Author's Note - I am fairly new here and this is my first attempt at writing anything. Your suggestions and feedback are welcome. Happy reading!
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Have you ever felt a conflict within yourself, doubted yourself of who you really are and what you want?
I am Ava, 32, average built, 5'4" with long dark hair and brown eyes. I live alone and have a corporate job in a leadership position.
I have always considered my personality to be a bit dominating, be it my job or my personal life. I like to be in control of things around me and am pretty good at it.
However, when it comes to sex I feel the need to give up control. I don't know how or when I realized this, but I have submissive tendencies.
This is what puts me in a dilemma, how can I have these submissive feelings during sex when I like to dominate people in other aspects of my life.
Due to this nature, it is difficult finding sexual partners, who know me, to understand my need to be dominated in bedroom rather than being in control.
But I guess it is what it is, so there is no point of denying it, sex is anyways just a part of my lifestyle, so its not like I am going to change my whole personality for it.
So to satisfy that need I end up reading eroticas online. I am an avid reader and like to give in to the imagination. My favorite type of stories are the mind control ones because I relate to it on some level. Like in real life I always have these apprehensions to admit my submissive nature, so if someone took control of my mind without my consent and brings out that side of me I would truly be able to satiate my needs.
But its all a fantasy, and also I don't believe it is possible to control mind or get hypnotised. So, I just enjoy the fictional stories and get off on it.
Back to the current day, I got back home from work and finished up my chores and finally found some time to go online and get to the mind control section, scrolling through the stories. I stumble upon a story titled 'In your mind', about a young girl interning as an assistant for a famous author who writes dark romance, mind control stories and eroticas. She is taking dictations from him for the story he is writing. She sits in a dimly lit room, in front of a computer while he walks quietly behind her, describing an erotic scene involving hypnosis of the female protagonist. The intern keeps on typing as he describes all the hypnotic details, while noticing a slight flicker of the light bulb above her. He keeps going on and gradually she notices him standing right beside her, the flicker of the light bulb distracting her. She can hear him whispering those words directly in her ears, her fingers going slack over the keyboard. It gets really hard to concentrate, her vision slightly hazy by the constant flickering of light. She can feel his fingers reaching inside her waistband, inside her panties. He is still whispering to her but she is not listening to him, she is too busy feeling his fingers inside her panties that have now slipped to her folds, while his other hand reaches for her breasts underneath her shirt. She cannot do anything, she can't move her hands or her feet, just sitting there while her body and mind becomes a slave to him.
I keep on reading the story while the intern gets brainwashed by the author and by the end of it I realise I am soaking wet. I cannot believe how powerfully erotic the story was. I usually jump between a few stories to get this horny but I am impressed that this one story left such an impact. I click on the author's profile, his username 'MesmerizingYou'. I am assuming its a 'he' judging by the way he wrote the story about the author. His profile picture is of a colorful spiral, no not picture, more like a GIF because I can see the spiral moving, the lovely combination of the colors moving at perfect pace, it truly is mesmerizing. I keep looking at it for a few minutes, enchanted by the swirl of the colors.
After sometime I notice there is an email ID mentioned in the contact details and I feel like reaching out to him to tell him how good the story was. So, I open a new email and send him a message
Hello,
I just read one of your stories 'In your mind' and I cannot even express how much I enjoyed it. I was amazed by how you so eloquently described her descent to a mind controlled slave.
Thankyou for turning around my dull and boring day with your mesmerizing words.
Would love to hear from you.
Ava.
And hit Send.
Not sure why I wrote that last sentence, I just wanted to appreciate a good story, why would I want to hear back from him? Maybe just out of habit I guess, I usually end my emails with such closing lines.
Its not like he will write back to me, I am sure he would be getting such emails from many readers. Without giving it much thought, I go back to his profile and read some other stories written by him.
By the time I am done reading a few more stories I realise how horny and wet I am. I think I should call it a day now before I go down the rabbit hole and read another story. Just as I am about to close my application, I get an email notification pop up, it is from the author. I am surprised to see that he actually wrote back to me.
Hi Ava,
Glad you liked and enjoyed my story. As an author, I really appreciate hearing from my readers on how my stories have affected them.
What did you like the most about that story?
MesmerizingYou
There was that little spiral under his signature, and I just kept looking at it again, lost in the way it swirled. Shaking myself out of it I wrote my reply:
I really liked the way the girl was brought under control through hypnosis. She did not know nor did it willingly, which made it even more exciting. The complete surrender of control was what I liked the most.
Ava
I get another reply amost instantly
I am happy to hear your thoughts. It looks like we both share a fantasy for mind control, would you like to discuss more on this on a chat. I will be available on the below link if you want to talk.
MesmerizingYou
There was that spiral again, I don't know what was so intriguing about it, but I was lost in it again. It was intriguing and relaxing at the same time.
I did not plan on chatting with him, it was just supposed to be one email. I know I shouldn't click that link but I get distracted by that spiral, urging me to click the link. Its only a chat, what harm could it do? With that thought I click on the link.
It opens to a new customized chat window and I can see he is already available there.
[Ava] : Hi, I don't really meet mind control authors in chatroom
[MesmerizingYou] : It is new for me too, but don't worry we are just chatting.
[Ava] : Yeah, you are right.
[MesmerizingYou] : So mind control excites you? Have you ever experienced it?
[Ava] : Yes it does excite me but no I haven't experienced it. I don't think it is possible to hypnotise anyone into being a sex slave or something.
[MesmerizingYou] : I get it, see it is just a story meant for reader's enjoyment. There is obviously a difference between fantasy and reality, but let me tell you hypnosis is very much real. I see it as a means of relaxation which may help you lose your inhibitions.
[Ava] : Okay, so you mean you have hypnotised people before?