Late nights around the Epsilon grounds were pretty quiet, and boring; definitely a good thing for those looking for lively engagements, though pretty dull after several days straight of almost non-stop researching. Pacing the hallways looking tired and caffeine-addled was a much-needed break, so much so that no one gave me a second glance if they crossed my path or stared at my form on surveillance cameras. Coincidentally-timed around the usual security shift change late in the evening, I just happened to be around the security office entrance, happy to note that Dr. McGraw's "missing" ID card was high-level enough to access it, and to set a few things up, namely my own master ID access card, and a finite loop of footage around Dr. Kasdien's office. It was everything I needed to further my research that night.
Director Petersen would've probably been really pissed to know how easy it was to bypass several interior security measures, but he could blame Kasdien for all I cared. Before Maelstrom, research was at least interesting; mission logistics, background info, Hierarch sciences, I got to look at fresh, unique, relevant information on a daily basis with the twinge fear/excitement of eventually being called to apply that stuff on the field. After that beguiling run-in, to go back to researching felt uneventful and boring in the worst of ways. Most of it was going over things already established, looking for any cracks in knowledge to delve into, something that Maelstrom's existence had disproved as a matter of fact. Only the prospect of learning something specific about Maelstrom kept me half-awake, that and a cool feeling in my head eerily timed since I started researching her specifically, and since she'd gone silent. A trace of warmth that I'd often mistaken for body heat stayed present, pushing me to find answers I guessed were being withheld for some reason.
The "good" doctor being absent for a few days, off to who knows where, was my best opportunity for getting answers I sensed he was hesitant to give directly. Not wanting to arouse a lot of suspicion guessing too many passwords on this PC, I stuck to his filing cabinet and jotted down a few notes about old sites and locales mentioned in notes that I'd never heard of Epsilon having any business with; hopefully that would be some lead that could push things forward. As tempted as I was to spend the whole night there gathering intel in one shot, I left before the camera loop outside Kasdien's lab ended to resume live feed.
***
I shouldn't have really complained that the research actually got us off-compound for once, and yet I found ample reasons to. At the college an hour away, we were supposed to meet with a Professor Parker, a renowned leader in the field of Hierarch sciences. I thought we would've had time to visit Radio on the way or stop at my usual library to see if another letter from Mickey would be waiting, but McGraw in the driver's seat expressed urgency and took us straight to the campus, to find Parker was in the middle of a long string of lectures despite an appointment being arranged ahead of time. I didn't bother expressing my obvious feelings about it, and told McGraw I'd be waiting in the library area a floor below his lab.
I didn't even bother to look over more Hierarch notes I had for the meeting, just grabbing a dictionary just for the sake of reading something else; wasn't much of a choice with science magazines I'd been drowning in the past few days, or Hierarch comic books showing off a "glamorous" lifestyle I'd been drowning in for the past few months. As I sat down, the forgotten motivation behind so much research popped into my head, Maelstrom's beautiful face; such a thought brightened my demeanor, warmed my brain like a familiar caress, and made the words to look up easy.
Maelstrom
1: a powerful often violent whirlpool sucking in objects within a given radius
tried to shoot the canoe across a stretch of treacherous maelstrom
2: something resembling a maelstrom in turbulence
the maelstrom enveloping the country
a maelstrom of emotions
I smiled at the half-accuracy of the definition; violent as her potential was, being sucked into her power seemed gentle. Insistent, but gentle, almost like it knew I wouldn't fight much. The turbulence and emotion parts were right too, just never the kind I was expecting. All that made me think of a third definition it needed.
3: a hot, hypnotic, overpowering, teasing Hierarch
the Maelstrom enveloping the Half
Further down the table, I noticed a student deep into whatever she was reading, her finger making circles like she was stirring something. The longer I stared at that, the more I could feel parts of me being sucked into the meditative currents, pulled along for the ride. I righted myself quick before she noticed me staring absently. For fun, I decided to do a little independent research of what I liked about the crazy encounters I've had with her. Since the first time we'd met, she'd given me plenty of words to consider.
Ambush
1: an act or instance of lying concealed so as to attack by surprise:
The highwaymen waited in ambush near the road.
2: an act or instance of attacking unexpectedly from a concealed position.
Countless times she'd catch me off-guard, sneaking her way into my motel room, my head, my life. The thought felt like a warm embrace as I sought the next word.
Bondage
1: the activity of tying someone up with ropes or chains for sexual pleasure
2: a situation in which a person belongs to someone as their slave
It was easy to identify with feeling the activity, bound by invisible flames that burned nearly as hot as the act itself, in plain sight of those who'd do all they can to stop it. It was hard to convince myself how hot it wasn't, shaking my head in disgust as I thought of another word.
Peril
1: exposure to the risk of being injured, destroyed, or lost
fire put the city in peril
2: something that imperils or endangers
lessen the perils of the streets
Accurate as it was, I nearly laughed at the idea, me being the helpless damsel in distress, and Maelstrom the mustache-twirling villain, and no dashing hero to speak of that could save me. And I'd probably kick their ass before she could for anyone attempting to save me. That got a deep chuckle from somewhere inside me. A little levity was all it took to get me to look to more obvious words.
Hypnosis
1: an artificially induced trance state resembling sleep, characterized by heightened susceptibility to suggestion.
2: hypnotism.
I read that definition several times, heated and more turned on after each repetition, of everything she'd done to me, that was what I couldn't get enough of. For my libido, only one alternate definition kept it from being perfect.
3: fiery, searing, soothing eyes, moth-mode
hypnosis makes me the moth to Her flame
"Don't close your eyes," I told myself, fearing how clear those eyes would burn in the darkness of my memory. It became a chant to stop myself, that barely worked; I put so much effort into it that I never noticed the change in the inner voice.
"Don't close your eyes."
"Don't close your eyes."
"Don't close your eyes?"
"Don't..close your eyes?"