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My name's Jenny and I'm twenty. I like the little rhyme; it makes me smile. I think I have a birthday coming up soon, but I'll have to check with the Mistresses.
I was a really ungrateful kid. I wasn't dumb, I don't think, but I didn't try very hard in school. I didn't even try very hard to get other people to do things for me. My parents took care of me and bought me stuff; we weren't rich by any means, but we weren't poor, either. I didn't whine for more toys or new clothes all that often, but that wasn't because I had any real clue about our finances. Whining itself seemed like a lot of effort, and the one time I was motivated enough to launch a week-long whining, pouting, and sulking campaign, it didn't even work. No fancy pet cat for Jenny, boo-hoo.
When I got a little older, I got a phone, which I became absolutely obsessed with. I never got a car, but then again, I never bothered getting a license. Some boy was always willing to give me a ride if I needed to go someplace.
Isn't memory funny? I know that all of that stuff is true, but, in those rare moments when I try to remember specifics, most of it gets fuzzy. In a way, I feel like my life began when I got to college, and everything before that was a spoiled child's silly dream. It kinda was. The same way little kids don't really get it when Great-Grandma dies, I just didn't "get it" about a lot of stuff back then -- all the way up through high school, really, which I barely graduated. That's a little embarrassing.
A few more memories do stand out. They're much more recent; they're also about how I got to college, so it makes sense that they're clearer.
I remember my parents sitting at the kitchen table, waiting for me, with pamphlets, brochures, and a contract all laid out. I remember the looks on their faces. They were so sad to see their little girl go -- not that I knew I was going, at the time! -- but also so proud of me. I hadn't seen them look at me with pride for a long time, and it made me feel a whole lot of things at once. I was confused, and maybe even a little scared. I felt guilty, too, because, even in my silly, selfish, eighteen-year-old daze, I knew I hadn't done anything recently to make them proud.
I remember that glass of milk. It was unlike anything I'd ever tasted before, but immediately felt familiar. It warmed me up inside like hot cocoa on a cold winter's day. That warm feeling traveled up into my brain, and it... sorted my emotions. Does that make sense? The bad feelings didn't go away. I just knew, suddenly, exactly how to make them go away, and that I wanted to. Mom and Dad explained the scholarship and said it was a great school and a great opportunity. I remember them talking about music, dancing, and even animals. I smiled and nodded along. I signed all the papers. I knew it would make the guilt go away, and it did, like magic. When Mommy hugged me and told me she was proud, I knew I'd earned it. It felt so good. When Daddy told me I was doing the right thing for my future, all my nervousness vanished. He was right. Of course he was right.
Things get fuzzy again, but they stay warm. Mommy and Daddy stayed proud; it didn't matter anymore that I didn't have a job, because I was going to be a college girl. I drank more of that delicious milk -- one glass every morning, and one glass every night. Mistress... no, it was still Mommy, then... started cuddling with me every night before bed. She'd give me kisses, tell me how good I was being, and then leave to go have fun with Daddy. The warm feeling from the milk would travel up into my brain and down into my belly, and then spread to all sorts of fun places. I'd have lots of fun with those fun places, and then go to sleep. I didn't even think about my phone anymore. I had no idea where it had gone, and didn't care. Silly websites and fake friends couldn't compare to having fun with my body.
A nice lady from the college came to visit us, and she became my new best friend -- the first real friend I'd had in what had seemed like forever. She was beautiful, and I immediately knew I could trust her. She looked like a college student who'd just graduated and immediately become a professor. Her short, dark, feathered hair; her chic glasses; the wine-stained lipstick on her pillowy lips; her breasts, big and yet buoyant; her narrow waist and flared hips, immediately becoming toned thighs and legs and then traveling down, down, so far down to professional-looking pumps... she was everything I could be, if only I obeyed. She was smart, successful, confident, and in control.
That only made me happier with my decision to matriculate. I knew she could help me become the best version of myself.
Things get fuzzy again. Did Mommy come with us to all those places, or was it just me and Mistress Vivienne? She told me to call her that, and that warm feeling from that delicious milk let me know that that was exactly how to keep feeling good. Honestly, I feel a little silly that I didn't realize right away that she deserved to be called my Mistress, but I was still in the process of waking up. There were still things I didn't 'get.'
I remember everything about her clearly, but the expressions on her face most of all. The first time I called her "Mistress Vivienne," she was pleased and proud. I knew I wanted to do anything and everything to keep her that way -- to see that expression over and over again. It turned out to be simple and easy; I just went everywhere she wanted me to go and did everything she said.
I can feel her soft, strong fingers running through my hair as I lay in the dipping pod, getting bubbled and sudsed and tingled until I was baby smooth everywhere. When the hairnet went on and the world faded to black -- blockers, to protect my eyes as some nice older lady bubbled and sudsed my face and neck -- Mistress Vivienne just kept shushing and cooing at me. It was like a song. I never once got scared. Even though the work on my eyebrows tickled terribly, I stayed still, because she told me to.
The rest of my time at the clinic is fuzzier. I think I actually went to sleep, off and on. I remember those fingers again, though. I remember beautiful doctors and pretty nurses who all smiled at me, pleased and proud that I was so obedient. Their touches were friendly, but firm, and I was happy to let them guide me anywhere, because that's what Mistress Vivienne wanted. Then there was the milky warmth flooding into me -- into my mouth, into my pussy, and into my bum. I remember the words, and they were almost a song:
"beautiful, inside and out."
As I woke up from one treatment or another, I also "woke up" in a brand new way -- one more step towards being a real college girl. My fun places felt even more fun, and I had more of them, too. Then it was back to the clinic, day in and day out: warm milk in my belly, in my pussy, in my bum; hazy, asleep, then more awake than ever; warmer and warmer, more and more fun feelings, all the time. My fingernails were trimmed, polished, and clean. My toes were, too, and my feet looked so soft and dainty. Was that when I got thin in all the right places? I think it was. I can't remember eating much of anything -- just so much of that wonderful milk. I was absorbing it and digesting it, but it wasn't like normal food. It was becoming a part of me. If there's anything like a timeline as the memories fade in and out, blur, and blend together, it's that.
I remember Mistress Vivienne and the hairdresser at that fancy salon clucking and tutting at how I'd neglected my hair. That made me feel bad, but then there was warm water and massaging fingers -- not Mistress', but very talented. There was a little snipping, but not much. There were strange chemical smells, and then heat. Just like at the clinic, I was never scared. Mistress was there. I didn't really have to do anything at all. Obeying her was so easy. Making her happy was so easy.
After they were done with me, I saw myself in the mirror. I had beautiful, rich, wavy, blonde hair that was just long enough to tickle the tops of my perky titties. I think they call that 'burying the lede,' though, because next, I saw my face -- and it
was
still my face, but... better. It was just better in every way. My creamy white skin was smooth and clear -- a lot like Mistress Vivienne's, just a different color. My nose had a smooth concave slope, and the tall part was thin in the middle, making a vague, elongated, hourglass shape. Even my nostrils looked cute! My lips were fuller, and had a natural pout to them that was sexy and innocent at the same time; there was no lipstick on them, and yet they looked rich and moist. When I parted them in happy surprise, my teeth looked like something out of a dentist's office pamphlet -- the 'after,' not the 'before,' silly! My eyebrows were just dark enough to add some character to my face -- a hint of auburn enriching the blonde. Below them, my lashes were thicker, my eyes were wider, and my irises were the dark green of a mysterious forest.
That's the hitch; my old face fades away in my memory, except for the eyes. I know I'd had brown eyes at some point. I'd never disliked them, but with the new hair and prettier face surrounding that unique shade of green, I didn't miss them, either.
I wasn't confused or upset at all, in fact; how could I have been, with Mistress Vivienne's compliments tickling my brain, and her fingers tickling my hair, then my face, and then the nape of my neck? I remember seeing my new face react to those sensations, and liking what I saw. I immediately promised her I'd take better care of myself, hair to toes.
"Good girl." That's what she said. My face reflected my sudden flush of happiness, and looked even more beautiful looking back at me from that big mirror.