Scene 1 -- Good Girl Math
(Morning, Nia's apartment)
I don't know what day it is.
Rick says it's Thursday, but that doesn't mean much anymore. Time got blurry after the third week. Or maybe after the twelfth client. After a while, all the hotel rooms start to smell the same--like sweat, bleach, and whatever perfume I wore too heavily the night before.
Now, there's only one thing I measure: performance.
Five stars? The needle comes fast. I float. I forget.
Four? A delay. Cold silence.
Three? He doesn't say anything. Just watches me come apart without touching me.
I wake up on the couch again, limbs twisted in a blanket I don't remember pulling up. The cushion's got that permanent indentation now--like my body's learning not to take up space.
I sit up slowly, stretch until my bones complain. I feel everything--the ache in my hips, the tight pull in my lower back, the dull soreness between my legs. The body keeps score. And lately, I'm always in debt.
I wander to the bathroom. The mirror's fogged, but I know what I'll see.
I wipe it clean with the heel of my hand, and there I am--bare, bruised, and still too beautiful for the life I've fallen into.
My skin catches the light. That deep, rich shade where Black meets bronze--sun-kissed even in shadows. Smooth like polished stone, but not untouched. Faint bite marks at my shoulder. A fingerprint bruise at my thigh. I trace it absently, not sure which man left it. Maybe I don't want to know.
My frame is holding up, somehow. 5'7", long-legged, high-hipped, with the kind of body that made aunties cluck their tongues and men linger too long in the corner store aisles. 34C. 26. 37. A banger body, Rick calls it--like it's something I rent out by the hour, like it doesn't hurt when they use it too hard.
I lean in closer.
My face still surprises me sometimes. Full lips, soft jawline, lashes that curl even without mascara. There's a kind of defiance in my features. Like maybe, just maybe, I used to belong to someone proud. Someone whole.
But now my eyes look hollow. Like the girl behind them left weeks ago and just forgot to close the door.
On the counter, Rick's left me a granola bar and a bottle of water. That's a good sign. If I'd done poorly, there'd be nothing. Just silence and maybe the cold floor waiting for me again.
I eat it slowly, chewing even though my stomach's not sure it wants food. It's not about hunger. It's about staying upright for the next job.
Because I know the rules now.
Smile right = meal.
Obey fast = heat.
Perform perfectly = peace.
Rick doesn't shout. He doesn't need to. He's trained my body better than any leash could. One dose and I'll do anything to earn the next. And when I don't?
He teaches.
Nine hours on the floor last time, shivering, mind splitting open. I remember the linoleum pressing against my cheek, cold and sticky. I remember his voice, calm, like he was lecturing a child.
"This is how you learn," he said.
"Pain teaches. Obedience rewards."
And I did learn. I always learn.
Every moan, every sigh, every whisper of "thank you"--it's all choreographed now. A dance of survival. And I know the steps.
I finish the bar. Wash my face. Look in the mirror one more time.
There's still something fierce in my reflection. Faint. Flickering. But not gone.
And that's what scares me most.
Not that they're using me.
But that I'm starting to believe I need to be used.
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Scene 2 -- The Ranch Job
(Evening, Nia's apartment -- post-shower)
The bathroom mirror is still fogged from the shower, but I can see enough.
My face looks older than I remember. Not in years, exactly. In weight. Like I've been dragging something invisible across my back every day and it's finally starting to show in my eyes.
I wipe the mirror with the edge of a towel and lean in close.
My skin's sallow, lips chapped. The eyeliner I smudged on yesterday is still clinging to my lower lids like it doesn't want to leave. I haven't worn makeup for myself in weeks. It's all part of the uniform now--like smiling, like silence.
Rick comes in without knocking.
I don't flinch anymore.
He doesn't look at me. Just drops a folded pile of clothes onto the counter.
"You've got a booking. Big one," he says. "He's paying for the full night."
I pause with the towel still wrapped around my chest. "Full night?"
Rick nods. He's watching the mirror, not me. "Out at a ranch. Hour outside the city. Client's bringing a friend. Two of them."
Something in my chest shifts. Not quite fear. Not quite dread. Just that same old drop in the stomach--like I've been pushed into cold water before I was ready.
I unwrap the clothes. Skirt. Knee socks. Button-down. Red ribbon. I already know what it is before I finish unfolding it.
A school uniform.
I look up at Rick through the mirror. His face doesn't change. He's not smiling. He's not frowning either. This isn't a joke. It's a request. A paid one.
"You'll wear it," he says simply.
I nod.
Because what else am I supposed to do?
He sets a phone down next to the clothes--cheap burner model with a cracked screen. "Car's picking you up at seven. Client wants confirmation before he opens the door. You'll call me when you get there. Use this."
I dry my hands and pick up the phone like it's just another prop.
"You'll come home with an envelope," he says. "Assuming you don't screw it up."
I don't respond. Just keep my face still. Neutral. Blank.
Rick studies me for a second, then softens. Just a little. "You do this right, you'll have the whole dose waiting when you get back. Full."
It takes everything I have not to show it--the way my fingers twitch, how my chest tightens. "And if I don't?"
He doesn't answer. He doesn't need to.
He leaves the door open on his way out.
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Scene 3 -- Arrival
(Dusk, the ranch)
The ride out is silent.
The car smells like leather and old smoke. The driver doesn't speak. Just taps the wheel occasionally like he's keeping time to a song in his head. He never looks at me, not once. Maybe he's trained. Maybe he's just smart.
The city fades behind us in pieces--streetlights giving way to shadows, skyline dissolving into low hills and long fences. It's darker out here. Not the kind of dark that hides things. The kind that watches.
We pull into a long gravel driveway. The house at the end is all sharp corners and fake rustic charm--wide porch, stone chimney, lights glowing like a catalog photo of "country peace." It's too clean. Too staged. Like everything inside it is going to be wrong.
The car stops. The driver doesn't get out.
"We're here."
I nod, even though he's not looking. My hand tightens around the little burner phone Rick gave me. It's warm now, like my grip alone is trying to conjure safety from it.
I step out.
Gravel crunches under my boots--low, black heels Rick insisted on. I smoothed the skirt once in the car, made sure the ribbon at my collar was tied just right. The uniform hugs my body like it was measured for me: pleated skirt barely covering anything, white shirt crisp and snug, fabric pulled just a little too tight across my chest.
I hear the door creak before I see him.
He's already outside. Early 40s maybe. Or older. Hard to tell with the tan. Button-down half open. Beer in one hand, the kind of smirk that says he thinks he's being charming.
"You're right on time," he calls out, like I'm a pizza delivery.
I walk toward him, slow and steady. Eyes low, shoulders back--just like Rick taught me. Present, not defiant. Polished, not proud.
"Go on inside, pretty girl," the man says. "You can call your man now if you need."
I don't say anything. I just nod and dial the number. Rick picks up on the second ring.
"Confirmation code?" he asks.
I recite it.
"All good," Rick says. "Be good."
He hangs up.
The man--Steve, he says, when I finally ask--takes the phone from my hand like he's handling luggage.
"House rule," he says, pocketing it. "No phones. No noise. My buddy's pulling up now. You've got time to get ready."
He points down the hall. "Guest bathroom. Change, freshen up. You know the drill."
I do. God, I do.
Inside, the air smells like wood polish and something faintly sweet--like bourbon or pipe smoke. The walls are lined with photos I don't look at. I find the bathroom, click the door shut behind me, and finally breathe.
The mirror over the sink throws me back at myself again. Under fluorescent light, the uniform looks even smaller. The shirt cuts into my arms, the hem of the skirt rides higher with every step. I re-tie the ribbon, tighten it just enough to look cute without choking.
I adjust everything until I look exactly like what they ordered.
A doll.