Charlotte's Addiction
[This story is the sequel/conclusion to Charlotte's Obsession.]
[My thanks to Mo for his edits, suggestions and encouragement to complete the tale.]
May 1:
This may not be the smartest thing, but then again what I did a week ago was pretty 'effen' risky. So I started this journal -- double pass-worded of course -- to keep track of how far I run with my fantasy in case I need it for psycho-therapy or to reminisce when I'm in the nursing home.
To be fair, I'm not going to pretend what I have done and plan on doing is ethical or moral or right. It's selfish. I could have made do with the material available on the porn sites, or I can rationalize that Sean's ability to convince me he could seduce Charles or to convince Charles to fellate him (such a proper word by the way) means the willingness was always there just below the surface. The old saw about how someone can't be hypnotized to do something they would never do, if true, means Charles always had a submissive trait deep inside him.
One way to look at it is Sean merely got me to admit to a closely held secret, and he got Charles to lower his resistance to what would otherwise be unthinkable. I consider what I did a nice, healthy threesome. Everyone orgasmed -- enthusiastically. So where's the harm in that.
But let's be clear. I never cheated on Charles after I met him, and I have no reason to think he did either. OK, when we were living together, I did let his squadron commander at Travis give me a pearl necklace once but the jerk was holding back Charles' request to be an instructor at Altus because he wanted to keep him on the line. The guy thought I was just another hot chick working at the O'Club to snare a pilot, until I paid him a visit in his office. It was better leverage than having Colonel-Daddy call him from Langley. Altus was pretty barren compared to NoCal but just the right place to start a marriage and a family.
Anyway, I spoke with Sean this afternoon about what I need to do to keep the thrall nurtured. Sean clearly wants to fuck his ass without my encouraging it. I suppose I could make it Charles' fault because of all the swimming and cycling he does.
But Sean explained it to me in a way that just made sense, and I had to agree. Sean wants him to get used to swallowing cum and being receptive to direction. He wants him feminized a bit as well so that he remains submissive and controlled. Since he's gone back east for the next two weeks, I need to reinforce his control. We had talked about the end of the month for the next event, but Sean thought two weeks might be enough.
He suggested some new underwear- - silk panties for men, stockings and some sort of soft top. And since doing anal could startle him a bit, a couple of butt plugs of different sizes and some lube. He also gave me suggestions for types of videos.
Apparently, there's a porn video for any fetish you might have. Hypnosis to make you gay or a sissy or more feminine----dozens upon dozens. Eat your own cum (EYOC in porn parlance) training is in there too.
I found a collection of EYOC that featured a Domme, a spiral, subliminals, a voice-over, cocks ejaculating and a slightly bored, PVC clothed chick smoking a VS120. The Domme gave the instructions, the voice-over teased and the subliminals were commands and images. The oral/anal sex I picked also had a woman watching while smoking. I guess Freud could explain why the oral fixation is a lure. Or maybe it's just that only bad girls smoke.
I also found a site where you could make your own spirals.
So, I sent the links to Sean, and he approved. The videos could be downloaded, and the make your own site was very easy.
Next, I ordered two pairs of panties: black lace and a burgundy lace that split in the back. Charles is gone this week so no worry about UPS. The "devices" required a trip to Sarah's Boutique. On impulse (hah!) I added an insertable egg vibrator with a remote; gives one the hands-free option.
May 4:
The panties arrive. I have several pairs of black thigh-highs and a black fishnet chemise that will fit. I stored them in the guest room dresser along with the devices. I don't know why; it's not like the neighbors go through my drawers.
May 5:
After our weekly Friday night Esparza's gathering, we got settled on the patio for quiet time. My hands were shaking a bit as I dialed Sean, telling Charles he had called for him earlier.
Charles took the phone and a moment later was listening with his eyes closed. His only responses were various forms of yes or agreeing. While they were talking, I went and got the laptop.
Giving the phone back to me, he then sat quietly. Sean told me to lower his pants, then run the Domme video and have a lotion and a wash cloth ready. I was not to interrupt, but when the video was over, I was to give him the cloth, pour some lotion in his hand and tell him to obey me. I could then encourage him to obey the video as it replayed. I agreed.
I told Charles I was going to get us some tequila. I needed some to calm my nerves and sedating him a bit more couldn't hurt. When I came back, I linked up the laptop and told him Sean wanted him to watch this. Then the big step---prompting him that Sean wanted him to be relaxed. He did it without question. Air pods next and press play.
He watched intently, trying to absorb the multiple inputs. About halfway through, he started to fondle himself. By the end, he was almost erect.
When the video stopped, he kept staring at the screen. I downed the rest of my glass and then stood between him and the TV. I asked him if he understood what the lady wanted. He did.
I put some lotion in his hand and the cloth in the other. I told him to cum in the cloth and then lick it up--just as she commanded, just as Sean wanted, just as I wanted. On impulse I decided to stand slightly off to the side and light up, blowing the smoke towards him.
I started the video.
Four minutes in he released. Hard. He brought the cloth up and hesitated. I stepped closer and let out a long nose exhale. I told him to do it; he had no choice; he had to please Sean.
Five or six licks later I took the cloth from him and praised him for being obedient.
I sent him in to shower and on to bed as he had his group ride in the morning. After cleaning up, I went straight to the guest room and got the lube and vibrator. Another shot of tequila, followed by a slow ratcheting up of the frequency, and before too long, my toes were cramping as my body spasmed.
May 7:
About 30 minutes before our usual bed time, I set up the patio. I also put the vibrator in.
He was in the study finishing up his plans for the week, when I asked him to join me for a shot and quick chat. He followed me out, but hesitated as he got close to the table.
I reminded him of his call with Sean and how we wanted him to relax for a moment. He blinked a few times and then slowly walked to the chair. I undid his pants as he sat down. Air pods in and press play.