Castillo. Day nine. Wednesday.
I didn't always sleep naked. Now, I do. Ever since a few days ago, I've decided that I should always sleep naked. For obvious reasons.
Awareness stirs in me as morning seeps underneath my eyes, diffused light filtering from behind the blinds. It takes a second or two for my senses to kick in, a few more for me to move in the bed. My ears catch an unfamiliar sound; I keep my eyes closed because I suspect what's going on. This is actually the second morning where I'm awoken by strange sounds near my room. Yesterday, my door was locked. Last night, I left it unlocked. Curiosity.
There's movement about, near my bed. I sense the sheets being pulled off my body, exposing my nudity. I tremble a bit from the difference in temperature, but mostly from the excitement.
"You're going to want to open your eyes for this," a voice murmurs in the room.
I open my eyes; hovering above my bed is my sister Heather, standing in the relative darkness of the room. She's wearing her traditional pajamas, with only one button in the middle holding the top closed. I say nothing, staring at her; she stares back, all smiles. She's the one that made the move to come into my room - she should be the one to take the next first step.
"Morning," she whispers.
"It is," I reply.
She stares between my legs.
"I was told that... uh... you know... morning wood?"
"Yeah... doesn't always happen," I tell her. "I mean, sometimes, yeah. But not always."
She looks disappointed for a second, then shrugs it off.
"I thought I might... hummm..."
"Yes?"
"Well..."
Again, she stares between my legs. The attention it is getting is enough to provoke a reaction; then again, lately, the slightest suggestion makes it snap at attention. Good little soldier, I think.
"Wow," she says.
"This can't be the first time you've seen one."
"Obviously not," she replies in a sarcastic whisper. "I saw it last week, duh!"
I giggle.
"I mean... mine can't be the only one you've seen?"
"Oh no... well, besides the internet. No, I've seen a few live."
"And?"
She stares at me, dumbfounded.
"And what?"
"And how does it compare?"
"To what I've seen? It's very decent."
"Only decent?" I joke.
She giggles in response. She sits on the side of the bed.
"Well, I'd have to..."
She doesn't finish her sentence; she looks at the door, sighing.
"This is... wrong, right?"
I don't look away; I stare at her until her gaze returns to me.
"It's only wrong if you feel it's wrong," I tell her.
"Yeah, we've talked about this. God, Grant..."
She closes her eyes; her hand wanders to my thigh. I shiver but remain quiet.
"I'm... I'm feeling things that I really, really like, you know."
"Oh! I know, believe me!" I tell her.
Her hand caresses my thigh; I stare at it as it edges nearer to my crotch.
"And I just want to give in, and if I do, it's like... it's a slippery slope, I think."
"I'm with you on that," I concur.
She isn't looking at what she's doing; her hand is right near my erection, resting on my hip.
"Would... would you like me to?"
She's transfering the power to me; I want to say 'yes' desperately but I can't. Not yet.
"Heather, look at me."
She twists her head, spots her hand, moves it back, then looks at me.
"What do you need to hear?" I ask.
"I need you to tell me that this is normal."
I can't lie.
"It's not normal," I reply. "But not for the reason you think."
"Oh?"
"It's not normal because... because I'm very... very... remarkable."
I can't phrase it honestly this time; I can't tell her about my power. It's too risky - there are too many variables. The worse is I think she would believe me.
"You are," she says. "So much."
"And what you're feeling," I continue, "it's... well, it's not just you."
That's the only way I can explain it.
"Oh!" she replies, "believe me, I know! I see the way Stacey looks at you. Pauline too."
"Pauline?"
"Oh! Don't pretend you haven't been boning the neighbor!" she replies.
I'm surprised she noticed; I thought I was discreet. Nonetheless, I decide not to deny it.
"Well, I seem to be... irrestible. And she is gorgeous."
"Maybe," she says, "but it's more than that. I told you, Grant. You are the kindest, gentlest person I know."
"And you are so... so pretty, I tell her. I know, I shouldn't comment strictly on your appearance, but you've grown to be such a complete person. Plus, I see the way you care too."
"I just..."
She's about to say something but she changes her mind mid-sentence, going back to her previous idea.
"It's just hard, you know, with you being... kin."
She doesn't say the 'b' word so I don't say it. However, my mind sparks on an idea.
"What if I weren't?"
"What?"
I look back a moment, then think of it.
"I'll ask you a question, Heather, and I want you think about it before you answer. It's... a really important question."
"Ok," she answers with a hint of reserve.
I have to phrase it correctly.
"If you had a choice, between feeling this away about me, or not feeling this away about me, which would you choose?"
I can see she takes my question seriously; it's not an easy reflexion for her and I see the turmoil in her eyes as she struggles with the two conflicting ideas. Thinking about it myself, I acknowledge there's a missing component to my inquiry.
"What if it weren't an issue either?"
"Come again?"
"What if our relationship wasn't an issue?"
The wheels in her head are turning to my questions - suggestions, really. She can't make up her mind.
"What do you want for us?" I continue.