I woke to the smell of cooking bacon and brewing coffee. I pulled myself together and went up the stairs into the Kitchen where I saw Mary busy making breakfast. She looked at me gesturing to the pan and I nodded as she cracked two more eggs. I poured myself a cup of coffee and sat down as she slid my plate in front of me and sat down to her own breakfast.
"Are Mom and Rebecca alright?" she asked in a hesitant voice.
"What do you mean?" I replied around a mouthful of bacon and egg.
"Well, last night I was really tired for some reason but I think I heard them crying." She replied, poking at her own food.
I reached out and took her hand "I can tell you why you were tired, you naughty girl." I chided, and she blushed at the memory of our last encounter. Then Sarah and Rebecca came into the room, both had dark circles under their eyes but seemed cheerful as they smiled at us.
"Thanks for making breakfast dear." Sarah said as she dished up a serving for her and Rebecca.
"Yeah, ditto for me." Rebecca followed, pouring a cup of coffee for both of them and bringing it to the table. They sat down and dug into their food eagerly. There was little conversation as we ate, all three of them seemed too nervous to say anything as they focused on their meals. After breakfast was done, they all sat there sipping our coffee, looking anywhere but each other.
"Gangster Rap." I said, and 3 heads dropped to their chests. I had experienced enough close calls when I assumed I knew what these women were thinking. This seemed like the perfect opportunity to get everything out in the open, without screwing something up.
"Sarah, Mary, Rebecca, we have been through a lot of changes over the last little while. I think it is time that we talked about how we feel about the new normal around here. Do you understand?" I said, and their heads nodded.
"When you talk, I want you to tell the honest truth about what you feel. I don't want you to worry about what others think, or what you think you should say. The truth is the only thing that you will be able to say, do you understand?" Again, three heads nodded. I was relieved that none of them furrowed their brow, or looked hesitant, it seemed like everyone wanted their cards on the table. "Sarah, what happened between you and Rebecca yesterday and last night?" I started.
Sarah started "Yesterday, when we were shopping, I told Rebecca that while I still loved her like a daughter, I no longer saw her as my flesh and blood anymore. I told her that she had grown up and I saw her as a woman, instead of my little girl. I also told her that I was sorry for what Jacob had done to her over her life and that I wished I could do something to make it up to her."
"Alright Rebecca, how did that make you feel?" I asked, turning to her.
"First, I was scared. She has always been there for me, but now she says that she doesn't see me as her daughter anymore? Then I got angry, angry at how Jacob had treated me and that she stood by and let it happen. I decided that if she didn't want to be my mom anymore, then I may as well stop pretending to be the daughter she wanted me to be." Rebecca replied in a passionate voice, as if reliving the moment.
"Sarah, what happened then?"
"We fought." Sarah continued. "We argued in the car about how difficult her life had been and how I had tried to help, but was just too scared. When we got home, she stormed off to her room, and I was too upset to do anything so I went to my room and cried. That is when Chad came to me and told me how I could fix things, make things up to Rebecca for my failures as a mother to her."
"What happened Sarah?" I probed, and noticed that Mary had leaned closer despite her trance state.
"Chad took me out to the barn and tied me to the bench, then Rebecca came out and punished me for all of the bad things that I had done to her. For how I had failed her as a mother." Sarah said in a soft, scared voice.
"Rebecca, what happened last night?" I asked as I turned to her.
"She made me so angry; it brought back memories all of the things that Jacob did to me. How he abused me, how he made me feel insignificant, how he hurt me, everything that he had done to me and how helpless I felt. I was mad, and I couldn't take it out on Jacob, so I took it out on Mom." Rebecca said with a sob.
"What did you do Rebecca" I pressed.
"I dressed in my dominatrix outfit, I made myself up as strong and sexy as I could then I beat her like she was a slave. I called her a bitch, told her that if she didn't want me as her daughter, then this is who I would be. Then I hit her until I couldn't hit her anymore." Rebecca said, as she lifted her chin with a prideful jerk.
"And how did that make you feel?" I prompted.
"Angry at first, then ashamed over what I had done. It wasn't Sarah's fault that Jacob did that to me, she did the best she could. She was just as scared of him as we were." She replied.
"No Rebecca, not that. How did dominating Sarah, just like you had dominated Mary, make you feel?" I said, leaning forward and putting my hand on hers.
Rebecca clenched her fist in my grip. She took a shuddering breath "It made me feel powerful, sexy, my god, it turned me on. I was in charge; I could do whatever I wanted to her and she was helpless to do anything but take it." She said in a rush.
I turned to where Sarah sat. There was a curious expression on her face, almost relief at what she had just heard. "Sarah, how did it feel to be dominated by Rebecca?" I asked.
She hesitated, her fingers twitching around each other as she fought with herself. "Sarah, the truth." I said in a firm voice.
"Oh God forgive me, but it felt good. The pain was there, but it was nothing that I haven't been through before, but she was so beautiful and commanding. I was so proud of her; she wasn't the scared little girl that I was afraid she was going to be. She had walked through the fires of Hell and come out the other side tempered like steel." Sarah took a deep breath and continued "I am ashamed to say this, but it made me wet, just like when Jacob or Chad would do it to me."
"Would you like Rebecca to do that again? To control and dominate you as your mistress?" I asked, holding my breath.
"Yes, if she wanted to I would not object." Sarah replied, and I heard Rebecca take in a sharp breath.
"Rebecca, do you want to be the Mistress of this house? Do you want to command Sarah the same as you do Mary? Tell the truth." I asked, holding my breath again.
Rebecca hesitated, then nodded her head. "Yes, that is what I want. After yesterday I realize that I am no longer a daughter, or at least the person I was before. I will always love Sarah as the woman who raised me, but she is no longer my Mom." She said firmly and she squeezed my hand in hers.
I turned to Mary who had been sitting attentively the entire time. "Mary, what do you think of this? Can you accept Rebecca like this?"
Mary nodded. "Yes, yes I can. I have already realized that we have moved beyond being the sisters that we were before, but that is alright. Nothing has changed between Mom and I, just how we see Rebecca now. If this is how the family is going to be from now on, I can support this." She said without hesitation, thanks to the suggestion I gave her yesterday afternoon.
"Alright, I am the master of this house, and Rebecca is my partner and your Mistress. If you think that she is being too much of a bitch, you can come to me. Other than when we play, things should remain the same, we are all adults here, do you understand and accept this?" I asked, and all three of them nodded.
I leaned back and let out a long, shuddering breath.