Author's Note: This is my first story, and also my first creative writing attempt. I hope you enjoy it! This story is most heavily inspired by Greyscribbler's fantastic Fair Share. Standard disclaimer applies: this story contains graphic depictions of nonconsensual sex, so if it's illegal or immoral for you to be reading this, stop now! All characters and situations are entirely fictional. Copyright Fidget, © 2020. All rights reserved. Thanks for reading!
Pregnancy Hangups
Chapter 1
by Fidget
"So you don't want children then?"
"No, Amy! I
do
want children, very badly. I just don't want to get pregnant. That's why I wanted to talk to you—I need your advice."
"Why don't you want to get pregnant?" Amy asked.
"I don't know, I just get physically ill whenever I think about all of the changes that go along with pregnancy. It just seems so
wrong
," Jill said.
"Well, the most important thing is
getting
pregnant—after that everything everything happens naturally, whether you're squicked out about it or not."
"I know that, Amy! You don't think I've tried? Whenever Don and I try to have sex, if we're not using some sort of protection, I get physically disgusted whenever he brings his thing anywhere near me!"
"Have you told him what the problem is?"
"Yes, and he's been great about it. He's disappointed, but supportive. We've even been to a couple of marriage counselors, but I just haven't been able to kick my phobia. I can't even go through with artificial insemination, since I have a panic attack whenever I try to make an appointment for one. So, since you're my best friend, and I value your perspective more than anyone else's, I wanted to let you know what was going on, and see if you had any advice for me."
"Wow, Jill, I had no idea. I'm sorry you're having to go through this. I really do appreciate the vote of confidence, and I'll do whatever I can to help, of course. But this may be above my pay grade."
"I know. I just wanted to give it a try. I'm desperate. At this point, I'll try pretty much anything."
"Ok. I'll dig around a bit when I get home, and see if there are any unorthodox ways of getting over phobias that we can try."
"Thanks Amy, I really appreciate it." Jill said, and then she hung up.
A few hours later, Amy started looking online for weird approaches that people had taken to dealing with their fears. Drugs seemed a bit dangerous and extreme. Tricking people into doing an activity they were scared of without them knowing was an option, but Amy really didn't want to deceive her best friend, and she wasn't sure how Jill would react once she found out she had been lied to. Jill needed to
want
to get pregnant, but how was Amy going to be able to change her mind?
Late that night she came across a forum for people using hypnosis to cure their phobias. The method that the users there found most effective was a specific video file, with a simple spiral visual and a backing audio track that you could customize. The audio started off with a pretty standard induction formula, and then had a few minutes of blank space to record whatever instructions you wanted. This audio track was then blended with a calming brown noise filter, so that the instructions were just out of reach of the subject's consciousness hearing. The file was getting rave reviews, and many of the forum's users claimed to have been completely cured by it.
Amy was far from convinced about the efficacy of hypnosis, but it was the least insane option she'd found all night, so she decided to give it a try. She downloaded the file and got to work. A day later the finished video was ready to go, so she called Jill and invited her over to her small studio apartment.
At first, Jill was extremely skeptical about trying a random hypnosis file from the internet, but after Amy assured her that she'd made it and recorded it herself, she started to come around. Amy handed her a transcript of the audio on the file, so that Jill would know exactly what instructions she would be receiving.
"Wow, this is really raunchy! I can't believe you actually recorded yourself saying this stuff! And why'd you put the part about not being able to delete it?" Jill asked after reading the transcript of the instructions.
"Because I know how squeamish you are about this, and I don't want you to get scared and back out, if this is what you really want."
"Oh, good idea. Yes, it's definitely what I want. I don't think it'll work, but I said I'd try anything, so let's do it!"
Jill handed her the TV remote. "Ok, all you have to do is press 'Play'. This first time it's set to play all the way through ten times straight, just to form a strong baseline for the conditioning. That's why I had you come over here, so that you wouldn't be interrupted by Don for the next hour. I've emailed you the file as well, so that you'll be able to watch it when you're home alone."
"That makes sense. Wow, you've really thought this through! But what are
you
going to do? Are you just going to hang out in the bathroom for the next hour?" Jill asked.
"No, I'll be over here on my laptop. You have to be watching the video for the audio to have any effect, and the TV is at a weird angle from here, so I won't be able to see it very well anyway. Plus, I have some work I need to do."
"Ok." Jill picked up the remote, took a deep breath, and pressed the button. She giggled a bit at the stereotypical swirling spiral on the screen, and tried to see if she could hear the instructions embedded in the constant stream of brown noise. She felt like she could almost make them out, like they were dancing around the edge of her consciousness. She concentrated on the noise harder, but wasn't quite able to catch what was being said. And the spiral was so distracting! Maybe if she...
A few minutes later Amy glanced over at Jill, and was amused to see that she was on the edge of her seat, slack-jawed, eyes wide open, staring intently at the screen.
Wow, she seems pretty deeply under
, Amy thought.
I wonder if it's working
. Amy glanced at the screen, seeing the swirling spiral she'd been working with for the past few days while making the video. She wondered why people claimed it was so effective, and guessed that it was the way the spiral drew your eyes down into the center, forcing you to concentrate harder to avoid the distracting spinning arms around the perimeter. She remembered feeling a bit of a trippy sensation when looking at it straight on for an extended period of time, but she couldn't quite see it from this angle.
Her mind drifted back to the script that she'd written for Jill:
"Whenever you're alone and bored, you'll open up this file and watch it without even thinking about it. You won't be able to delete it, and you won't want to in the first place. Watching this video is relaxing, and you always look forward to seeing it again.
"You want to be pregnant. That's why you're watching this. But even more than that, you want to
get
pregnant. You want to have unprotected sex with a man until he cums inside you. And then you want to do it again, and again, until you miss your period and feel his baby growing in you.
"You look forward to the changes your body goes through in pregnancy. It's a huge turn-on to think about your body swelling, filling with life. It's a sign that you and your man have fulfilled your purpose, reproduction, and you feel more and more beautiful as your pregnancy proceeds. And once you've delivered? Well, you know there's nothing hotter than a milf.
