I understand now. I know my place. I thought I knew it before, but I didn't really. I only wish I hadn't fought this for so long, because I am finally happy. Totally at peace. All along my Goddess knew what was best for me better than I knew myself.
When Sophie comes down in the morning she is fresh from the shower. She cinches her robe tight around her waist. That is as far up her body as I can see, because I am already waiting where she wants me. I am on my hands and knees on the floor next to the breakfast table, offering my body up to her as the most eager chair in the room.
Sophie strides over to me and I can hardly breathe. All I can see are her tanned and toned legs, but it is enough. Being this close to her is overwhelming, even when I'm bowing at her feet.
"Chairs don't typically drool, Matthew," she chides.
"Yes, Goddess," I breathe. I close my mouth and try to shake off the hypnotic trance. I've been doing that a lot lately; losing myself when she is near.
Sophie sits down on my back. My knees and hands are already aching from waiting for her in this position all morning. Sophie does not treat me gently. She sits down like she would on any inanimate chair. All my joints are feeling it and I am in heaven. I quietly thank my Goddess for choosing me. She either doesn't hear me or doesn't see fit to respond. But why should she? After all, I'm literally just her chair this morning.
I hear Hannah come over and set a plate in front of Sophie. She's been awake as long as I have, preparing for Sophie's arrival. Hannah serves our Goddess by cooking and cleaning for her, usually in a skimpy outfit. This morning she is in a lacy, purple lingerie set.
I know that Hannah feels just as incandescent with joy as I do. In the moments when Sophie isn't around we talk to each other and confess our feelings. We both agree that we've never been happier. What started weeks ago as punishment for hooking up behind Sophie's back, has turned into a demonstration of our devotion to her.
I have a hard time reconciling what I feel now with the person I was just a few weeks ago, before Sophie corrected me. I remember stubbornly resisting Sophie's wishes, even when it was a hopeless endeavor. I remember how self-centered I was, focused only on my own joy and pleasure. That is all gone now. Thank Goddess. She is not simply my world, she is my entire universe and every molecule in it. I think, and live, and breathe for her. Hannah and I are a team now. We live to serve her and we are in heaven.
All these changes started a few weeks ago, when Sophie found her best friend, Hannah, and I hooking up. She was furious and rightfully so. I am ashamed that we betrayed her, but I also feel like it was a different man who did that to her. How could I have cheated on her? Instead of basking in the gift that was her teasing and denial of my desires, I went behind her back. Unforgivable. Except, somehow, she has forgiven me.
Before she was able to forgive us, she needed to correct us. I feel I have deserved every ounce of punishment and I thank her for it.