pussy squealed with sore excitement, just knowing that it had been fucked and well-bred finally, and I wanted to shove a spike up inside it to shut up that deeply, deeply disturbing idea. And to murder the now flooding intrusive thoughts of how relatively hot my rape and abuse was. How my own dad had wanted me so bad he just TOOK me. I shoved that shit out of my head quickly.
I reached down between my soft thighs and caught the next cascade of slimy cum before it dropped into my sheets with the rest of it. I looked down at the pearly, slimy baby goo and saw there was no blood in it. I checked my asshole's load with the other hand, and the same egg-white fascinating substance was just as clean and angelic. It hurt just to lightly touch my poor fucked sex holes, and something about that was very, very sexy too.
I stared and played and prodded and swished Daddy's cum around in my fingers for hours, collecting more on my fingertips when it dried up or thinned out. I felt like a well-worked cheap whore or something. It took me a while to realize why. It was all the porn I watched. I really tried not to do that, but one or both of my sisters left it in the cookies shamelessly on the computer we used to share and it got me hooked or made me feel closer to them or something cause a lot of it was girl on girl and that made me feel less weird about thinking some girls were very, very pretty... such as my sisters. I had lots of intrusive thoughts about them I was now failing to ignore any longer.
When I had graduated to rough, mean, dark, fuck-heavy porn though, some part of me really started to identify in fantasy with the women left fucked and sore and stretched and useless like a used condom when the mean men were done jizzing in them. The guys always just casually pulled out and ignored them, and walked over to the next dirty whore on the other side of the same gang-fuck or whatever the hell the situation was that was going on. I was starting to feel a lot like I imagined those girls felt if they ever weren't just acting while they laid there all used up and useless. And as my mind got spinny and sleepy on porn and trauma-fueled sex dreams, I started to get visions of a future. Flashes of them. Whose future, I cannot say. But it was feeling more and more like mine the longer I laid still and wallowed in the soreness of my butthole and previously virgin pussy that Daddy had plowed inside and claimed with his potent swimming baby ooze.