What I Think Of You

What I think of you.

Authors note

: This story is meant to eventually transition into rather extreme themes of male-domination and brainwashing, with potential themes of cruelty and outright sadism, if that's not your thing, that's more than fair enough, but I'd recommend you read something else. Beyond that, it's my first thing, so apologies if it's more-so abstract art, than a comprehensible story.

Alex had lusted after Olivia for as long as he could remember, and he had stayed as close as possible to her to try and one day get a chance to act upon that lust, that longing.

A long-time friend to Alex, and a striking beauty, at that, Olivia had long, golden hair, a tanned complexion and a smile which had a bewitching property to it, Alex had known her for years, and for years, had somewhat unsuccessfully tried to ferment a romantic connection to her, to no avail.

Every day, Alex, Olivia, and a number of other women met up at a university study circle, and for hours and hours, they'd often fail to study, amusing each other with jokes, banter and general life stories, all things considered it was terribly unproductive, but as far as Alex was concerned, it made life worth living... and resulted in grades that made life seem rather when he stopped to think about them.

He wasn't quite sure how he ended up in the circle, most likely Olivia invited him, but honestly, the circle seemed Moreso like something formed by the laws of nature, then any specific individual, a collection of eccentric girls, and one guy, who, overall, on the whole, was just happy to be there. The other members recounted in Alex's mind could be summarised as "the rich duchess, the know-it-all, the prude, the normal, and the fucking weirdo." Despite his cruel internal nicknames, he would consider each a friend, whom he trusted with at most, a moderate sum of money, and for the record, he wasn't the one who came up with most of these, Half of these were joking self-referential monikers, and other half were jokes from "the fucking weirdo".

Today, Alex headed to the circle, to be met with an unusual circumstance. Everybody, bar Rachel, the rich duchess, was either sick, or otherwise indisposed. Rachel had a habit of bringing food, and drink to the table, as the only person there who never had to give a thought to money, however, Alex had to admit he wasn't especially close to Rachel, and had never spoken to her much, if ever. So, he expected today to be somewhat awkward, as it turns out, he may yet be a prophet.

"Hey, Rache" Alex spoke, somewhat nervously, but still using a nickname, to try and seem aloof. Alex was many things, and in this instance, he was whatever the opposite of a casual conversationalist was. Struggling to think of topics to speak of, he began stating questions he already knew the answers to.

"Olivia coming today, or she who knows all?"

Rachel, for the most part, seemed somewhat uncertain as to her ability to speak, and curtly responded, "Olvia's busy, and Alice is quite ill, as of yesterday."

"Cool, cool... you still doing piano lessons?"

Rachel seemed to be averting her eyes from Alex and responded. "I finished up my lessons a while ago." Seeming a bit unsteady, she returned a question, "has... have you and Olivia been up to anything?" Rachels eyes maintaining a notable degree of focus as she awaited an answer. She had been waiting for this day for ages, but now she was here, a certain level of discomfort and fear overwhelmed her.

"Uh, nothing much, we watched that movie about the bear on drugs the other day, we had a great time, just... like, talking about the movie and shit, y'know?".

Alex wasn't quite sure how to read the expression that crossed Rachel's face, as she seemed to become lost in thought for a while. In absence of other interesting things to look at in the plain white study rooms of the university, he found himself studying Rachel, like Olivia, she had golden blonde hair, with her hair tied up in a pony-tail, and brown eyes, that seemed to be looking directly into your soul. In a sense, she was about as good looking as you'd expect any stereotypical rich heiress to be, which is to say, very, however, she dressed in a burgundy button up shirt, and a pair of shredded jeans, just about everyone at the table had at one point made a joke about expecting her to be wearing a ballgown, because, as everybody who knew her was aware of, she was absolutely loaded, rich from profits in company left behind by her late parents, although to the best of his knowledge, she had no income, just an incredibly large amount of money left behind from investments which had since been divested, either by her late parents, or by her shortly after her inheritance. Regardless, she had expensive objects on her person at seemingly all times, even the most plain looking purse she carried would turn out to cost the GDP of Albania. (Alex was pretty sure that's hyperbole, but sometimes, he wondered...)

Alex was aware that Rachel had gotten quite a few suitors, both in the university itself, and from some really old fashioned families, that sent physical letters, saying shit along the lines of "Oh, my lady from a most distinguished lineage, I beseech thee to take upon thy hand in marriage..." or some shit like that, Alex had never read one of the letters, but he was assured that's what they all read like by Rachel. Who had recited a theatrical reading of one of the letters to the table a week ago, it had been something of a comedic spectacle, and Rachel filled it with theatrical pomp, while Olivia played Shakespearian sounding music on her phone, the fits of hysterical laughter borne from some of the more flowery prose had sent the table into laughter loud enough they risked being kicked from their desks, which was all the more impressive considering these rooms were sound-proofed to an extent you could probably murder someone with a chainsaw and a noise-maker, and not alert anyone, such was the sound-proofing.

Any rate, despite all these dating/marriage requests, Rachel had remained single; at least to the best of Alex's knowledge, for her entire life, for reasons he wasn't quite sure he understood the reasoning behind, some of the dudes that approached were, as much as his lustful mind loath to admit it, appealing, oft well manner, and other times, the kinda bad-boy that appealed to people who didn't want someone well-mannered. Frankly, he had no idea what she was looking for, and figured she either just didn't want to date, and was possibly flat out asexual.

Alex had known Rachel almost as long as Olivia, bordering on 8 years now, and in that time, never really gotten to know her, in part because he preferred to speak to Olivia when possible, and in part because Rachel, despite her rather loud and cheerful personality, seemed to be hesitant to talk to him. Always shying away, or simply not providing much in the way of conversation topics.

Unbeknownst to Alex, Rachel's shyness stemmed from her own infatuation with him, which had grown into an obsession in large part due to the ever-increasing difficulty she found when trying to talk to him, whenever she tried, Olivia was there to steal the conversation. She couldn't quite say what her attraction was born of, on some level in may have been simple envy at one point for Olivia; a desire to have something that otherwise belong to her, or it might have been that Alex's often mild-mannered personality appealed to her, as she spent most of her life around people who would oft take any opportunity given to brag, and the opportunities that weren't given to boot, either way, she'd long since grown attached to Alex as a person, even if she'd never successfully forged a close bond with him, in a sense, the absence had only made her heart grow fonder.

Earlier today, her heart sang when she realised the perfect storm that had occurred, that today, and for the indeterminate future, she'd finally be alone with Alex, only to be immediately confronted with her own lack of social competency in the face of this high-pressure situation, in the face of her crush. She stuttered out questions and was unable to form any compelling conversations in her head, honestly, the more she tired, the more her thoughts just became a mess of "so... do you like tap water?" and other statements sure to result in a stillborn conversation. As the day passed, Rachel wished she could do something, anything to try and ferment some banter between the two of them, or better yet, some romantic chemistry, or a sexy moment or two, or really... anything besides awkward silence, it was so easy every other day of her life, so why not today... just why!?!?!?

Despite Rachels romantic intent, the day pasted slowly, with them both in relative silence, unable to find the thread of a lasting conversation, Rachel was something of a social butterfly, but love has a funny way of making you utterly fucking incompetent at basic socialisation, at one point she tried to make a conversation about how white the ceiling tiles were, she smiled at everything he said as brightly as she could, and maintained a level of intense, constant eye contact that would oft be associated with attempting to kill through a glare.

The day passed slowly, and horror of horrors, some studying was successfully performed by Alex, as they sat in quiet silence between the two, broken up by a few conversations. On the whole, Alex had a disappointing day, missing Olivia's presence greatly; the awkward silence with Rachel filled him with unease; he hoped for a slightly better day tomorrow, but honestly, as things were looking, it was unlikely for the group to fully reform for a while; maybe Alice would recover, but the others had somewhat longer looked commitments.

Some members of the circle might be back within the week, and Olivia seemed as though she might not be able to attend for a month or more, which frankly, made him feel miserable when he thought about going an entire month without getting to spend hours at a time with her warm smile, intoxicating personality... and of course, sexy as fuck figure... he was only human, after all.

He went home in disarray, exhausted, and experiencing a loneliness known only to the lovestruck, he lusted after Olivia, fantasising about her smile, her grin, her laugh, her toned body, her breasts. But beyond even that, he longed for some form of companionship, even if it couldn't be Olivia, he wanted to be loved in a non-platonic manner by at least one of the girls he knew. He wanted to see them in a skimpy outfit or nothing at all, he wanted to be loved, to be admired, and in his perverted heart, he wanted to be adored, nay worshipped.

He felt crude thinking about every depraved thing he'd ever wished on any of them, but he was a 21-year-old guy; as far as he was concerned, he reserved the right to be a pervert, even if he felt bad about it from time-to-time. It was all harmless thoughts, just wishful thinking. If he wanted to picture Rachel naked, and jack-off to the thought of her rich, sexy, taut body, her tanned golden skin... picturing her in a slutty outfit, tits hanging free as the wind, what was the harm?

And it was at that moment something changed, something long festering inside him awoke, an invisible force, something powerful beyond imagining, but subtle, and manipulative. A force that saw itself as but an extension of him, and what he desired, he would attain, the world would warp, shift and bend, and in time, it would be his. He would never know what had changed. Whatever force had awoken inside him, he would live his life unaware of the power that had broken free, that his mere will held power unfathomable, and that he was about to squander that power to sleep with women that probably would have agreed to it eventually without supernatural interference.

Alex for the most part, was unaware of the supernatural forces that had just taken root inside him, that subverted the world to his convenience, and started jacking off to mental images of Rachel, trying to picture what she would look like performing various acts, and eventually fell asleep, dreaming of tits, and skimpy outfits containing aforementioned tits.

The next day, Alex went through his life on autopilot got dressed, made breakfast, ate breakfast, watched some TV, had a quick wank to mental images of Olivia, with the help of a porn model that bore a resemblance, and headed off to university, in a chipper mood, as today, for reasons he couldn't quite place, everything seemed... easier, as if the world had changed slightly to be more convenient, the toaster didn't take quite so long to toast, the toast tasted fresher, the orange juice tasted less artificial, the TV schedule seemed more convenient, the porn model seemed to be even more similar to Olivia than he remembered.

When he got to Uni and started attending lectures, everybody's voice seemed more pleasant, people seemed nicer than usual, more accommodating... and then lectures ended and he headed to the study circle. It was just Rachel again today, but something was different, something was very different, Rachel's shirt was open, exposing far more than a peak at the pink lace bra she was wearing, and her jeans were unbuttoned, giving a peak at matching pink panties.

When he first entered the room, Alex momentarily stared at Rachel's half-dressed state, before almost turning to leave the room, before pausing and starting to apologise.

As soon as the apology left his lips, Rachel responded with a smile. "What for?"

Alex tried to reply, before realising he had no idea what to say in response to that, before slinking down into a chair in the groups study room. He for the most part tried to avert his eyes from Rachel's exposed bra, but occasionally tried to sneak peaks, attempting to burn this image into his brain for later.

Eventually, he worked up the courage to speak, and address the issue more directly.

"So... what's up with your shirt?"

"My shirt?" Rachel responded, confused. "What about it? It's the same one I usually wear..." She stated, almost musing to herself.

Alex, for the most part, seemed even more confused, before stating "I can sort of see your bra." Rachel looked back at him incredulously, before suddenly having a jolt of understanding.

"I see, my apologies." She stated, seeming less shy and pensive than yesterday, as she unbuttoned her shirt more, and spread the shirt apart, exposing more of her golden tanned flesh, and seemingly unintentionally pushing her breasts out.

"That's... that's not what I... why are you doing that?" Alex responded nervously, enjoying himself, but having the disposition of someone who felt there was a trick at play, know to all but him.

Rachel seemed almost happy as he spoke, and with a smile, responded "I see." As she took her shirt off completely, and handed it to Alex, pushing her breasts out deliberately as she did so.

Alex couldn't believe what he was seeing, the rich, popular, socialite who had never dated anyone, brazenly taking her shirt off, handing it to him, while pushing her breasts forward... this was the happiest moment of his life, and for a moment, he forgot his sense of politeness and simply stared at Rachels smiling face; before moving his head down and taking in her breasts, concealed only by a pink lace bra.

Rachel, for her part, felt good watching Alex finally take notice of her, to have him staring at her breasts, clearly horny felt like a dream come true, she wanted to rip her clothes off and take him there and now, but she couldn't do that, she didn't want to do anything inappropriate, after all, it was perfectly normal to take your shirt off, and push your covered breasts towards someone, that's perfectly normal, or so Rachel believed, a belief that she had acquired earlier today, in something of an epiphany, an epiphany that felt a bit odd, as if it wasn't her mind that came to the conclusion, but something else entirely, speaking as though it were her thoughts.

Alex, feeling as though hours had passed since he had said anything, finally got his wits about him, put on the winning grin of someone with no plan whatsoever, and plainly stated "If you want to go shirtless, that's fine, but I'm still going to use this room y'know... uh, if that's alright with you..." He added, losing his nerve half-way through his confidence act, he had decided not to mention her unbuttoned jeans.

Rachel was practically giddy with excitement, and with uncharacteristic confidence, responded with a hug, pressing her tits against Alex's chest, his face turned every shade of red, and his dick drew an uncomfortable amount of blood.

Seeing the erection threatening to burst out of his pants, Rachel pulled away, matching Alex's shades of red, before proceeding to apologise. "Sorry, I... I didn't mean to look... Sorry" she said, before sheepishly looking away in shame.

They both settled into silence, and the day came to an early end, with Alex heading home, though every part of his brain wanted to stay, and ogle Rachel, may haps even striking up a steamy conversation, he knew there was no chance in hell he was capable of doing something which required that level of blunt courage, and on some level, he was afraid of Olivia walking on them, even if the odds of that were frankly non-existent, Olivia's newfound extra-curriculars meant she was unlikely to make any of the study circles events in the near future, the same could be said for the most of the other girls, who for one reason or another, weren't presently able to attend, a bummer for Alex, but now that he'd seen billionaire heiress bra-covered tits... he felt less like complaining.

It was an understatement to say Alex was a pervert with an imagination, and once he returned home, he furiously masturbated to what he had seen earlier, his mind often wandering the peak of Rachel's lace panties, and her bra, which he'd seen in its full glory.

And as he masturbated, slowly, he liked to imagine narratives, stories to go along with the compromising positions he placed her in, the main story that pervaded his mind was the narrative of Rachel, the heiress, the universities most eligible bachelorette coming onto him, begging him to fuck her, and imagining himself making her beg for it. He imagined her dressing more and more provocatively, flashing him in a desperate attempt to seduce him, finally, he imagined her sitting the study room, pleasuring herself for his pleasure.

After completely draining himself several times, he drifted off to sleep. The image of Rachel's bra covered tits fresh in his mind. Meanwhile, the force dwelling inside of him set about bringing his fantasy to life, as it wormed its way into Rachel's sleeping mind.

The next day when he awoke, Alex had a similarly pleasant day to the one prior, everything just seemed to go his way, and when he reached the Circle, he found Rachel, wearing the absolute skimpiest clothing he'd ever seen in person.

Rachel's outfit consisted of a small wrap top which was trying and failing to contain her tits, which were straining to escape. She clearly wasn't wearing a bra, and her nipples were visible through her shirt. If she stood up too fast, Alex was certain her tits would succeed in their escape attempt.

Her skirt barely existed, and exposed the bottom half of her panties, honestly, it wasn't a skirt, it was a long belt, if anything. Rachel wore a beaming smile, and little else, and when Alex entered through the door, she extended her arms and invited him in for a hug.

"I'm so glad to see you!!!" She practically screamed, arms extended, expecting Alex to come in for a hug, having lost any sense of shyness she had just two days prior.

For the most part, Alex just stood there paralysed, caught somewhere between heaven, and a deep sense of foreboding that came when good things happen for completely unknown reasons.