Do you know that feeling when your heart stops and the world stands still?
I've been having a few of those lately--especially regarding Jacob 'Thick Cock' Fimmel.
And here I was again, stuck in one of those moments.
I was probably only holding my breath for a few seconds but it felt like ages.
I couldn't breathe as I locked eyes with Jacob, his meat in his palm as he slowly eased out of my mother.
It must have been my imagination but I swear I saw him smirk at me.
But how could he? He couldn't see me...could he?
I stood there, frozen, my palm still covering my clit as the last of my orgasm throbbed through it.
I must have made a sound when I orgasmed. Why else would he be looking my way?
Shit.
Shit, shit, shit.
Please don't come and check. Please don't.
Stay where you are.
The seconds went by and my mother's voice reached my ears.
"Oh, fuck Jacob," she groaned. "You make me cum every time."
Finally, Jacob pulled his gaze from the closet and grinned down at my mother. He was slipping off the condom now and my mother rolled onto her back.
He slapped her ass as she did so and it was like the sound finally brought me back to reality.
Jacob Fimmel, man of my dreams, just fucked my mom.
They dressed in silence, my mother donning her nurse's uniform and Jacob his suit.
The only indication they'd literally just had sex was Jacob placing his hand passively on my mother's rump as they exited the room.
I watched that hand, eyed it.
I'd always wanted that hand to hold me like that.
Dreamt of it.
Wished for it.
I stayed in the closet for minutes afterward listening, waiting for a chance to exit my hiding place.
I heard the front door close and assumed he'd left but then I heard my mother shuffling around in the kitchen.
Her light footsteps were coming back around to the bedroom and soon she walked in, sipping a strawberry smoothie.
She was humming again.
The same time she'd been humming before.
Round and round the mulberry bush
The monkey chased the weasel
The monkey stopped to pull up his socks
Pop goes the weasel
I frowned as I watched her.
She was smiling. Happy.
My frown deepened.
I hated that.
Well, I didn't hate it. I was jealous of it.
The envy must have turned my eyes green because it was coursing through my body.
She had that look a woman got when she'd just had good dick. I'd seen it so many times before. A glazing over of the eyes with a soft smile on the lips.
I'd never had that look before.
It's not something one gets when one masturbates.
It's also not something one gets when one tries to use teenage boys to mimic the real thing.
My lips set into a hard line as I watched my mother brush her hair.
She was still humming and I found it so unnerving.
That tune.
Why that tune?
Mom never hummed.
Did Jacob make her
that
happy?
Did his loving provide that much goodness?
Would I ever get to experience it?
I stood there, trying not to make a sound as I pondered this, a slow fear rising in my body.
What if I never got to experience it?