"Come here, Mother."
I shuddered within the privacy of my body, thankful that he couldn't see my eyes squinted in disgust.
"I'm tired of this game," I said. His eyes took on a mildly droopy look of puzzlement, his lips parted on the way to a frown.
"What do you mean?" he asked. "I thought you liked to play."
"I like to play," I said, "but I'm tired of this mother-son game. It's not right; there's nothing natural about it."
I hated playing Mother. He liked it when I took control of him, disciplined him in a way that would have been forbidden, had we actually been of our roles. For months, I'd been bossing him around, making strict demands into his ear, allowing my bothered breath to tease his lobes while I sent mother's orders his way.
It was a fascinating arrangement at first, this game of pretend. A warped game of House. But spanking my naughty boy when he'd gotten himself grounded was so trite, and I was bored of having to do all the real work. I wanted our time together to feel true -- this roleplay felt wrong when I gave it too much thought, and I was tired of feeling morally off when I did things that were, well, morally off.
I continued to face the wall, which was cold to the touch. Only the tips of my toes knew this, at first. When he saw that I wasn't going to budge, he came up behind me and rubbed his hands up and down my arms, creating a friction of affection, attempting to make nice. He leaned in and kissed the nape of my neck, the very top of my spine, and let his face sink into the curve below my left ear and above my shoulder. As he leaned into me with just a hint of his weight, I leaned with him and let the front of my body slowly merge with the wall. My nipples stiffened to attention at the shock of such a chilly surface.
He picked up his head and rested his lips over my ear.