"I need you to do something for me Rachel. I need you to forget everything that happened since Friday that involved my program. I need you to forget everything about the program. Forget everything I did to you with the program. Forget everything we did together with the program. No more memories of any of these things, no more triggers, forget it all. As far as you're concerned, you had a normal weekend."
***
Rachel tried to stifle her yawn with the arm that had been propping her head up when the credits finally appeared on screen. Her other hand laid comfortingly along her friend's stomach. She looked down at Janet, soundly asleep on her lap, the dim light from the tv illuminating her face with a soft glow.
Rachel smiled warmly at her friend, appreciating the peaceful look on her face. It was a look that brought relief to Rachel.
She argued the merits of spending the night on the couch with her, if only to avoid potentially disturbing Janet by getting up. She sat there silently for a few more minutes, the DVD looping back to the main menu, before deciding to take the risk.
Reaching down, Rachel cradled Janet's head carefully in her hands as she twisted her body out from under her. With almost practiced dexterity, she deftly placed a pillow where she once sat, slowly and gently lowering Janet's head onto it. When Janet made no indication of stirring, Rachel straightened up, proud of her accomplishment. With one last delicate move, she pulled the blanket up past Janet's shoulders. 'Good thing she's a heavy sleeper', Rachel mused.
Turning around, Rachel picked up the remote to shut their devices off. She made her way across the room and towards the hallway, staying on her toes and carefully avoiding the creaky spot on the floor. Entering her room, Rachel closed her door quietly before turning on the lamp next to the bed.
'I feel like I lost a friend today.' Rachel wondered whom Janet was referring to when she said that. The two only shared a few friends, and Rachel couldn't see how any of them could have done something to affect Janet in such a way. She'd like to ask the girl, but wasn't sure if she should pry. Maybe Janet will tell her when she was ready.
Whomever it was, Rachel was sure to get back at them for making Janet upset. How anyone could do that was beyond her. While preparing for bed, she began thinking of all the girls she wished it was, just so she could have an excuse to slap them. The idea left her chuckling. Every girl she despised began running through her head, even if they didn't know Janet.
Dressed in her pajamas, Rachel crawled into bed. She arranged her pillows so that she could comfortably relax with her back against the headboard, wiggling her body to get into the perfect position. Satisfied, Rachel reached over and opened her nightstand drawer, pulling out her diary. Grabbing her pen, she flipped through the pages to find the latest entry.
A small square of paper slipped from the diary. 'What the fuck?' She picked it up. It looked to be the same kind of material used for receipts. Rachel turned it over, noticing a phone number written on the other side. She looked for any other markings, finding none. She studied the number. It wasn't one she recognized. With a look of confusion, she placed the paper on her nightstand, returning to her diary.
Rachel returned to the page the paper fell from. She scanned Sunday's entry, the contents unrecognizable to her. She went back a day. Looking closely at the words, she scrutinized key letters. There was no mistaking it; it was definitely written by her, but she had no memory of writing them.
She flipped through more until she found the first familiar section, dated Thursday. "Three whole days," she muttered. Rachel tried to think of what had happened over the past three days. She had a strong sense that it had been a normal weekend, but when she tried to recall any details, the days felt blank. Her last concrete memory was coming home from class on Friday. After that... the only thing that came to mind was that she had a normal weekend.
Rachel closed her eyes tightly and pinched the bridge of her nose. 'I must be tired', she thought. She shook her head before glancing back at the foreign words. They remained unchanged. "Crap".
Through equal parts morbid curiosity and apprehension, Rachel began reading the first offending entry.
***
Friday, 5/20
Technically writing this Saturday morning.
No way I could have written last night.
Not after what happened! My arms are STILL sore.
Don't even know where to begin with today.
Mistress made a thing.
A program of sorts, on her tablet.
Don't know how it works,
but it can make me do things. Feel things.
She somehow made a device that she can control
people with. Like, actually control.
First she made me call her mistress.
As is evident, I can't even write her name.
Never knew she was such a perv.
I admit I was pretty mad about it. Whatever.
After what happened later, I can forgive her.
Weird thing is, that could be her program talking.
She made me okay with what she had done to me.
I'm aware of that, too, and yet I'm not bothered.
Spooooky.
And then she did the toothbrush thing. Her 'apology'.
I don't think words could ever describe what happened.
It was like every orgasm I've ever felt, but
combined into one in the span of... I'm not even sure
how long it lasted. Too bad it seems to be a one time event.
Just thinking about it... Gotta go entry done! <3
Saturday, 5/21
No matter how hard I tried,
I just couldn't satisfy myself today.
Nothing can compare to last night.
That's not to say things were... bad...
But they certainly don't compare to last night.
I'm just left trying to chase after memories.
Mistress left her tablet here.
I tried using it, but couldn't unlock it.
Damn password.
I just wanted to scratch this itch, since I had
nothing else to distract me.