Note: Yes, I was struggling with my own self-worth issues in those days, and now know that I had some seriously repressed sexual behaviors. I guess in a way I was scared of letting myself get too serious about anyone, believing they couldn't possibly find me attractive and desirable. It wasn't because guys rejected me. Heck, they were all over me every time they got a chance.
Still, I remained a virgin until graduating college, and even then didn't try out all the devious fantasies I grew up having. As I said, fantasies are sometimes better than the real thing, and when we finally do try them, we are many times disappointed.
Additionally, these stories may make it seem like I had an awful lot of fantasizing going on with me back then. But remember, these are several fantasies I had over a number of years, and are not necessarily sequential. I am just making an effort to link them all together into a story line for this post. I hope it works.
Cleo
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Ralph returned on Wednesday but Cleo took great pains to avoid him. Somehow, if she could stay out of sight until Mike returned from his trip the following week, she might be able to make it. That wasn't going to happen. Late Thursday afternoon just as she was getting ready to leave, she looked up and saw Ralph standing in front of her desk. As usual, his loose wet lips had a lewd smirk on them.
"How's my pretty little cocksucker today?" he said too quietly for anyone else to overhear.
When she didn't reply right away, he jerked his head and said, "Close up and meet me in the parking lot. I got a new trick to show you." He didn't even wait for her to refuse, walking away without looking back. He was confident she would follow, and she did.
"Damn you," Cleo whispered silently. "Damn you to hell!"
How dare him to treat her this way. Still, five minutes later she was climbing into his car like he was the Pied Piper and she, his trained rat. Ralph didn't even look at her as he put it in gear and moved into traffic.
"Let me see your pussy," he finally said. "It's been a long time since I've seen it."
She started to hesitate, then knowing she would only end up doing it anyway, raised her hips and slid her short skirt up to her waist. Then, using her thumbs, she worked the scanty thong panties down over the flair of her hips, feeling the cold air from the air conditioner against her moist crotch.
"My, my," Ralph breathed. "I can smell you from here, my little slut. Is it wet? Touch it and tell me."
Looking him in the eyes, she ran a finger through her slit and held it out for him to see the wetness on it.
"Lick it off," he told her, and she complied, her heart racing. "We're going to a movie tonight." He smirked at her.
They didn't speak again until he pulled into a darkened parking lot next to an adult theater. He opened the door and got out, saying, "Come on. We're here."
Frightened and embarrassed, she followed Ralph into the store with downcast eyes, praying no one who knew her would see them. It was the first time she had ever been inside such a place and she was surprised by the large rubber dildos and dirty book displays, right out in public. A doorway with a dirty curtain in the back of the store, displayed a sign saying that only one person to a booth would be tolerated. Sounds of video sex were coming from a darkened area behind the curtain.
There was a sloppy older man, and a young pimply-faced boy working behind the counter. Every so often, one of them would make change for someone who would instantly disappear behind the dirty curtain. There were several men in the store and Cleo could feel their eyes boring into her as she stared at the various items on display, faking interest. She was conscious of her short skirt and tank top.
Ralph spoke quietly with the older man behind the cash register for a moment. The guy turned it over to the pimpled kid, motioning for Ralph to follow him into a small office behind the counter. Ralph got her attention and beckoned her to follow. Up close, the man looked even dirtier and sloppier than she'd thought earlier. He wore soiled pants and a dirty, once-white t-shirt, his teeth stained by tobacco. His gray-spotted beard indicated he hadn't shaved in at least a week, probably about the last time he'd had a bath.
Ralph spoke to her coldly without looking at her. "This nice man is named Chuck. He's going to let us watch a movie together even though it's against store policy. Isn't that nice of him, Cleo?"
She nodded slightly, wondering where this was going. She knew she looked completely out of place in her heels and skirt, perfect make-up and long blonde hair pulled back into a fluffy ponytail. She suddenly wanted to run right out of the front door but her legs wouldn't work anymore. Whatever was going to happen, she knew she would probably end up doing just as Ralph ordered. She was disgusted by that admission, but was nonetheless resigned to the realization of the hold he held over her. He was a repulsive' pudgy little man with fat wet lips, but just being this close to him again, and his verbal abuse earlier had made her wet with desire.
She shuddered uncontrollably as an image of what lay just beneath Ralph's baggy pants, flashed across her mind. Try as she would, she couldn't understand her attraction to this repulsive creature. She hated him, but she needed him too - needed his degradation - his contempt. She needed to feel used.
"Now, what can we do for you to return the favor, Chuck? Name it." Ralph smirked at her as he spoke to the shoddy store owner.
Cleo watched in horror as Chuck leaned back in the chair and unzipped his trousers, fingering out a knobby, half-hardened cock. He grinned lewdly at her. Instantly, she knew what she was supposed to do, but Ralph told her anyway. "Go ahead, baby. Hurry up and suck his cock so we can go watch the movie."
"Ralph, please . . ." she started to say.
"Ralph? Ralph? Get on your fucking knees, you worthless slut. Have you forgotten our deal already? Do it right now or I walk out."