Niusha sat down in front of her computer at precisely nine o'clock, just like last night, but she told herself that it didn't mean anything. She had lots of things she could do online, catching up on the news or chatting with her friends or playing one of those dumb Flash games that Maamaan always talked about on Facebook. Just because she raced through her chores and ate microwaved leftovers for dinner so that she could have everything wrapped up before nine, that didn't mean she was following... it didn't mean it was having an... it didn't mean anything. She was just relaxing after a hard day, that was all. Lots of people did it. Niusha didn't have anything to feel guilty about. She-she wasn't even undressed. How could the website be affecting her if she still had all her clothes on?
Niusha opened up her web browser, and her breath caught in her throat for a moment as she saw the familiar spiral begin to unwind in front of her. She heard herself begin to murmur something in bewilderment, but the grunt of confused astonishment died on her lips before it ever became words. This wasn't-she didn't-she hadn't even done anything, Niusha thought to herself. She hadn't typed anything or clicked anything or, or... how did she get here? How did her computer know that she was thinking about The Guiding Dark? (Which she wasn't, not really, but maybe just a little but that didn't mean it was having an effect or anything.)
She stared automatically into the depths of the spiral, watching the colors twist and whirl as she tried to figure out how she wound up here. She had a vague memory last night-all her memories from last night after nine o'clock were kind of vague, which was part of the problem and one of the reasons why she really wasn't planning on staying on the site once she figured out how she got here in the first place. But she had a very vague memory of clicking through some settings in her browser. It didn't seem like a big deal to Niusha at the time, because she was... kind of in the moment, she thought with a blush that turned her tawny skin a warm shade of copper. But maybe she'd done something without thinking?
Niusha already knew the answer to that. She'd done a lot of things without really thinking over the last few weeks, most of them involving gazing helplessly at her computer screen and nodding along to the sound of the soothing voice pouring out of the speakers like warm honey. (Oh. There it was again. She tuned it out without really even trying.) There was just something so hot about the fantasy of being programmed, brainwashed,
trained
to surrender her autonomy and become an obedient Good Girl that Niusha felt a warm shudder of arousal all the way down into her pussy just remembering it.
It wasn't really a surprise that Niusha had gone back to the website every night since she found the link, reblogged in the social media feed that Niusha kept carefully quarantined from anything that might lead back to her real identity. It hit pretty much all of her kinks square on, melting her into an absolute puddle of lust from the moment she heard the first repetition of, "You want me to make you into a Good Girl." (She reflexively capitalized the words in her head now, just as they were written on the pop-up boxes that the site occasionally expected her to click.) She loved to go along with the voice of The Guiding Dark and pretend that he was actually hypnotizing her into lowering her inhibitions and surrendering her will to a strong, dominant man. She'd lost count of the number of times she'd climaxed staring into the spiral and repeating his instructions.
But.
But everything she'd done had been just exactly that. A fantasy. A little game she played with herself, pretending to go deeper and deeper into The Guiding Dark's hypnotic trance every night and feel his pleasure slowly erode her ability to resist his warm, soothing words. (He was still talking, wasn't he? Niusha nodded absently, clicking on a pop-up box that said, 'I want to think less and obey more' without noticing she was doing it.) She didn't really want to become a mindless, obedient slave to some stranger on the Internet; she simply enjoyed the fantasy of giving up on the daily frustrations of dealing with arrogant doctors and demanding patients and sinking into a world of pure bliss where all she had to do was surrender. It was fun, it was sexy, and so of course she went along with it. It wasn't affecting her. He wasn't affecting her.
So it was a little bit of a surprise to find out that somewhere in all of that clicking and staring and furiously masturbating, Niusha had... appeared to... genuinely follow a hypnotic suggestion. She'd changed her homepage to The Guiding Dark's training site. (She almost looked up to check the URL, but then another pop-up box appeared saying, 'I want to belong to The Guiding Dark' and she had to click on the 'I Agree' button, and once the window vanished her train of thought vanished along with it.) That felt a little too close to blurring the lines between fantasy and reality for Niusha's taste, especially when she didn't really remember doing it.
Well, she remembered, because of course she remembered because she was in total control because she wasn't really hypnotized and she could stop anytime she wanted to. But she couldn't seem to really make herself care. She didn't feel like remembering. Even now, the memory seemed to slide down the endless trails of light that spiraled around and down to the center of the screen, diminishing in importance until it simply slipped out of her mind like... like... Niusha experienced a moment of uncertainty at the feeling of familiarity she experienced when she stopped thinking about things. It felt a little too easy to her. A little too comfortable. (But she liked being comfortable, didn't she? Being comfortable was very important. Niusha wriggled out of her skirt so that she could enjoy that sensation of comfort even better.)
Maybe it was a good idea to take a little break. Just for a night or two, just to show that she could stop whenever she wanted and the website wasn't really affecting her mind. Niusha nodded (and clicked on 'I Agree' again, the text now just a blur to her unfocused eyes) and decided that she really did need to take a night off. Not because she was really worried that she was losing her ability to resist the voice that tickled and teased her clit with every whispered word-that would be absurd. No, Niusha simply thought that maybe it would be a good idea to, to demonstrate how strong-willed she was by closing the browser and going to bed a little bit early tonight. She probably needed the sleep anyway. She was feeling so drowsy, so sleepy and relaxed and...