"Come here, Mother."
I shuddered within the privacy of my body, thankful that he couldn't see my eyes squinted in disgust.
"I'm tired of this game," I said. His eyes took on a mildly droopy look of puzzlement, his lips parted on the way to a frown.
"What do you mean?" he asked. "I thought you liked to play."
"I like to play," I said, "but I'm tired of this mother-son game. It's not right; there's nothing natural about it."
I hated playing Mother. He liked it when I took control of him, disciplined him in a way that would have been forbidden, had we actually been of our roles. For months, I'd been bossing him around, making strict demands into his ear, allowing my bothered breath to tease his lobes while I sent mother's orders his way.
It was a fascinating arrangement at first, this game of pretend. A warped game of House. But spanking my naughty boy when he'd gotten himself grounded was so trite, and I was bored of having to do all the real work. I wanted our time together to feel true -- this roleplay felt wrong when I gave it too much thought, and I was tired of feeling morally off when I did things that were, well, morally off.
I continued to face the wall, which was cold to the touch. Only the tips of my toes knew this, at first. When he saw that I wasn't going to budge, he came up behind me and rubbed his hands up and down my arms, creating a friction of affection, attempting to make nice. He leaned in and kissed the nape of my neck, the very top of my spine, and let his face sink into the curve below my left ear and above my shoulder. As he leaned into me with just a hint of his weight, I leaned with him and let the front of my body slowly merge with the wall. My nipples stiffened to attention at the shock of such a chilly surface.
He picked up his head and rested his lips over my ear.
"Don't torture me," he said, just above a whisper.
I said nothing in response. He began to very gently kiss each of the delicate vertebrae that ran down the length of my back, letting two of the fingers on his right hand trace a line parallel to his mouth. I was still wearing my black mesh boy shorts, the underwear that existed only to taunt him. When he reached the waistband, the kisses stopped but the fingers tugged. He was on his knees at this point, his left hand holding my bare waist, his right hand undecided about whether to taste what was underneath the fabric.
My hands were braced against the wall for leverage. My heart rate started to inch up with what I'd hoped could be anticipation, only I didn't expect that he was assertive enough to take from me what he wanted.
When he stood back up, I became aware of the difference in temperatures before and behind me. Goosebumps rose across my abdomen and thighs at the air that hovered in front of me, and yet, a great layer of warmth came upon me from behind, sandwiched most noticeably between my back and his chest.
He let his lips fall back onto the left side of my neck, and I could almost hear his nostrils flaring with impatience. He held onto the left side of my waist with his left hand, and reached around me with his right. His fingers lowered into the crotch of my panties, grazed my clit, and then curved up and inside me. Cradling my cunt with his hand, he brought with careful force his index and middle fingers, the same two that had only minutes before run down my back, up through my inner walls.