Chapter 2 – Tammy's Dream
Thankfully over the next few days I had no more dreams—the revelation of some, if not all, of my Melanie Dream being real events enough of a shock to my system. I had eavesdropped on the girls' conversation, and from all I could discern, things happened the way I dreamt through Melanie.
I had to figure out what I could about the dreams before they drove me insane. They became an obsession, to the point where I was blowing off work to surf the internet for some clue as to what could be happening. To analyze them better, I listed what I knew of the two dreams I could recall the best for comparison:
Suzanne's dream had some truth to it:
1. Her boyfriend had been over that night
2. My dream had candles in the bedroom, and when I woke saw the same flickering light in her bedroom window.
3. I MAY have touched Suzanne that day helping her with groceries
4. My thoughts had been sexual about her all day
Melanie's dream had some truth to it:
1. She had fucked a stranger whose name she did not get at the club
2. She had fucked two guys named Brad and Tim at the club
3. Brad and Tim were brothers
4. The group had drank margaritas all night
5. I discovered the first guy had actually taken Melanie's thong—white lace just like my dream—overhearing Jennifer tease Melanie about it in the copy room.
6. I had touched Melanie that day, running into her from the copy room
7. My thoughts all day had been sexual towards her
I was able to place a couple other girls from previous dreams; however, none of those were as vivid as the last two with Melanie and Suzanne; nor could I verify those dreams, so was stuck with these observations. The problem with the older dreams was they had been too short and vague—I had woken up in the middle of them, my mind too shocked about the circumstances of dreaming being a woman. Melanie's Dream was the only one I had followed through to completion. The only explanation I could come up with for seeing her dream completely was after having had the previous dreams experiencing sex through her was not as much of a shock. Maybe I was acclimating my subconscious to the idea—which in and of itself was bizarre.
Reviewing the highlights of the dreams, the main similarities were lusting after the women and having recent contact with them. I remembered touching Melanie the day of the dream; I could not recall whether I had touched Suzanne, but helping with her groceries I had close enough contact it could not be rule it out. I did not remember any physical contact with the other women dreamed, although one was a server at Starbucks, so I could not rule contact with them either.
The other commonality was the sexual desire I had for the women, particularly to watch Melanie get some at the club. Being the horny male I was, I knew I would not have minded seeing the other women I dreamt of get the same, though I could only remember my lustful thoughts of Suzanne and Melanie definitively of all the earlier dreams, being so fresh in my mind. Still, all the women were good looking, so how could I not have thought about having sex with them?
Researching the internet, I found no shortage of theories explaining what could be occurring, ranging from manifestations of my psyche to spectral projection, where I was a disembodiment of my subconscious. I explored dream interpretations as well; however, so many aspects of my dreams existed, interpretations ranged from being normal to gay to a wanting a pony for my eighth birthday—total bullshit.
As there appeared to be some reality to the dreams, I also investigated articles on prophesy and clairvoyance, but nothing described dreaming events actually occurring while I slept. The closest explanation I could find was the disembodied experience, but even that did not explain everything.
The only good advice I got out of all the study was to maintain a "dream diary" to record everything when I woke up. This would serve several purposes: it would record the dreams so I could verify if events actually happened, be able to compare them better, and, if worse came to worse, I could have some shrink look them over. The dreams were not harmful, so seeing the head doctor was premature, but at least I would be prepared in the eventuality.
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The following weekend one of my old college buddies Neil and his wife were holding a football party, so Sunday found me driving to their house. Arriving I found a lot of my buds already there, parking in the street due to lack of driveway space. Walking to the front door I overheard loud yelling and cheering from inside the house, knowing the party was well under way even though the games were not starting for another hour or so.
I let myself in knowing nobody would hear me knock and headed straight to the kitchen to drop off my donation of a twelve-pack and grocery bags full of snacks and dips I picked up from the store on the way over.