I woke Sunday morning after a fitful and dreamless sleep. The first thing I noticed was the pain. Had I been drinking? My head hurt like I had been on the mother of all benders, and the morning sun seared my eyes closed. I tried again to force them open, but the room swam around me.
The bed beside me was warm, and the touch of Emily's bare form eased the pain. I couldn't remember what we had done last night, and that bothered me, but all was well so long as I woke beside her.
"I love you," I whispered as I pulled her closer.
She pressed back sleepily, rubbing herself against me as my arms wrapped around. So easy to find her breast in my hand, the scent of her hair in my face. Had she changed products? It smelled different today. Tantalizingly familiar, but not her usual.
She let out a soft, sleepy moan of appreciation as my hands strayed lower. If only I could, I would have loved nothing more than to stay in bed with her all day. No such luck, I had things to do.
I made my way downstairs and straight to the fridge. A couple eggs, a bit of milk, and a stir of the whisk until they were smooth and creamy. My train of thought slipped away, and I must have stared at the frying pan for nearly five minutes before I came awake.
What was I doing again?
Oh. right, making Catherine breakfast in bed. The pan took a minute to warm up, so I began cutting all the slices into romantic heart shapes that I knew she would adore. Smiling in satisfaction, I set them on the pan and watched them sizzle.
Why
was I making her breakfast in bed? My head was way too fuzzy, but this was important. Everything was moving on autopilot this morning, actions taken with out any understanding.
The shapes did look absolutely adorable, and I was proud of that, but everything about this was a terrible I idea. The absolute last thing I wanted was to encourage Catherine's attentions, and that's exactly what this would accomplish. I should have stopped there, but for some reason I didn't. Or rather, I couldn't. I couldn't remember why, but knew that was very, very important I take care of this. I shook my head, trying to clear out the cobwebs, but it didn't really help. Too early to think, just focus on preparing a nice, romantic breakfast for Catherine.
Romantic?
The thought slipped past before I could fully grasp hold. With each passing moment, the haze in my mind cleared, but it was still like trying to peep through a frosted windowpane. I could catch rough outlines, but detail seemed to elude me. Something was wrong, but without any understanding my worries slipped away.
Breakfast complete, I arranged everything nicely onto the tray. French toast, heavily slathered in thick maple syrup (Catherine's favorite), a small bowl of fresh strawberries, and a glass of orange juice. It all looked tasty, and I was sure she'd love it, but there was something missing.
"Could use a few flowers or something," I muttered, still barely than half awake, "Too bad I don't have a rose, that would be really romantic."
Romantic. Again with that word. That isn't right. Why am I-
Actually, we did have roses, but I could't just-
"This is a terrible idea," I told myself as I stood beside Emily's prize winning Rose bush. "If she finds out I cut one, she's going to kill me."
It would be so romantic, though, and breakfast didn't wasn't complete without one. It was so very important that Catherine love every bit of it. I should do whatever was necessary to make her happy.
Something hung just barely out of reach in my mind. Some all important memory that would explain everything if only I could grasp it, but I couldn't.
Oh well, if it was really important, I'd remember sooner or later. For now, I had to bring this up to Catherine.
Why Catherine, though? Why her and not my beloved wife?
That was an important question, but I couldn't remember why. I worked it over, puzzling it out as I slowly approached the door. Something was there, just on the cusp of realization, if only I could tease it out. I hadn't made breakfast for my wife because, because...
Because she was still out of town.
"Good morning, daddy," Catherine said, smiling as she sat up and let the covers fall to her waist.
Her face beamed innocently as she propped herself up in her bed. The bed, I now realized, where I had gone to sleep last night. The bed where I had woken this morning. Beside a woman who was not my wife.
Since when did I think of her as a woman?
Since yesterday. There was horror, the beginnings of a terrible memory that I could feel, but not quite grasp.
Remembered, and could do nothing about it.
"I brought you breakfast, sweetie," I said, smiling as I handed her the tray.
No, no! Stop it, this is wrong! I railed against the memory, and against this strange compulsion, but I may as well have been swimming through a raging floodwater. So much easier to just sit back and let the current carry me where it would.
Our hands touched as she took the tray from mine, and I bent down to kiss her on the lips.
"That's so sweet of you, daddy."
She beamed at me, her face still lit with joy at seeing me. It warmed my heart to see her so happy. An immense surge of pride filled me, the satisfaction of brightening the day for someone I cared about, and the pride at a job well done. It was oh so very important to make Catherine happy, because-
Had I really just kissed her? What was wrong with me? I needed to stop this right now.
"Don't look away from me, Daddy. Don't you know it's rude to ignore your girlfriend?"
I looked, I couldn't help myself. There was something about her, something in her voice that just could not be denied. That was how I found myself once again staring at my stepdaughter's tits. I'd meant to look away, or at least keep my eyes at her face, but they drew me in. Maybe it was the lure of the forbidden, or the way she kept sticking her chest out when she caught me looking. She knew. Somehow, she understood how powerless I was to look away, and was exploiting it for all it was worth.
They looked so soft and inviting. I stared openly at them, watching the morning sunlight paint lines of pure radiance across their curves. The sight of them filled my eyes, and a memory of their touch filled my thoughts. Heaven help me, a part of me wanted to touch them again. Distracted as I was, I could see only the faint curve of her lips, which twisted upwards in triumph as she surveyed my helpless admiration.
Why? Why couldn't I look away from her? Then I remembered. I remembered everything.
"No!" I gasped, trying to deny the awful truth. "Tell me this is all just a dream. We didn't, we couldn't have-"
"Of course we did," she giggled. "And you liked it. Didn't you."
"Yes, I loved it," I said automatically.
Emily was going to kill me.
I shook my head, trying to clear away these stubborn influences.
"But that doesn't matter," I told her, "This is
wrong