I dragged myself out of bed sometime around three in the afternoon. Another four hours of sleep helped but I knew it wasn't going to be enough to make up for missing an entire night. I knew I'd have to be careful with my time for the rest of the day or I would be worthless tomorrow as well.
I could always call in sick again,
I mused. I knew I couldn't get away with that for long before I'd get someone at Physical Facilities riding my ass about how floors don't clean themselves.
A little fatigue is nothing a long shower and a redbull can't solve.
The shock of the not-quite-warm-yet water hitting my face brought everything back to me. At least it gave me time to think. Some of it was a bit hazy, but there was still enough there to make my mind titter with the implications.
Maggie kissed me.
She had never- and I mean never- done that before. Not on the lips, and not like... that.
And the way she was acting...
Then came the realization that while I had not had that firm chat with her about my name, it seemed like I wouldn't need to.
She called me Benjamin, not Benji. And more than once.
I ran through it all again in my head, over and over. Aside from the one quick request she had previously all but ignored, she had stopped calling me
Benji
and starting calling me
Benjamin
. On top of that, she had been grateful for my help. She had seemed almost shy around me, for the first time in- well, ever. And the phrase she had used to justify it all- "a token of my appreciation" was way too close to the fragment I had used to be coincidence. As far as I could tell, there were two mutually-exclusive possibilities- neither of which made any rational sense.
Either she had seen the fragments, read them, and decided that I was right. And then acted on them.
Yeah right. After years of calling me Benji and treating me with as much affection as she might show a girlfriend, a few phrases on a screen convinced her to change her mind and her behavior.
Or... The fragments she had seen and discarded as not part of her play had actually altered her mind and changed her behavior.
Right. Because seeing text on a screen can automatically be integrated into one's subconscious and conscious persona without any cognitive dissonance or displacement.
Then I realized what I had just said to myself.
As I was drying off from my shower I went back over the last few days in my head and came to a few actionable conclusions. Firstly, using dictionary definitions as meaningless fragments was an insidious way to increase one's vocabulary to levels that laymen might consider annoying if not outright counterproductive to effective communication and should therefore be avoided.
Second, as insane as it might sound, the possibility that the fragments were capable of altering behavior was actually a simpler explanation than Maggie changing a decade's worth of behavior in the course of literally two hours. Allowing that such a thing was possible at all, of course.
And third, I needed more data before I could come to any serious conclusion. I couldn't just come out and ask Maggie what had changed her mind about it. Her answer would be biased either way. I had to find a way to test if the fragments could impact someone's behavior enough to get them to do something they wouldn't normally do- but in a way that I could back out of as just a joke if it turns out it didn't work.
As I was getting dressed I ruled out using myself as a guinea pig for this experiment. I'd be just as likely to suffer from bias as any other test subject- and incapable of objectively measuring changes. So it had to be someone else. Maggie was an obvious option. I even had opportunity with her once she found a digital copy of her play. I could split it up into separate training sessions, one for each act, with some excuse as to why to spread out the exposure and changes. But no- Maggie was too important to me to test something with such... imposing implications before I knew what I was doing.
What I needed was someone else. Someone who knew me well enough that I could talk them into sitting down for a training session. Someone who worked within a well enough established set of behavioral norms that I could use them as means of testing the strength of the fragments. And, on top of all of that, someone that I wouldn't mind pushing, if not outright breaking normal moral and ethical boundaries in what amounted to an attempt at potentially extreme behavioral modification.
In other words... I needed a victim I was willing to sacrifice if I fucked something up. My options were pretty limited in that regard. Thankfully, they weren't nonexistent. Remember when I mentioned I had developed a few bad habits over the years? Ones that had contributed to my lack of progress towards going back to college?
Rachel was one of them.
Allow me to explain. As I said before, Maggie had all but ruined me for anything resembling a serious relationship. And I'll admit that my own low self-esteem and self-confidence pretty much did the rest. We'll call it 50-50 and leave it at that. Yeah, I mentioned I can be an asshole- says the guy who's actively planning on toying with the mind of another human being without their consent.
So- when you can't have a real relationship, sometimes it's just easier to resort to fake ones. Rachel wasn't the first "escort" that I had developed a professional relationship with- she was just the most recent one. Now remember, I'm not an idiot. I didn't go find some random hooker on the street. I used an escort service that specialized in college aged women with respectable backgrounds. Granted, I never took them out to grand galas or state dinners- but money was money and they didn't seem to mind so much. Once I found one that I got along well with- and who was willing to... push the boundaries of what might otherwise be legal- I stuck with her for a while.
Inevitably they would eventually grow out of the business. Or move on. Or hell, there was the ever present threat of them graduating, getting real jobs, and moving away. Think of it like stripping to pay for college- just a bit more upscale. Problem was, upscale came with an increase in costs as well. The benefit was that it came with a considerable decrease in risk. Besides, I'd never talked Rachel into anything more than blowjob before. Like I said- I'm not stupid.
Well... not with that anyway. One could easily counter that it was a waste of money that could have been put too much better use in saving towards college. And they'd be right. I was in a rut- remember? Get off my back.
A phone call and a short conversation later, and I had a "date" for later that night. No guarantee it would be Rachel, of course, but they would do their best. Especially after I offered to pay extra for the special request. The same rules applied as always. I was paying for the company of an intelligent woman for an evening and she was to check in with the agency by midnight. Nothing more. Anything else was up to the individual girl in question and was not the business of the escort service in any way. I verbally consented, betting the call was being recorded. I live in a "single party" state when it comes to permission to record. They didn't have to tell me if they were doing it.
The rest of the evening I spent trying to maintain my caffeine enhanced mental state as I worked on a new fragment list. This one was named "ESCORT", with "Rachel" as the password. You know, it might sound easy to think of random fragments, but after a time I found coming up with a long enough list on my own starting to get daunting. After all, the real list had to have a series of statements that were inherently true and wouldn't likely have an impact on the user. "The sky is blue", and "2 + 2 = 4" type of stuff only goes so far. But after an hour or two I had something I thought would work and yet be innocent enough to have no real effect- if they were having any affect at all. I hadn't really shown that to be true just yet.
Then, as I sat down to get started on the naughty list I was reminded of the other password protected files already on the machine. Why encrypt and password protect the files that contained the fragments? The training station had come preloaded with random problem sets- just meaningless word problems and number sets. But those weren't protected at all. Was there something in those fragment sets the original developers wanted to hide? Maybe they had figured it out too and the protection was there to keep prying eyes from noticing something unethical, if not outright illegal. It would go a long way to explain why the lab that developed the prototype had stopped publishing so suddenly and then all but disappeared into private industry.
I bet getting a look at those lists would give me more insight into this machine, and what it can do, than all of the papers I memorized combined.
But there wasn't anything I could do about it now.
Spoze I could code some sort of brute force algorithm to crack the passwords. Not like it locks me out after three failed attempts or anything like that.
But that was for later. Right now I needed to get a list ready for Rachel- or whomever it was that arrived in her place.
I decided I was going to propose that this little setup was a "project" I was trying to put together. If I could impress someone in the engineering department, or so I'd say to my intended victim, then maybe they would let me back in and allow me to finish my degree. With that little lie in mind I started adding things to the fragment list.