It is strange walking around in a room full of people with a raging hard on. It wags back and forth with every step. It's hard to miss and I was surprised that I was not more self conscious than I was. I was not the only guy with a hard on and pretty much everyone was naked, but still, it caught a lot of eyes. Not just from the women. As I mentioned, I'm pretty happy with the little guy. Big enough to stretch but not so big as to not fit. Certainly bigger than most.
I walked back to the center room, looking for Fiona. I found her leaned over one hump of one of the sex chairs, sucking on a guy sitting in the dip in the middle while another guy was taking her from behind. I could easily pick up on her pleasure; she was having a splendid time. I left her to it and began to walk toward the first room where I had throat fucked Li.
She was no longer mounted on the device. I did not see her, or Sam, but I did see the woman who owned the slave in the last room, the one who had flicked the slave's clit. And who I had finger fucked to the point of high arousal.
She approached me and said, "I can't believe you were able to get your cock in that slave's throat. That was something to watch."
I said, "I'm glad you enjoyed it. I certainly did. And so did Li, before it was all over."
"I could tell. In fact, it was like I could sort of feel what she was feeling."
I said, "Well, she was feeling a lot."
"It was kind of like I could feel what it feels like to be a submissive. I had no idea."
"You seemed to pick up on what your own slave was feeling, too."
"She's not really mine. I have a couple, but they are men. I did not bring them. I just brought her for a friend, but yes, it was like I could feel what she felt. Not just when I stroked her. She felt so powerless. And she had surrendered to it. I never understood the appeal of being a bottom.
"Then when you were fucking Li. I could feel what she felt, too. Or it seemed like it. And I could feel her powerlessness, too. It was so erotic, I had no idea."
I did not say anything while she paused. She did not say anything for minute, then looked down a little, breaking eye contact, and said, "I'd like you to do me that way. I want to feel what she did."
I waited a long moment before saying, "You know what she felt was not just about a cock in her throat, right?"
She looked up. "I know. I've sucked cock before. This is something else. Something more than that. I'm not sure what, exactly, but I think I'd like to experience it." She looked down again, as though she was embarrassed or something.
I did not say anything. I thought about it, partly to know what I thought about it and partly to know how to respond to her. She looked up at me again, a little expectant, perhaps thinking I would reject her.
I finally said, "Her experience was only possible because she had surrendered. Surrendered her own agency. She had no control at all. You are a dominant, or at least I assume so if you have slaves of your own. How are you going to be able to surrender to me?"
"I know. I'm not sure why I even want to. But I want to. Yeah, I know it means giving up control." She paused, then said, "Somehow I was able to feel what the slave was feeling. I mean, sort of. I don't understand it. I'm not usually all that empathic, to be honest. But I was picking up a lot from her. She had an incredible, intense experience. I want to feel it myself, not just what I picked up second hand.
"I sort of had the same experience with my friend's slave. You were there. I flicked her clit and I felt it, too. It was almost like I felt what she did. I went on to play with her and it was sort of like I was being played with. Then this thing with the other slave, the one suspended on the spider. You were there, too. I think this all has something to do with you. At least I think you can make me feel things. So I want to feel things. Like the slavegirl felt."
This was a little challenging. I really did not want people to know what I was doing. Or more accurately, that I was doing the things they were experiencing. I was fine with people picking up stuff through the resonance, but I wanted to stay anonymous in all that.
So, on the one hand I wanted to remain as incognito as I could. On the other, I'd had some of the most powerful sexual experiences I had ever had. Seems like I have some dominant tendencies I was not really aware of. The whole thing with Li, however had set that on fire. That had to be what it was that made having her so desirable and so rewarding. And, I had fucked Dani like a man possessed. I was quite aggressive, quite dominant.
It's not like either woman had not liked the experience. Quite the opposite. But I was learning stuff about myself. I had always been quite focused on making sure sex was a positive experience for the woman because that made it feel better to both of us. Not just her. Believe it or not, I'm actually a nice guy.
Being around someone who is submissive complicates all that. What feels good to her may be rough treatment. It is the secondary reward of not being in control, of being helpless or powerless, that makes her feel good. Even if that involves some physical pain or discomfort, it still makes her feel good. Even if it feels bad it feels good. Kind of a mind fuck, really, for me anyway.
I had noticed that when I spanked Susan it did not feel bad to her. I mean it hurt, but it also felt good somehow. And it felt good to me. I was thinking maybe that had to do with her not being in control. She did not want to be in control. She wanted me to be. And it appears I was happy to do so.
My dominant tendencies seem to be in part a reaction to someone else's submissiveness. That was the case with Susan. It was the case here, with both Li and Dani. This woman seemed to work the other way around. Reacting to my dominance, she found her own submissive side stimulated.
"What is your name?"
"Elise."
"You are sure you want to be fully submissive to me?"
She paused, then said, "I'm pretty sure. Sure as I can be. I might find out I don't like it, but it will be temporary. I want to feel what she did. Personally, not just as a bystander."
I thought about her request. In some ways it might make me stick out more and I had already been more visible than had really intended. Though there was a lot more going on than just what I was part of. There was some serious fucking going on and it was not as though everyone was just standing around watching me doing it. Everyone was pretty busy fucking. And, truth be told, I had gotten a great deal out of fucking Li and wondered if I would not like fucking Elise nearly as much.
"You know you would have to be mounted like she was."