I had often fantasised about my wife openly and brazenly cuckolding me. It was - and remains - difficult to explain why. The very idea of my beautiful wife taking a lover, of the pair of them deriving salacious pleasure from rubbing my nose in the fact - the thought of it was so very erotic. In my head. The mind games involved in such a scenario seemed just as stimulating as, perhaps even more so than, the actual physical act itself.
As much as I might desire it, I knew without a shred of doubt in my mind that Sammy would never for one second seriously contemplate such a relationship. Even if she might, she would be more than a little hard-pressed to find a partner she would like enough to do it with anyway. A man with the gumption, charm, nerve, free-time and intelligence to really understand and deliver the nuances of such a 3-way inter-relationship probably didn't even exist in reality.
And then, there was the fact that my wife was simply not that way inclined. Sammy was a nice girl. It really was that simple. Of these facts I was absolutely and one hundred percent certain. Not least because I had tried to lure her to embark on this road. On many occasions.
I had finally, though grudgingly, accepted that this was never going to happen at the end of the previous year.
After much persuasion (aka incessant nagging) on my part, Sammy had finally albeit unenthusiastically agreed to at least look at the possibility of meeting for drinks - if I could find a prospective 'Bull' who might be a suitable 'candidate'. So, in May, I had finally been given the green light to begin searching.
We had already agreed that this was not something that could ever be allowed to involve or affect any current friend, work colleague, acquaintance or neighbour. It was also not a situation that was likely to pitch up by chance either. This would require an active search and find.
The problem with that little enterprise was that after scouring internet sites supposedly dedicated to cuckold/bull relationships, it became clear that the kind of men who labelled themselves to be a 'Bull' all fell somewhere on the spectrum of narcissistic, insecure, shallow, opportunistic, sociopathic, arrogant arse who was looking for an easy and preferably instant leg-over. That kind of man was never going to appeal to Sammy. Not in a million years.
Registering on some of the more up-market contact websites proved a tad more successful. Or, at least a tad less vomit-inducing. She had even agreed for us to meet up for lunchtime drinks with several men we chatted to after they responded to our couple's profiles on those sites and acquitted themselves well during initial online and phone chats. Unfortunately, every one of them proved to be unsuitable for one reason or another. Or Sammy simply didn't fancy them.
None of this was about shallow casual sex, swinging or other similar pursuits. So, that ruled out roughly 95% of the 'applicants' from the outset. At 32, Samantha was a very intelligent, slender, beautiful and accomplished lady. She had established a respected career as Personal Assistant to a Senior Partner in a major international law firm. Far more high-powered than my taxi driving existence. Her job often involved long, irregular hours and hard work. Her spare time was precious. She was certainly not going to be interested in wasting her time on pointless liaisons with anybody. To pique her interest, a man would require a certain depth of character and intellect.
Sammy had pointed out to me from the outset that, in her view, any man who could possibly interest her would most probably be already in a full-time relationship of some kind anyway. He would in all probability already have commitments such that he wouldn't have the time or resources to be available to sufficiently please her, far less to deliver what I was proposing.
Or, I had concluded, more likely she was just stringing me along with the whole thing in order to shut me up until I took the hint. So, I reluctantly had to accept that Sammy didn't understand, like or want - let alone share any interest whatsoever in this fantasy of mine. I reluctantly had to accept that It was never going to happen. And that had been the end of it.
I of course had reacted in the time-honoured way that any mature, sophisticated 38-year-old man who hasn't got his own way would do. I sulked. And I was no ordinary sulker. I could in fact sulk for England. Since her refusal to play my game, I had become more and more withdrawn and fractious. I managed to find fault with just about anything and everything that she said or did. I reasoned that my behaviour was perfectly understandable, since It was just not fair that she wouldn't at least try to accept that this might even be fun. If she would only give it a fair crack of the whip. But she wouldn't.
This particular sulk had indeed gone on for almost a year, since that final acceptance back in January. As I became more withdrawn, Sammy had begun to work and socialise more without me purely in order to avoid being around me. And that suited me fine. She obviously didn't care about me anyway. So, what the hell. Oh yes. I could sulk alright.
I went underground, scanning the internet from time to time for cuckold related porn, erotic stories, video footage, chatrooms. You name it, I'd probably seen it. I was never sure that I could actually take it in real life anyway. But there was nothing to stop me fantasising instead. And yes, I even masturbated as I did so from time to time. In truth, it was probably much more than a 'from time to time occurrence. More along the lines of daily. Sometimes more.
I maintained this perfectly reasonable position until Sammy begged me for a cease-fire, at least until after Christmas. She wanted us to have a "Nice, happy Christmas."
And so it was that we were booked in for a romantic weekend away in a 5-star hotel alongside the River Thames in the English county of Surrey and just over 20 miles west of central London. It was to be a pre-Christmas treat for my gorgeous wife. Over the last several months, she had dropped several not so subtle hints that this was the only thing that she really wanted for Christmas. She made it clear that it would be easier to give in and book it. Even though it had cost a king's ransom.